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i always do this and recently i have terrible sleeping schedule because i keep ruminating and obsess about past events that I'm not sure if i remember it right because my memories always bends itself :( may we get rid of this obsession

I definitely struggle with this too. It can be so difficult, can’t it? After going through therapy I learned to sit with the uncertainty and incorporate mindfulness so I can create space for myself so I don’t automatically do the compulsions. It does take time though, so be patient and understanding with yourself. If you need help with it I highly recommend contacting NOCD to book a consultation. It helped me tremendously!

Ur not alone ❤️

Sorry you are struggling with this, I do as well. I find accepting uncertainty and possibility to be the most effective NERs for me. Difficult and scary to do because it feels like giving life to the fear but in my experience the most effective at getting out of the loop. Examples I found helpful https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/how-do-i-stop-thinking-about-this-what-to-do-when-youre-stuck-playing-mental-ping-pong/