minfoy

Date posted: 5y ago

Hey everyone. I’ve been struggling with this psychosis obsession for a while now; I’m finding it hard to be alone which isn’t easy since I’ve moved country because I spend most of it alone while my wife is at work (and I don’t have many friends here) I keep thinking I’m hearing voices, I don’t know whether or not I actually am. Sometimes I’m sure it’s an intrusive thought, like I’ll get anxious and I’ll hear someone (my voice I’m sure) say like why are you anxious huh? And little stuff like that. When I’m distracted this doesn’t happen. Is there anyway to distinguish between a true voice or my own inner voice as an intrusive thought?

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bebrave❤️

Date posted: 5y ago

I had this theme before and my doctor said me that ocd are nervous that’s why you know you have it. Psychosis are an other part of mental illness, and when you suffer from psychosis you don’t even realize it, this is by definition psychosis. So if you are asking yourself the question you are not suffering from psychosis. I know it’s sound like reassurance but since I’ve known about that I don’t get anxious about this theme

minfoy

Date posted: 5y ago

Hey thank you for getting back. I’ve been trying to drum that into my brain but it honestly is so hard to do.

shabby123

Date posted: 5y ago

Yes I agree, having psychosis is more than just hearing voices and believe me, if you had psychosis you wouldn't be typing on this thread asking questions, you would think the voices are real and you would hear them clear as day x

minfoy

Date posted: 5y ago

Hey thanks for getting back to me. I understand that it’s more than that... but sometimes I just get the weirdest thoughts and I don’t now if they are intrusive because who does lol.

shabby123

Date posted: 5y ago

@minfoy Just remember if you had psychosis you wouldn't be thinking you had it xxx

minfoy

Date posted: 5y ago

Hello! Thanks for getting back to me, you’re actually really helping me navigate this obsession. I’m just- I don’t get the thoughts. Like I’ll be looking at the fan and be like someone is in the fan and then I’m like oh god I’m paranoid. And earlier today I had a thought in the doctors office about a guy and how he was sent to hurt me, and I was like oh my god I’m losing it. Like are these thoughts you’ve had? Or should I really be checking myself in somewhere? I can’t stop looking stuff up either, trying to convince myself. I think tonight I am going to try what you’ve suggested. Try and sit with the fear.

hannie

Date posted: 5y ago

YAS!!! I have had those exact theme of thoughts. Those are my intrusive thoughts exactly! I know what you mean, I always feel like I’m going crazy because of it. It’s just our minds working overtime. We fear it so our brains will make our think about it more to warn and protect us. Our brains are designed for that. It’s so frustrating because there’s nothing to fear. We have to teach our brains that they are just thoughts and they don’t mean anything. It’s so hard and emotionally exhausting but it’s treatable. I know this is OCD cause I feel the fear after I have those thoughts. That’s what you have to look for is that anxiety feeling and the looking up is a compulsion. You are not crazy, you are not going crazy, you have OCD. I have to remind myself of this too. It’s so hard. Its gonna be ok. We are going through the exact same thing. You are not alone. Remember, you wouldn’t care if you’re crazy. Not trying to reassure you cause it only brings relief temporary. Work on sitting with anxiety. I will too❤️

minfoy

Date posted: 5y ago

oh god!! I thought I was the only one. Like it keeps getting weirder and weirder as the days go on, like I genuinely am not scared to be near the fan and I think it’s because of the thoughts, like scared to get one. I feel like I am working overtime with this fear, it’s awful. I’ve had so many but this one is kicking my ass. I think it’s worse because I’ve just moved to a different country and already feel out of control, and isolated. I’m ready to beat this one. Keep in touch and let me know how you go!

minfoy

Date posted: 5y ago

Sometimes I get super bizarre thoughts like... what if someone’s in the fan and then I get anxious!! I know logically there isn’t but the thought keeps coming. Does anyone ever get these or am I truly losing it?

hannie

Date posted: 5y ago

I get very similar thoughts. My thoughts are really bizarre and I find myself questioning if I believe them. It’s really really frustrating. I honestly try to sit with thoughts and say to myself I believe them and I’m going crazy until my anxiety builds. I know how illogical they really are but it doesn’t mean my brain isn’t damn good at convincing me otherwise. I have really truly believed I was going crazy. I told my mom about this fear and she told me that people who are out of touch don’t question it. That part of their brain is shut off. It feels completely normal and they spend their time trying to convince others it’s real ( because it feels so real to them) she also told me that she would recognize it before I would. I’m not trying to reassure you cause I know that will only help temporarily but I just want you to know you’re not alone. We are experiencing the exact same type. I thought I was alone cause I couldn’t find a lot of people who struggled with this. You are not crazy and you are not alone. Thinking of you❤️

minfoy

Date posted: 5y ago

@hannie I hope that’s true! I’m trying my best not to let myself completely get lost in the obsession.

