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Ik like i never had it until recently and my therapist like knows nothing about OCD. she looks things up so I'm trying to find an OCD specialist. since with all those thoughts and stuff like ecen kissing my boyfriend now and stuff feels werid and i just don't know if that means i dont like him anymore but I don't want to break up with him because I love him and I even turn off my notifications when i get texts because for some reason I get anxious because I'm like I have to respond right away and I know I don't have too. and he is such a great person. i just dont know anymore. telling this too other people they would say like "maybe you lost interset" and stuff.
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I feel the same way with my boyfriend and my therapist lol I’ve been seeing her for a while but I feel like she’s not that knowledgeable about ocd :/
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@rlr A therapist is good for problems that are solvable, but ocd like me I need to see a ocd therapist or someone in the ocd study group
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@GummyDrop yeah I’ve been thinking about getting an ocd therapist but it’s just so much to switch therapists and what if I don’t connect with the ocd therapist and ahhh it’s just too much but I know it’d be a good idea
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@rlr Yeah I suggest you go with a friend or ask friends for recommendations, you don’t deserve to go through this alone, ocd needs multiple people to take it down, if you need me my insta is @pencilllllll5
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@GummyDrop thank you for the kind words, you don’t deserve it either! you can do this ??
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@rlr yeah i see her too talk about stuff, like just finding a therpist in genreal is hard. and even if you do you dont know if you will even like them or not.
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@Anna:) exactly!!
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@Anna:) Like it’s rare to even find an ocd therapist in my are and it’s probably far
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@GummyDrop yeah even if i did they are far, so its alotnof things which are annoying.
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@Anna:) Uhhhhhh why can’t I see a ocd therapist eye to eye for free
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Doubting and confusion is something I deal a lot with too. My thoughts and feelings change a lot and sometimes I feel totally fine. I think that if you express your concern to your therapist and just make sure you’re doing all you can to feel okay that’s all that matters. Labels are just there to try to help you with what you’re going through. But as long as you’re getting better and helping yourself that’s all that matters
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I don’t think you’ve lost interest. I think that other things are causing stress and that’s why you are pulling away. I think it would be helpful to talk to your boyfriend about what you are feeling and to definitely find a new thereapist! I think if you need space for a few weeks (not a break but like you’ll text him when you want to talk) and expressing that this is something you deal with would be helpful
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yeah i did talk too him about this stuff, he tries too understand. he obvi does think too him that i lost interset but i have not. like i dont think one min i love too idk if i want too be with you. cuz i want too hospital the day he went back too college cuz he was my support too a couple days later idk if i like you anymore. like i talk too him and it did come out wrong i was like "i might not love you as mich" and ik it hurt him but he knew i was wording it wrong, its just idk how too feel anymore and it has taken over me every single. like i dont even want too do anything anymore, even like hanging with friends. and when people ask whats wrong idk even how too explain it too them.
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Do you have an ocd therapist I think it works best if you have ocd
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For the past 3 months ish I’ve been struggling on and off with this anxiety and fixation over my relationship. To wondering if i still have feelings for an old friend, wondering if i actually love him, wondering if the thoughts are all real and im just trying to cover it up with ocd. It sucks, when im talking to my boyfriend i feel fine. The words i love you and talks about the future come naturally. I can’t imagine myself with anyone but him. But this constant rumination on my relationship is KILLING me and I’m scared it’s going to ruin what i have. It makes me numb and disconnected which therefore makes me believe the thoughts even more. They just feel so real sometimes and it’s so scary like why can i not just enjoy it. We’ve been together for a while so i know there’s periods of like feelings ebb and flowing but this is so much more. It’s just constantly sitting on my chest with anxiety. My compulsions are coming on this app, looking at photos of us and confessing it to him. He’s very understanding and helpful. I love him so much. I just need help / I’m also just starting new meds as well ..
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My rocd is spiraling so bad i feel like I’m terrible and can’t recover 😓 idk wuts real anymore yet ik i never wanna leave my man😓whats wrong w me
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Lately, I’ve been feeling so disconnected from my boyfriend, and I don’t understand why. When I look at him, it feels like I’m looking at a stranger, and my mind keeps telling me that I don’t like him, that I never really loved him, or that I was just attached and comfortable. It feels real, and that terrifies me. I know logically that ROCD makes me overanalyze every little feeling, but it doesn’t make this any easier. I keep waiting to feel something—love, excitement, even relief—but instead, I just feel numb and distant. When we talk, I feel weird. When he kisses me, I don’t feel much. I keep thinking, ‘If I really loved him, wouldn’t I feel something?’ And the fact that I don’t just fuels my anxiety even more. It scares me that I can’t remember how I felt before ROCD took over. I look at old pictures, and my brain tells me, ‘That wasn’t real, you were just excited to have a relationship.’ And because I can’t access those feelings right now, it makes me doubt everything even more. I also feel guilty because my boyfriend is so loving and patient, but I feel like I’m hurting him. He tells me he doesn’t feel loved by me anymore, and I hate that I can’t just snap out of this and be the way I was before. It’s exhausting. I don’t know what’s real anymore. I keep checking how I feel every second, and it just makes me feel worse. I know that’s a compulsion, but it’s so hard to stop. I keep searching for certainty, but no answer satisfies me. Even when I try to accept the uncertainty, my mind screams, ‘But what if you don’t love him? What if you’re just lying to yourself?’ I want to be present with him. I want to feel love naturally again. But I don’t know how to get there, and it’s terrifying.”
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