- Date posted
- 40w
This feels too real to be rocd? Need advice..
Is this even rocd or me scared to accept and having a history of ocd just putting it on that…Recently what i have been struggling with is like while talking to him i feel like i am losing interest or getting irritated or think like i have better things to do and like not be interested enough and he says with so much warmth like tell me about his life and i couldn’t be less interested or feel so and yes i dont say it to him but i feel it like i am done and idk if we have anything to talk about as well and i just feel like these feelings are actually true like backed up with what i am feeling and not ocd or intrusive thought but when it comes to me i feel bad and sad and scared not anxious and cant be ocd and this is me stating facts not asking for reassurance want to tell him i am not interested or getting irritated and feel also no connection i really dont know and i am writing this with so much calmness like no fear no anxiousness like stating a truth which is true and i am delaying acceptance or saying it but sooner or later will happen? Lying to him of how i am interested and the guilt is killing me and making anxious not ocd and i know i am not accepting cause otherwise why would i feel so strongly feel this at all and also back up with actions like above and cant deny that i felt it means it is.. Pls help me.. my psychiatrist told me today might not be ocd give it some time and decide and mine has been here intense for 3 days now and so its very possible and maybe i also feel and don’t accept but doesn’t change that i feel that it will not change and is not ocd but just scared to accept and with all the above it is true and no feelings and stuff if not even scared? Pls help… this is not ocd na?