hannie

Date posted: 5y ago

@minfoy I get completely lost too. To the point where I feel like I believe I’m actually crazy. That’s what OCD does. It’s like trying to create proof where there isn’t any. You’re brain is warning you that you’re scared of psychosis so any though that pops in your head that you labeled as a symptom, will continue because you’re brain thinks it’s helping protect you from “ psychosis”. Even though it has no reason too. OCD is an anxiety disorder. False evidence appearing real. That’s all it is. Our brains are overworked and super smart and creative. It will mock anything. You’re not alone, I go through this too. This has been my main fear and I still have bad days with this. On my clear minded days, I’m able to see it for what it is. Doesn’t mean I’m always able too though. Just the other day I had multiple panic attacks cause I thought I was having paranoid thoughts. It was just my intrusive thoughts making me feel like I was. I have also had intrusive thoughts that I thought were like voices but it was just intrusive thoughts cause I wasn’t hearing anything. It’s so convincing and good at tricking. You won’t know if you go crazy but my advice to you would be to sit with the idea of going crazy and let the anxiety build and try and move your focus on to other things ( again, much easier said then done, I know). Meditation helps too! You will get through this!!

hannie

Date posted: 5y ago

You’re definitely not the only one. I struggle with them as well! Very similar thoughts too. Mine are so bizarre I’m like sometimes so shocked by them. I think it’s definitely fear of having the thoughts vs. believing the thought. Moving is a big change so I can see where OCD could step. Usually life changes can make symptoms worse. I will! Also keep in touch with me. If you need to talk the thoughts through then we can! Sending you positive thoughts ❤️

minfoy

Date posted: 5y ago

Hello! Thank you for talking me through this. I’ve noticed that they only seem to come on when I’m actually subconsciously thinking about it or worried about it. Typical ocd. I had one last night after giving into a compulsion and reading something about someone thinking their was aliens and I started to get intrusive thoughts about what if there is aliens above? So I was like oh my gosh this is so typical and I laughed. So hopefully I can conquer this. And you too- if you ever need to talk it out! Please don’t hesitate! X

kmagoo

Date posted: 4y ago

This has helped me so much today holy shit thanks both of you

hannie

Date posted: 4y ago

Yes when I relaxed and realized that it wasn’t a voice but just my mind making me question if I was hearing things or not.

hannie

Date posted: 5y ago

Of course! I know how scary and frustrating they are. I do that too, I will read about someone experiencing schizophrenic thoughts and It will then turn into my new intrusive thought lol. Classic OCD. That’s so good you were able to laugh through them. You can definitely conquer this! Thank you so much, I will❤️

Lesss

Date posted: 4y ago

I’m going through this same thing rn did they ever go away the voice

Solrose

Date posted: 23w ago

Paranoia / Delusions. Please Read.

I know I shouldn’t be seeking reassurance as I know this just fuels OCD, but I really need to vent. I just continue to feel so alone with these thoughts and worries. I feel pathetic for writing about this again on here, but right now it’s just overwhelming feeling. I have posted on here before about this, but basically I continue to have thoughts that people are out to hurt me, including family members. I don’t even feel comfortable at home right now cause I get these thoughts and I feel so fearful/anxious of them. I’m terrified this is more than OCD and that these are actual delusions. It’s always just in the back of the mind the past few days and it’s exhausting. Feeling like I can’t trust others and not even myself. Plus it goes a long with my harm thoughts, because I thought “if my mom is trying to hurt me, I need to hurt her first as a way to protect myself!” And I just feel so much dread thinking that. Like I’m actually going to do it and it makes me depressed and panicky. Plus I picture all these different scenarios, like me being in the hospital, my life officially over, losing my job, etc. I’m thinking the absolute worst. I was diagnosed by a psychiatrist with OCD at 15 and have had flare ups over the years on/off, but at the beginning of this year it started my worst flare up yet and has just continued to persist. First started with health, then turned to my usual theme of harm, and now it’s harm/mixed with fear of psychosis. I try hard to just let the thoughts be, but the anxiety persists and the thoughts won’t go away. It makes me feel so uncomfortable and hard to concentrate on anything. I just want to know if this is OCD or delusional thinking. I feel like I need to know for sure, to know that I’m actually safe and that I’m not a danger. If the longer I wait, the more damage I’m actually doing to myself. Thank you to whoever reads this and relates or responds. I appreciate this community and how open-minded and open-hearted you all are. This disorder is horrible how it makes us doubt and question everything.

totallynotjade_

Date posted: 13w ago

My schizo ocd came back.

I was doing fine with my schizophrenia ocd (fear of developing schizophrenia/psychosis), mostly because I was obsessing on something else for a bit, but something caused it to come back. I was at work yesterday and checked out a customer, he didn’t know English very well and was very quiet. However, when he was leaving, he said “thank you” loudly while walking out and I told him to have a good night, but since I couldn’t see his face nor his mouth move, I worried that I hallucinated the whole thing and he in reality didn’t say anything while he was leaving. The voice that said it sounded a bit different, however it could’ve just been since I had only heard him talk quietly before. I’m still wondering if I hallucinated this and it freaks me out, causing my ocd to make me believe I’m developing schizophrenia/psychosis or losing my mind again. I also always read that the difference between those with schizophrenia/psychosis is those with OCD have insight and know their thoughts are crazy, but then that leads me down a spiral if what if I DONT think those thoughts are crazy? What if I actually believe them and become delusional/lack insight? So a statement that would be helpful otherwise made it worse for me. One night I had a panic attack super bad because I couldn’t convince myself I didn’t believe I was in a dream and hallucinating. Any advice on beating these constant thoughts and how to cope with it? :/

Chels0212

Date posted: 8w ago

Intrusive thoughts

I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅

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