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- hateocd123
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- 5y ago
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- starboiklemstarboiklem
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Im not sure if that's getting over it but i had hocd for 5 years it started when i was 15 and i couldn't even imagine life without it after some point.4 months ago i triggered a much more severe symptom (for me) and now hocd is gone completely and i can't ever see it coming back but it was more like replaced than gone on its own. Idk if it's temporary but after my new theme hocd feels like a joke,id pay to go back to that
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- hateocd123hateocd123
- Date posted
- 5y ago
What's your theme now?
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- starboiklemstarboiklem
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Solipsism/existamental, basically i went from questioning my sexuality to questioning the existence of other minds,for me this one is much more serious because for me thinking im alone in the universe is worse than thinking i may be gay
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- butwhatifbutwhatif
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I have gotten over it for periods lasting up to years. I saw my first therapist for it when I was 15, and I'm now 27. When it affects me, it can last for 6 months to a year or two, but because I have been dealing with it for so long, I also am (relatively) skilled at tolerating it once I realize that it's OCD. I'd say I started up again around 6 months ago and I'm guessing it's because I re-entered a previous committed relationship, which has always been my main trigger. I had nuances of OCD and black/white thinking even as a child, and it feels like so much of my personality at times that I don't predict it will never come back, but the symptoms have gone away so fully at times and for so long that I am completely unbothered by the thoughts that would bother me during an episode. I also have to be careful of theme shifts during these times, because although I'm not worried about my sexuality, I have become very depressed before thinking I was a narcissist, and I am also prone to existential thoughts. I hope this is helpful/informative.
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- hateocd123hateocd123
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yes it is. Thank you so much. The first time I dealt with hocd I was 11 and 12 it went a way for nearly a decade with some intrusive thoughts here and there. I don't remember how I got over it honestly.
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- hateocd123hateocd123
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I know I had other themes, but I can't remember what came directly after that. Maybe I just shifted themes and that's how I got over it. I'm not sure.
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- butwhatifbutwhatif
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@hateocd123 Yeah, for me, I got over it with ERP therapy, and I would try to utilize those skills outside of therapy. My therapist seemed to like hour-long exposures, so for HOCD she had me watch lesbian porn for an hour and for thoughts about personality disorders, she just had me do hour-long mindfulness exercises. I'm mostly trying to avoid porn atm because it becomes a compulsion for me, but I have gotten back into mindfulness/meditation, which I've found helpful in the past. It's strange because when I was single in the past, I didn't have many concerns about my sexuality. I just thought, "yeah maybe I'm bi," but didn't have any interest in pursuing anyone and didn't put much stock in fantasies, or concern myself with finding a partner that was a 'true' representative of my tastes and desires. I'm trying to get some of that spontaneity back, and I think mindfulness helps with that. So even though it's a small step, right now I'm doing a 10 minute mindfulness meditation both in the morning and at night.
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- butwhatifbutwhatif
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- 5y ago
@butwhatif Well, I don't know if I "got over it" either, per se, but it was manageable and not much of a thought in my mind. For some reason, this one is particularly bothersome to me because of the element of guilt.
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- confusedconfused
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yes I have had a couple small bouts with it even though my main fears are harm ocd so that one dominates usually. But even with both of those I have gotten past it and had like 10 years of freedom from it each time in between. During those times I actually laugh at how silly it is I ever got worries about it. Its so strange how that works..
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- ElpresadorElpresador
- Date posted
- 5y ago
No I’ve never been able to
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- hateocd123hateocd123
- Date posted
- 5y ago
And I know EXACTLY where you're coming from because I think about dying every single day. I can't do it. I have to stick it out because I know there's a light at the end of the tunnel even though I've been flailing around in the dark for months. Are you religious?
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- ranchdoritos88
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Anyone here who is a Christian and deals with or has dealt with hocd? If so, how do you deal with this biblically?
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- jsmith721
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Has anyone heard of moodsmith.com theres online course to get over hocd and was wondering if anyone had tried it and if it’s worth it?
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- mariaxx
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’m so exhausted. Been having HOCD since May & had it once before when I was 15 - both times began as me genuinely thinking I was questioning my sexuality, then it became obsessive and that’s when I landed on HOCD. It was more like HOCD that actually questioning. But I will say I do find women attractive, and have always watched lesbian porn & in my mind I guess I do find women’s body’s somewhat sexually attractive. This being said - I have always had boyfriends, always fell for boys and not once have I ever been genuinely interested in a girl or fallen for one. I’m 20 too, so it’s not like i’m only 14. In very open about sexuality and accept everything and everyone, so the idea of being lesbian or bi isn’t alien to me. Some of my friends are gay and lesbian . Earlier this summer I even started coming out to people as maybe being bi, and i was almost pushing that label onto myself to try and accept myself - but it still didn’t feel right and I am still unsure and uncertain. Just want some advice - is this similar to other people’s stories ? Not looking for reassurance, just genuinely wondering wether it is HOCD or maybe I am just abit gay hahaha (which would be okay, just doesn’t really feel right)
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