nae nae

Date posted: 31w

A nagging thought :(

I've been posting and commenting often, and I've developed this weird fear? Like, what if one of my posts or something I've said has made someone uncomfortable, or maybe they didn't agree, and they blocked me or just disliked me in general? It's so silly because this is a place where you should be comfortable to share anything, and there's always going to be people in life who have different opinions than you or maybe even dislike you. I know that, but I'd just hate to make someone upset or uncomfortable. I don't think I have, but... it's just been this reoccurring thought of mine. I'm also afraid of accidentally offering reassurance. I'm sure I have at some point... It began after I made a vulnerable post on here, and I felt self-conscious about it the next day. It's just been nagging me ever since. Has anyone else felt this way after posting or commenting? Just wondering, thank you! 🤍

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 31w

Absolutely. I actually did offend someone once (wasn’t trying to, but they took my lack of total agreement with their comment on my post as a jab at them, I guess). They were the reason my post got taken down and the reason I took a break. I figured out who it was and blocked them myself, for my own peace. As I commented on your other post, I’m also really sensitive and constantly worried about this. But there’s no real way of knowing if you’ve upset someone unless they tell you. So we kinda just have to live with that possibility. I can tell you that you’ve been insanely supportive and kind to me, so much so that I look forward to your posts and comments. You bring me a sense of comfort, like a good friend. One last thing, reassurance isn’t great, but in small quantities, not too often, it can actually help a little. My therapist believes so too. Also, I took valerian root! Thank you for reminding me of that!!! 🤍🤍🤍 You’re not alone

nae nae

Date posted: 31w

You bring me a sense of comfort, too. This comment is really sweet and helpful, seriously. Thank you for this. I really, really appreciate you. 🥹🤍 I remember when that happened... I'm glad you were able to find who they were and do that for yourself, though! I know there's no real way of knowing whether or not I've upset someone, and I probably should've just sat with it and told myself, "Maybe, maybe not," but... Girl, I can't believe I gave in. :( And, my psychiatrist told me something similar, but I have a hard time finding that balance between what's helpful and what isn't. Small quantities, and not too often... I'll have to remember that. But, anyways... I'm glad you took the valerian root, and I really, really hope it works and that you'll finally be able to rest peacefully without disturbances.

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 30w

@nae nae It’s okay, I feel like it’s still kinda successful if you seek for reassurance and you don’t really get it lol For example, I have this terrible habit of seeking reassurance from my bf. My therapist suggests he replies in an exaggerated way (“am I a bad person?” “Oh my god yeah babe you’re the worst person I’ve ever met.”) It teaches you to not seek it out as much according to her. It’s okay really :), this is normal fear amplified by OCD

nae nae

Date posted: 30w

@issphra 🫶🏻 Yeah, I told my family to just refuse to discuss anything with me, but honestly, that's a much better approach lol. Thank you so, so much. By the way, did the valerian root help you at all last night? :(

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 30w

@nae nae My sleep has been sleeping very fragmented (it always has, but lately it’s so much worse like I only sleep 30 minutes and then stay up 2 hours to sleep another 30 minutes). I’ve been taking valerian root and magnesium glycinate for two nights now and I’ve had deeper sleep, not more consistent at all but I’ve been able to fall asleep within an hour instead of two every time I wake up. I think that’s progress? Maybe? I’m not sure, I still feel exhausted but I hope it’ll get better.

nae nae

Date posted: 30w

@issphra 🫶🏻 Omg that sounds horrible. Like, 30 minutes...? I'm so, so sorry it's been going on for this long :( It seems like it might be helping a little...? From two hours to one is technically progress, but I really do hope it'll improve more than that as time goes on.

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 30w

@nae nae I’m took it tonight as well! I really hope it keeps improving. Thank you for checking in on me. It means so much 💕

nae nae

Date posted: 30w

@issphra 🫶🏻 Of course!! I hope so, too!!🤍

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 30w

@nae nae I was able to sleep tonight 🥹🥹🥹. Maybe not consistently, but I slept for a few uninterrupted hours before waking up. I only woke up three times the whole night and was awake for less than 30 minutes 🥹🥹🥹.

nae nae

Date posted: 30w

@issphra 🫶🏻 IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!! That's really great news to hear🥹

