I have this old friend I became friends with online at like 15-16 years old and they are a bit younger than me. I’m 18 and having a younger friend just triggers the pocd I have and I kind of don’t want to be friends with him anymore unless he’s 17. I don’t know if I should talk to him about this because I don’t want to ghost him as a friend cause I been through that shit. I don’t know what to do. We been friends for a long time.
It sounds like the OCD bully is trying to get you to leave your friend, but I would be hesitant to do that, as that is a compulsion. I would recommend ERP and talking to your ERP therapist about how to build exposures around this topic/friendship, so you don't lose your friendship!
@Barbara Windeknecht Can I PLEASE PLEASE get some advice?
@Anony1314 - I can't provide therapy in this format but I can do my best to give you some guidance. What is your question?
@Barbara Windeknecht I did speak with my therapist last week during our session about this. She said it's all OCD, but I have a hard time trusting that. I'm a Christian mom who feels like I've ruined my life. All I've ever wanted to be was a good mom since the day my daughter was born, and now I feel as if I have ruined everything. My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt her that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side area. Which caused another groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me but my therapist says it's all OCD. PLEASE tell me if I am a monster. Did I do anything wrong here? I was doing SO well! Is this OCD? Why did I give into my thoughts? Why didn't I ignore it?
@Barbara Windeknecht I'm sorry
@Barbara Windeknecht Hello
@Barbara Windeknecht I'm sorry again. Are you still there
@Anony1314 - I am really sorry to hear you are experiencing so much distress. As your therapist said, the OCD Bully will often fight back really hard when we start to make progress, so it is normal to see an influx in symptoms. What you are describing is very common for POCD. Please keep taking this back to therapy, as reassurance seeking is not going to be helpful to defeat that OCD Bully. Keep up with your ERP exercises!
@Anony1314 - I can't provide you any reassurance, so just reflect back to what your therapist said!
sounds like a completely normal age gap, especially for friends, i think your brain is giving way to much weight to this
@xyzwqr I figured out he’s the same age as me so we good 🙏🏻
@1000anonymous1000 lol, good
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