Im alone

In addition to my pocd / false memory OCD situation, I feel like Im going to pass away with no friends, no girlfriend, and no family. I have no one who loves me. And Im going to pass away alone. I slowly have to accept that. Theres nothing I can do except live out my life, not knowing if my worst fears have come true or not, and slowly wither away while everyone moves on with their lives and forgets my name. Im unloved, alone, and miserable. Thats who I am. The end.

Imnew@this

Date posted: 47w

I’m so sorry that you’re going through this. Please don’t let yourself get to that dark place. You are loved, you are worthy, you mean more to people than you think. God bless.

Givenup

Date posted: 47w

@Imnew@this If I meant more to people than what I thought, I wouldnt make my girl friend uncomfortable unintentionally, and at least someone, ANYONE, would check up on me. No. I dont have that. While everyone else lives their lives without any sort of care in the world, Im stuck in my own shitty head, and this shitty world where Im a loser with no friends or no girlfriend. I feel stupid, I dont feel like Im good enough. I dont feel like Im going to get my dream job, and I hate myself so damn much... theres nothing but the void in my future... and god hates me... hates me enough to let me suffer because "he knows Im tough and strong willed" and yet, he doesnt give my any sort of payoff for the amount of times Ive picked myself back up and kept on going. Im not loved by anyone. Im not worthy to anyone. Im just a burden whose going to pass away alone. And no one cares.

Endlessly Po...

Date posted: 47w

I am sorry you are struggling, you are not alone. Lots of people respond to your post here. Don’t be so hard on yourself

AnonymousEm

Date posted: 47w

You have not even met some of the people yet who will love you for who you are, ocd and all. Everyone is alone, together. We are all living alone, but alongside people who are often waiting to be there for us. Sometimes, being there for someone else— doing for others— gets us outside of our heads as well and in the way of beauty. Every state we’re in is temporary. You don’t know what tomorrow brings. Bring yourself into tomorrow. Do something out of the ordinary. Drive to/from work a different way than usual. Walk somewhere you’ve never been. Get a fufu beverage you like, or a treat. Call someone you haven’t spoken to in a long time, or text/write them. There’s a lot of love. Don’t deprive yourself of it because it feels “safe” to say you are unloved forever. That’s just a certainty you cannot have, and it doesn’t prevent you from further pain. Miserable is a temporary state. So is happiness. When I’m miserable, I go sit in the sun. I drive to the ocean or the park, if it’s just too much effort. I just lay there, when it’s all too much. When the big sad weighs me down, I choose a distraction, a mental indulgence that isn’t maladaptive. Sit in the sun, drink the tea, and show your brain how to see what you have to look forward to instead of what you dread. The time will pass anyway, you know.

aspureasgreen

Date posted: 47w

Hey, we are your OCD community. We are here to listen to you.

Givenup

Date posted: 24w

Theres no hope for me

And i dont think there ever will be... im genuinely feeling horrible and i dont feel like ill ever recover from today... first the youtuber mocking pocd... to someone on NOCD telling me that im hiding behind a diagnosis and that i need to turn myself in... im genuinely at a loss for words... i am broken and alone... I have no one to turn to... and at this point i dont think i ever will...

Gato0z

Date posted: 22w

Any advice?

I feel completely unlovable. I have a difficult time getting close to people because of my OCD and I have to force myself to not compulsively seek reassurance. I feel like I’ll never find my person. I’m worried I’ll be an awful wife because of my inability to do anything. I want to show up for my partner, but I feel stuck because of my OCD. I think it’s safer to just be alone.

💟

Date posted: 22w

lonely

My pocd makes me feel really lonely. I have friends who I love but they also struggle with mental health too, and when I'm there to listen and support them sometimes it's just too much and I feel like a bad friend. I can't help but feel like it's not the same, I know you can't compare your struggles to others but sometimes when my friend is telling me how they feel a lack of motivation and depressed I honestly wish I was just dealing with that instead of that and fearing that I'm a pedophile ontop of it. Like at least the thing you're dealing with isn't something that will make 90% of the population despise you, you know? I know that sounds bad and isn't very mature but I'm always the therapist friend for other people, and I'm the only one actually seeking help and trying to get better and I arguably have the worst thing to deal with. I feel like my friends only want to talk to me when they're depressed or need advice and I'm so tired of it.

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