Has anyone gotten over hocd?

starboiklem

Date posted: 5y ago

Im not sure if that's getting over it but i had hocd for 5 years it started when i was 15 and i couldn't even imagine life without it after some point.4 months ago i triggered a much more severe symptom (for me) and now hocd is gone completely and i can't ever see it coming back but it was more like replaced than gone on its own. Idk if it's temporary but after my new theme hocd feels like a joke,id pay to go back to that

hateocd123

Date posted: 5y ago

What's your theme now?

starboiklem

Date posted: 5y ago

Solipsism/existamental, basically i went from questioning my sexuality to questioning the existence of other minds,for me this one is much more serious because for me thinking im alone in the universe is worse than thinking i may be gay

butwhatif

Date posted: 5y ago

I have gotten over it for periods lasting up to years. I saw my first therapist for it when I was 15, and I'm now 27. When it affects me, it can last for 6 months to a year or two, but because I have been dealing with it for so long, I also am (relatively) skilled at tolerating it once I realize that it's OCD. I'd say I started up again around 6 months ago and I'm guessing it's because I re-entered a previous committed relationship, which has always been my main trigger. I had nuances of OCD and black/white thinking even as a child, and it feels like so much of my personality at times that I don't predict it will never come back, but the symptoms have gone away so fully at times and for so long that I am completely unbothered by the thoughts that would bother me during an episode. I also have to be careful of theme shifts during these times, because although I'm not worried about my sexuality, I have become very depressed before thinking I was a narcissist, and I am also prone to existential thoughts. I hope this is helpful/informative.

hateocd123

Date posted: 5y ago

Yes it is. Thank you so much. The first time I dealt with hocd I was 11 and 12 it went a way for nearly a decade with some intrusive thoughts here and there. I don't remember how I got over it honestly.

hateocd123

Date posted: 5y ago

I know I had other themes, but I can't remember what came directly after that. Maybe I just shifted themes and that's how I got over it. I'm not sure.

butwhatif

Date posted: 5y ago

@hateocd123 Yeah, for me, I got over it with ERP therapy, and I would try to utilize those skills outside of therapy. My therapist seemed to like hour-long exposures, so for HOCD she had me watch lesbian porn for an hour and for thoughts about personality disorders, she just had me do hour-long mindfulness exercises. I'm mostly trying to avoid porn atm because it becomes a compulsion for me, but I have gotten back into mindfulness/meditation, which I've found helpful in the past. It's strange because when I was single in the past, I didn't have many concerns about my sexuality. I just thought, "yeah maybe I'm bi," but didn't have any interest in pursuing anyone and didn't put much stock in fantasies, or concern myself with finding a partner that was a 'true' representative of my tastes and desires. I'm trying to get some of that spontaneity back, and I think mindfulness helps with that. So even though it's a small step, right now I'm doing a 10 minute mindfulness meditation both in the morning and at night.

butwhatif

Date posted: 5y ago

@butwhatif Well, I don't know if I "got over it" either, per se, but it was manageable and not much of a thought in my mind. For some reason, this one is particularly bothersome to me because of the element of guilt.

confused

Date posted: 5y ago

Yes I have had a couple small bouts with it even though my main fears are harm ocd so that one dominates usually. But even with both of those I have gotten past it and had like 10 years of freedom from it each time in between. During those times I actually laugh at how silly it is I ever got worries about it. Its so strange how that works..

Elpresador

Date posted: 5y ago

No I’ve never been able to

hateocd123

Date posted: 5y ago

And I know EXACTLY where you're coming from because I think about dying every single day. I can't do it. I have to stick it out because I know there's a light at the end of the tunnel even though I've been flailing around in the dark for months. Are you religious?

Josh M

Date posted: 22w ago

Winners

Those of you who have overcome at least a bit, if not all, of your OCD. When you went through the CBT and ERP, did it feel like the end of the world? And how did you face the fact that your fears and uncertainties might actually come to life?

Elliesmith

Date posted: 13w ago

Is this a symptom of soocd

I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?

Mt2019

Date posted: 11w ago

Question about HOCD

Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please

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