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Ik like i never had it until recently and my therapist like knows nothing about OCD. she looks things up so I'm trying to find an OCD specialist. since with all those thoughts and stuff like ecen kissing my boyfriend now and stuff feels werid and i just don't know if that means i dont like him anymore but I don't want to break up with him because I love him and I even turn off my notifications when i get texts because for some reason I get anxious because I'm like I have to respond right away and I know I don't have too. and he is such a great person. i just dont know anymore. telling this too other people they would say like "maybe you lost interset" and stuff.
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I feel the same way with my boyfriend and my therapist lol I’ve been seeing her for a while but I feel like she’s not that knowledgeable about ocd :/
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@rlr A therapist is good for problems that are solvable, but ocd like me I need to see a ocd therapist or someone in the ocd study group
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@GummyDrop yeah I’ve been thinking about getting an ocd therapist but it’s just so much to switch therapists and what if I don’t connect with the ocd therapist and ahhh it’s just too much but I know it’d be a good idea
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@rlr Yeah I suggest you go with a friend or ask friends for recommendations, you don’t deserve to go through this alone, ocd needs multiple people to take it down, if you need me my insta is @pencilllllll5
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@GummyDrop thank you for the kind words, you don’t deserve it either! you can do this ??
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@rlr yeah i see her too talk about stuff, like just finding a therpist in genreal is hard. and even if you do you dont know if you will even like them or not.
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@Anna:) exactly!!
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@Anna:) Like it’s rare to even find an ocd therapist in my are and it’s probably far
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@GummyDrop yeah even if i did they are far, so its alotnof things which are annoying.
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@Anna:) Uhhhhhh why can’t I see a ocd therapist eye to eye for free
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Doubting and confusion is something I deal a lot with too. My thoughts and feelings change a lot and sometimes I feel totally fine. I think that if you express your concern to your therapist and just make sure you’re doing all you can to feel okay that’s all that matters. Labels are just there to try to help you with what you’re going through. But as long as you’re getting better and helping yourself that’s all that matters
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I don’t think you’ve lost interest. I think that other things are causing stress and that’s why you are pulling away. I think it would be helpful to talk to your boyfriend about what you are feeling and to definitely find a new thereapist! I think if you need space for a few weeks (not a break but like you’ll text him when you want to talk) and expressing that this is something you deal with would be helpful
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yeah i did talk too him about this stuff, he tries too understand. he obvi does think too him that i lost interset but i have not. like i dont think one min i love too idk if i want too be with you. cuz i want too hospital the day he went back too college cuz he was my support too a couple days later idk if i like you anymore. like i talk too him and it did come out wrong i was like "i might not love you as mich" and ik it hurt him but he knew i was wording it wrong, its just idk how too feel anymore and it has taken over me every single. like i dont even want too do anything anymore, even like hanging with friends. and when people ask whats wrong idk even how too explain it too them.
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Do you have an ocd therapist I think it works best if you have ocd
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I believe I have ROCD — at least, that’s what many people here have told me based on what I’ve shared — and I really need help, because I feel like I’m falling apart. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I don’t know what’s real. My thoughts come as loud, cold statements — not questions. They say things like: “Nothing is the same.” “You don’t love him.” “You’re just staying because you’re used to him.” And even though I know I’m supposed to let the thoughts pass and not engage with them — I can’t. I get stuck in them. I try to find answers, I ruminate, I check, I cry, I panic. Everyone says “love isn’t just a feeling” — and I know that. But… I still want to feel something. I want to feel warmth, or connection, or even just peace. It’s been so long since I felt anything like that. Now everything just feels empty or terrifying or cold. My brain only gives me negative interpretations. No memory brings me comfort anymore. Nothing feels like it used to. And the worst part is — it all feels true. Sometimes I think: “What if I’m just denying the truth?” “What if I’ve finally realized that I don’t love him, and I just don’t want to admit it?” This feels like the worst version of myself. I’m so confused and scared and tired. Even therapy didn’t help — my therapist said things that made it worse, and now I don’t know who or what to believe anymore. I just want help. I want to know how to face ROCD — if that’s what this really is. I want to believe I can feel love again. I don’t want to lose myself in this forever. Has anyone else felt like this? How did you start to get better? i cant even remember past good memories with him, my head tells me that i didnt love him and i was just “excited “ to have someone. We have 2 years together and i have been dealing with this for a year and a half.
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Ok so this all could be for reassurance but I’m rlly upset en and need help. So to preface, I had ocd when I was younger her and when I started dating my current bf it suddenly returned but ig I didn’t realize it was rocd bc I never knew it could present itself in this way. All I knew was “go away I just wanna love my bf and stop liking other guys” when my brain would get me so confused. A couple weeks ago I started on Luvox and I thought it was rlly working bc I also started seeing an ocd specialist and she gave great tips on exposures and the Medication in conjunction w that jus felt like it finally make me myself again. However, yesterday I had some gwneral intrusive thoughts in the morning and right before that, I was on top of the world so happy bc I was myself again. When the thoughts came I was like ew oh whatever. UNTIL my brain was like nagging me and making me feel guilty for having those thoughts. So I dove into em making sure they weren’t true etc. bc that never fixes anything it kept progressively getting worse and I forgot my exposures in those moments bc I just wanted to make sure I loved my man and didn’t do smth against him. Towards the later day, I was swimming w my siblings and my bf and the whole time I had a blast bc he’s the best, but I had nagging thoughts and feelings saying some guy from my new job is similar looking but slightly better looking and he’s the one guy I’ll leave my bf for. And it’s been saying that and variations of it from over 24 hrs now and I feel so awful. I feel guilty and to make things worse. Last night bc I spiraled/ relapsed so hard my thoughts also said I wanna leave my bf bc I no longer love him and I miss those old feelings but I can’t jus forget how awful I am as a gf to him bc my thoughts and ocd feelings. I feel terrible and I jus wanna be fixed😓I don’t wanna like that guy my man is my bsf and so cute and handsome and perfect. Why am I still “confused” if I don’t wanna be etc. my therapist said to go toward my goals and Values and not let ocd stop me from it, but I feel as if I can’t til I make sure I don’t like the other person or wanna but all I want is to be me but I feel like a liar 😞
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So I talked to my therapist about some things, and I’m doing a lot better. I’ve realized I’m obsessed with infatuation and feelings. When I expect to feel really goodly eyed over my boyfriend I don’t, sometimes I am most of the time I’m not. However I cuddle him, have desires for sex with him, I love him, I love being with him, he’s funny, his personality is attractive. I also want my physical attraction to grow. I’m afraid if I don’t look at him an ogle that it means I should be with someone I can do that with.But physical attraction is fleeting. He’s amazing he should be the father of my kids, I am not wanting to give up. This is half ocd half not. I wand to feel a certain way but honesty ? I have to allow myself to feel these things and stop fearing. Like allow myself to reflect on his heart and the things I love instead of focusing on obsessing over something I don’t like.
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