Losing it maybe lols

I came across a video that was talking about a theory and it was something me and my friend were talking about 2 years ago and were tweaking about and i was explaining it to my girlfriend just now and them i started to get anxiety about stuff not being real and my world isn’t what it seems to be and that there stuff out there and then i started to have religious OCD and then it went to how Im scared of the world being fake or suffering from a mental illness like schizophrenia or something and stuff and I’ve been having OCD about my girlfriend being a government agent or that government agents are watching me cause I’m scared of schizophrenia and thinking like them i don’t think i actually think it i kinda just go to my girlfriend isn’t a government agent which scares me into thinking i was thinking she was or gonna think she is or idk if i just saying that to bot seem insane or something but like idk if i truly believe that i doubt it i don’t believe it any other time and then i started getting stress i might hurt or maybe kill her and it scares me cause shes my everything and I’m scared of losing her idk guys I’m getting stressed hella and I’m scared of myself and my OCD I’m genuinely tired of it like anyone can ask my girlfriend and she’ll say i cant go 5 mins without ticcing (from ocd) or asking for reassurance like that life is real and thats shes real and I’m real and nothings wrongs and stuff, i probably sounds crazy lmaoo maybe and the sucky thing is i don’t have a therapist or a thingy going on for me cause i don’t have a job and or insurance let alone.

Kands

Date posted: 22w

been in that place as well! after i accepted i couldnt be sure of jack shit in the universe and i'm not a scientist things got better. it's been 5 years since my last existential OCD flare up. But just 6 months ago i had a huge trigger with Schiz OCD and was sure i would develop it. allow yourself to be nervous, feel the negative emotions, and keep avoiding coping mechanisms. things will get better!

revxskates

Date posted: 22w

@Kands Ill try man, its lowkey hard but ill keep trying appreciate that and stuff i really do and yeah ill try

Kands

Date posted: 22w

@revxskates it's all we can do, i know you've got this! we've got this! remember when things are tough that there are people out in the world who understand it, we are a collective - and we're always cheering eachother on! We can make it.

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 22w

Everything you have described is normal for OCD. This is exactly what OCD does to people. On this app, we all understand this. The important thing is to get therapy. But if you can’t get therapy, you can learn the therapy techniques and implement them on your own. Your suffering right now is great. I have been there. Before I knew how to handle the OCD, it was so terrible. Trust me, you need ERP therapy. It can totally change your life around and help set you free from all those traps you are dealing with. NOCD offers ERP therapy with online sessions. I learned the basic principles in 8 weeks and then could apply them on my own. I can also talk you though ERP therapy here. It’s not too complicated, but it will take a little bit. I hate to hear how bad your suffering is. But there are tools to get you out of that place!!!!!!!!!!!! We can help you connect with them!

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 22w

Here’s the link to book a free phone call with NOCD. They can really help! https://home.treatmyocd.com/calendar If this doesn’t work for you, write me back. I can try to explain it :):):)

Anonymous

Date posted: 17w

Alot is on my mind u feel like I’m going to lose my mind , not really a lot but if I think too hard I think I’m gonna lose my mind , I was trying to slp n I think I’m gonna lose my mind , I’ve always been having thoughts about going crazy it never really changed , I have other thoughts and triggers but they always somehow lead Bk to me thinking I’m going to lose my mind , guys I’m so tired , do I even have ocd

kenzieisfound

Date posted: 13w

fear of losing control??

I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.

samlovesjesus

Date posted: 12w

kind of a rough day

i’m trying to not let the thoughts bother me but it’s just so stressful. even me typing that feels like i’m lying when i know i’m not. i’m scared because even my therapist tells me that it’s just ocd, but in the back of my mind i slightly don’t believe her, and its making me scared that i AM like those people and im gonna act on something. sometimes in social moments i get a quick thought of me being an outcast because im like those people who are sick in the head and act on that stuff, and it just makes me feel like i truly am gonna eventually act on something. another thing that bothered me is earlier my mom yelled at me for not doing school work (it was well deserved im really slacking on it) and i had like no reaction to her screaming. it had me thinking what if i have no empathy etc etc, and what if i get mad that she yelled at me and i do something involving those thoughts. how do i TRULY know it’s ocd? like i try to remind myself and be like “dude, your therapist said it’s ocd, she isn’t wrong” but the back of my mind is like “she is wrong, it’s not ocd and she just happened to misdiagnose you. you are gonna act on those thoughts and it’s your fate”. please someone respond if you read all of this, im really struggling

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