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What caused these thoughts
at 15 I develop pocd and I still don’t know what caused these thoguhts , I’m horrified with myself
at 15 I develop pocd and I still don’t know what caused these thoguhts , I’m horrified with myself
My ocd really got bad at 15 too. That’s when I first noticed it picking up. You don’t need to have all the answers as to why many times I am horrified by myself too and even at times hate myself for some of the things I think and do. But that is not us, ocd is not who we are. You will find ways to manage this, I am now in college and some days are better than others but it has definitely gotten better than how it was when I was 15. Therapy can help though I also understand the thoughts can be unbearable. You are not alone and you will get through this. 💕
I know how it feels but trust me you’re going to get better. Even if it takes months or even years, you’ll be okay.
Officially, nobody knows for sure, but I have a personal theory that many people find reasonable. As you might be aware, our brains continuously record everything happening around us, 24/7. Think of it like having a "memory maid" who constantly tidies up your mental space. This memory maid is responsible for regularly recycling memory space because our memory capacity is limited. She works by reviewing stored memories, opening them up, and discarding those deemed insignificant. However, if a memory is related to your core values or something important to you, like family, faith, or morals, she brings it to your conscious awareness for consideration. For most people, they do not react strongly to these memories, allowing them to be discarded. However, someone with OCD might fixate on the content of the memory. In an attempt to assist in decision-making, the brain presents "what if" scenarios, which can increase confusion and trigger anxiety. Typically, this emotional reaction occurs because the person feels responsible for recalling these memories. Unfortunately, this cycle perpetuates and distress escalates. Often, the individual resorts to compulsions to alleviate these feelings, further fueling the emotional turmoil. I hope this explanation makes sense.
@hanysm@gmail.com this makes so much sense , thank you for this 💜
@anonymously0123 I wish to add that the same mechanism is normally kick in during sleep and cause those weird dreams we get. That explains two things. First, there is a closet correlation between lack of sleep and OCD flares. Also with OCD this mechanism kicks in during awake, making those thoughts as vividly as a nightmare while eyes open.
@hanysm@gmail.com whenever I try to sleep the thoguhts come more and more and I get restless
@anonymously0123 Let them be, they are not from yours, Just think, whatever, it is a dream. If you wake up think of a happy ending for your dream.
@hanysm@gmail.com thank you (:
Im having weird scary pocd thoughts and i really hate them, i feel like theyre my own thoughts and im freaking out
I am 15 years old and my POCD feels like its not POCD, i feel like i like my intrusive thoughts, but i have more intrusive thoughts about having intrusive thoughts, and i feel like i cant enjoy the things i normally enjoy anymore, like calling with my girlfriend and joking with her because this is still in the back of my mind, its making me question morals and if i ever even viewed P as completely wrong and i hate this so much, i love my nieces and nephews and when they're over i know id never do anything with my intrusive thoughts but when they arent present i feel like i like my thoughts. Before this i was dealing with HOCD and ROCD and i wish i could go back to that
when I was 15 soon to turn 16, I met this girl in a IG group chat made by our mutual friends. We started talking and eventually we started flirting and talking sexual towards each other, though eventually we stopped talking because she was being really weird. A couple months later In July of 2024 my friend found out that she was actually 13 and that she lied to me about her age. It's been 10 months since l've found out and I still feel so disgusted in myself. I had my suspicions at the time but I let them go since she said she was 16 turning 17. I was completely oblivious trusting someone I only knew online especially since i've never seen their face either. i'm struggling on what to do since i've been suffering with POCD since I was 15. Till this day I still feel weird and disgusted in myself because of that. But it feels ironic since i'm sexualizing someone that's 2 years younger than me and I waited to confirm she was around my age range to sexualize her. I feel so weird and guilty about it idk what to do
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