Thc and soocd—21+ !!

Can testing for groinal responses cause them to happen? For example i will think of an intrusive thought in the past or create a fake scenario in my head and i will start to feel something down there every time. It’s it a learned response for the trama of this thoughts? Or i’m an actually a P. Dose anyone else experience this with POCD or should i look into get more help?

Please help… I’m starting to panic and I know I shouldn’t do this because it’s a compulsion and I’m looking for reassurance but I wanna know if it happens to others so I just watched a video on TikTok about this mother loosing her child to fentanyl and like I don’t know why every time a drug is mentioned or like I see someone drugged in the street my mind instantly makes me feel the urge of wanting the drug when I really don’t or making me think I’m gonna become addicted to a drug (I don’t do drugs I’m scared) like it scares me because I see what they do to people but it makes me feel like the urge to do it or to think I might become addicted or I might go try it and become an addict idk the worst case scenario it makes me think or like someone is gonna drug me. Like I always feel like someone is gonna drug me I always feel like someone is out to drugging me or I grab something and i immediately think I’m gonna become drugged. I hate it.

Does anyone else have the strong urge to do some sort of drugs sometimes when there ocd gets really bad or over nothing in general, like I’ll just be sitting doing nothing and my brain goes “you need to do cocaine right now or else” and I get a urge and it’s so like odd to me??? I’ve never done drugs in my life and never plan to because my father was a addict and I’ve seen what they’ve done to people so it scares me when I get these thoughts and then I get the urge to reach out to someone who can give me drugs and I play this whole scenario in my mind where I contact someone and I meet up with them and pay them for the drugs and then I take them and die and it’s like??? Idk I’ve had weird intrusive thoughts involving drugs before but this is like different if that makes sense, I also can’t stop focusing on how my body feels when this happens like it’ll feel like I was a previous addict and that I’m going through withdrawal and need something or else and it’s just so weird to me. Anyone else go through this?