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 30w

@nae nae I’ve been fr sleeping lately 🎉🎉🎉

nae nae

Date posted: 30w

@issphra 🫶🏻 Woooo!! 🎉🎉🎉

OCDNoThankYe

Date posted: 31w

Hey nae nae, Right now, you're seeking reassurance, which we all know is a compulsion. I'm sorry that you're having a rough time right now but you have to sit with the uncertainty. Tell yourself "I'm having the thought that what if one of my posts or something I've said has made someone uncomfortable, or maybe they didn't agree, and they blocked me or just disliked me in general?". Sit with that uncertainty. Don't try and ruminate on it, don't try and figure out the answer to the question because you're only serving to fuel your OCD. Something to consider is that if posting or reassurance seeking is a compulsion of yours, maybe try and refrain from doing so as it's only making your OCD worse. I'm sorry that you're struggling but know that you're not alone and there are so many of us who know what you're experiencing and are here to support you. Take care and go and do something you love or watch a favorite tv show!!

nae nae

Date posted: 31w

I knew it😭 I'd been considering posting this or not for that very reason, but I was like... "I don't feel really anxious, so I'm not looking for reassurance, right...?" Well... Thank you for catching that and letting me know. I'll try to be more careful in the future! :)

OCDNoThankYe

Date posted: 31w

@nae nae No worries! That’s why I didn’t give an answer so that I wouldn’t fuel the OCD even further. You got this!

Blueberrycows

Date posted: 25w

Ugh tw maybe pocd ? 18 plus

Tw Tw Tw Tw Tw Tw Tw Tw Tw So there’s manors on this app ( purposefully misspelled) and I know it’s their choice to click the 18 plus posts or any posts they want but my point is what if I say something wrong to a manor or what if I think I did ( my compulsion ) is to take a picture of the conversation so just incase I get blocked for whatever reason or the post gets deleted I have proof I didn’t say anything bad and besides I never have …but it’s like I don’t trust myself ughhhh I know there’s manors everywhere on every social media app but just the thought of manors on an OCD app that always has very strong topics like you don’t have to go looking for them they’re just there vs things like facebook has a variety of posts and if you want to look up a heavy topic you have to search it unlike on the NOCD app it’s easier to access because everyone here is talking about their intrusives but usually nothing else … it just makes me so paranoid that there’s manors on this app …. I don’t know how else to explain it …. Hopefully I’m not coming off as wrong … if anyone is confuse please ask for clarity before you get upset or assume ❤️

🌟✨️

Date posted: 23w

Ruminating abt social media again

Adults only as pocd mentioned I'm still thinking abt all the friends online who have unfollowed me,some cases even i think softblocked or fully blocked me. My brain is convinced that I must have done something gross and predatory or I did something racist or in general bigoted and they came to terms with it and left me. I can't stop thinking abt it. I just remembered checking an old discord for a fandom I was in when I was 17,half the people there had unadded me when we were friended and possibly even blocked,I hadn't talked to a lot of them in a long time though,but I thought we were on good terms. I think we also used to follow eachother on tumblr but before I made a new tumblr I remember not seeing their posts after some point and I can't remember if it's just bc I wasn't on much or i unfolloed or I got blocked. I feel I must have done something awful. One of my worst fears is people i care abt or was friends w leaving me and not telling me why,I have so much stuff I did on the internet I feel regret abt and it could be any of those things,as i mentioned i cant stop goint thru old messages and there have been times ive seen me make like a nsfw joke as a teen in a group chat or me not react negatively when someone else in the chat does something weird . I'm constantly scared who the next old friend i have will suddenly disappear one day,letting me wonder if I did something hurtful or predatory or bigoted to them or someone they know. I have so much stuff I regret a lot when i was younger,I have so much stuff I wanna confess but I'd be here all day and I'm bound to forget something then remember it later and spiral.

flyana

Date posted: 18w

A nice DM sent me spiraling

I used to post my art online a lot, and I was so proud of it. But the last year or so, my OCD has been making me feel like I don't deserve to post because "no one would support me if they knew how flawed of a person I am." Today, I got a message from a stranger saying they missed seeing my art and wished I would start posting again. It was soo damn nice, and I wanted to be happy about it, but my fears immediately hit me hard. Would this person still want to follow or support me if they knew everything about me? Of course, my therapist pointed out that there are sooo many people out there who post constantly and have no problem asking their supporters to help them, and surely they're also flawed people, but they don't let it hold them back. I know I'm only human... but I've seen so many people gain success, only to get knocked down, and it terrifies me. This is probably my biggest internal struggle. Sometimes, I want to give up art completely, but the little kid in me who dreamed of being an artist is saying, "Why are you giving up on us?" I feel kinda weird posting about this, but I hope you guys get where I'm coming from. If anyone has any insights or thoughts on this topic, I'd reeeeally appreciate them.

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