Does this happen in rocd?? Scared!! Pls help!!

@Green Dragon Yeah i was diagnosed with ocd a year and half ago but i feel extremely confused rn.. can you help me pls ig…i has soocd to begin with and then health as well ig idk i was on meds and have started therapy again… but this feels so real can you help me pls..

@Green Dragon I understand but like a part of me feels like you know its ocd and i feel like i know its not and its feeling cause of how it feels and how my actions seem to back it up ig rn.. like even right now i am crying cause i am scared of breaking his heart and losing a great guy but not like scared i dont have feelings which is the part of ocd so that means its not and also does ocd make you think and feel like oh i dont even want to talk to him everything he says irritates me and wants to cut the convo short but out of guilt stays and this is not me thinking but actually happening so it means its so and yes i can ask you a hundred times as well and still not believe ig because what i feel is true which i mentioned above then i should just leave and breakup if i feel nothing but not doing that cause scared no other reason… my therapist spoke about wanting sure answers and if my feeling is already so sure it is so and i know so cant accept? Can this be ocd at all or just anxiousness that i cant accept this? Pls i am sorry to burden this on you but just need help ig …and i spoke to my therapist she said it could not be ocd also so that and with everything and doubt she said that maybe you will breakup and i am more scared of being hated by him which is why i am not doing it but feeling it all the while and when she said maybe it is ocd i was like i feel this cant be and when she said breakup wasnt scared or denied so idk?

@Brave through The thing with ocd is that it is going on in your head. The basic issue is that something is triggering the part of your brain that deals with fear and that part of your brain is not properly dealing with the information. One of the erp methods is put it in a question. You break his heart and what if he gets upset? It could happen. Or you stay with him, what if you don’t love him? It happens. I also have ocd so I know what it takes to get better, but I’m still here, so even with this knowledge I still haven’t improved to the point where I can leave. I’m here for you and right now I need to talk to you. I’m also having problems and you are helping me at least look into my issues.

@Green Dragon Hey yes i am sorry for the late reply i want to be of help and ask for help as well.. i have a few things to ask and you can tell me how you feel ig idk if this even is ocd or reality i am denying and ignoring and actions based proof is me feeling nothing and pretending i do and if i pretend then not true right?

@Green Dragon And these thoughts are there and i am not even questioning them they are there so if i am not questioning which i am actually not and just reading it and triggering me doesn’t mean i question it so i dont that means not ocd cause ocd you question right?

@Brave through In this case what I think is your brain is distressed about this issue, therefore it continues to roll around in your head. Someone who doesn’t suffer from ocd could get the same thought but it would come and go. If I’m reading it right you are obsessing about feeling nothing and then compulsively trying to deal with the distress. In this case pretending. Let the thought come in sit there and don’t let your mind go to the compulsion, just let the thought go.

@Brave through OCD does not always lead to questions. Classic example of ocd. Obsessing that the floor is dirty. Compulsion, clean the floor.

@Green Dragon Hey, i wanted to ask a few other things so my boyfriend went out today and felt like i didn’t even care about it as much or miss him he was thinking about us and how he would like to be with me and i on the other hand texted cause maybe i had to because otherwise he would think i dont care which i dont? And i felt so weird like a forced text and i say i felt it which is true i was watching a show and so busy i forget to even think about him and then thought out of courtesy should text but if its happening because of that then what does that even mean its not true and guilt is true for ocd i just feel this not even guilt and i did it only after feeling okay i have to text so that means actions line up with thoughts and thought was not intrusive or anxiety striking and i still felt it and did it and dont even miss him again that means its not ocd and i am denying cause i did it!!!

@Green Dragon My compulsion usually is to write stuff in my notes like whatever the thought is i have to write it down but it doesn’t seem like a true compulsion also that makes me think its not ocd again then so idk …

@Green Dragon So i just maybe write it down here or ask about it and then try getting answers idk if that ocd then and if its just an assumption then its already not ocd right? With no compulsion as such and an assumption ??

@Brave through Are you getting my texts

@Green Dragon I really hope you reply sorry to bombard like this😞

@Brave through Sorry i replied to myself. 😖 What are you saying is your obsession? Just for now we are going off the assumption that you have ocd

@Green Dragon My obsession was earlier regarding sexual orientation and health and then i had maybe a little bit if suicide so now idk if this relationship ocd but then but in the middle i was writing all thoughts intrusive or not everything and its the same right now so maybe its not ocd right? Cause theres no compulsion as such so its not OCD and that doesnt make me anxious also so means its so…

@Green Dragon Also can you reply to the long one i sent… idk i need some advice..

@Brave through The next text you sent needs to be “I promise”. Promise me you will not harm yourself in any way. Fair enough?

@Green Dragon Yeah ig but i don’t understand what you mean ig yeah i promise i wont harm but can you please reply to my long message?

@Brave through Thank you Brave! Is there another anonymous site we could text in real time? This place is a little clunky.

@Brave through Is this the long text you are talking about? I will respond to this in a few minutes. I just need to reread it. @Green Dragon Hey, i wanted to ask a few other things so my boyfriend went out today and felt like i didn’t even care about it as much or miss him he was thinking about us and how he would like to be with me and i on the other hand texted cause maybe i had to because otherwise he would think i dont care which i dont? And i felt so weird like a forced text and i say i felt it which is true i was watching a show and so busy i forget to even think about him and then thought out of courtesy should text but if its happening because of that then what does that even mean its not true and guilt is true for ocd i just feel this not even guilt and i did it only after feeling okay i have to text so that means actions line up with thoughts and thought was not intrusive or anxiety striking and i still felt it and did it and dont even miss him again that means its not ocd and i am denying cause i did it!!!

@Brave through I’m a little uncomfortable answering this because I don’t know you well enough to evaluate your situation, but here goes. Two things can be true at once, you can have ocd and be in a relationship that you don’t have to be together all the time. I would say it’s pretty clear this text is a sign of ocd. You are obsessing over the idea that you are not acting right in a relationship. Then compulsively doing things that you think are the correct thing to do to maintain your part of a relationship. All relationships are different. You don’t have to miss someone when they are gone, or think about them or text them. You don’t need to feel guilty for not wanting to do these things.

@Brave through Sorry I misread one of your earlier texts, and panicked.

@Green Dragon I would like to talk on another platform definitely… if you have any in mind pls do suggest

@Brave through Do you have Snapchat

@Green Dragon Hello? Are you still there?

@Brave through Not sure if $nap chat is going through