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@Liam45 Youtubers are constantly getting accused of doing p*dophilic activity and its making me think my real events are as bad or as worse as them... Ive vented a lot to a lot of people in the PM's about my OCD... some of them younger (minors)... because I wanted reassurance from everyone and anyone... but this situation triggers me the most because I was venting about my 18+ HOCD situations... In an HOCD support group I was in, I vented to 2 minors in the PM's about my 18+ HOCD situations... The leader of the support group (that i vented to) was 17... I was 19 at the time... the other minor i vented to was younger (14-15)... the younger one told me she was uncomfortable when i vented to her in the PM's twice... i stopped and blocked her after she told me the second time... i kept asking the leader of the support group for reassurance for my 18+ HOCD situations for months because she kept giving me reassurance... i thought she was cute but didnt pursue her because of my age... i dont ever want to ever be a P or a MAP or a groomer in any way... I keep getting this gut feeling in my stomach that i "flirted" with the younger one that I vented to, who i blocked after she told me twice she was uncomfortable about me venting about my 18+ hocd situations... i didnt ever vent to them for malicious intent... I was trying to get reassurance for my hocd... Plus my pocd keeps saying I cant have any opinions online because of my pocd and real events ocd situations and that Im not a good person so I cant say anything online... Also i keep getting intrusive thoughts of people labelling me as a P and a MAP in the future because of these pocd real events... And i keep getting intrusive thoughts of being outcasted and "cancelled" online when someone "exposes" me for my POCD and real events OCD...

@Givenup I have intrusive thoughts of being called a pedophile too. I wish I could take my little cousins to movies and other stuff but I’m too scared too because I’m scared someone will think I kidnapped them. Then that makes me wonder why I wanna take them out, do I intent on taking their mother with me? Or do I want it to be just me and them and if so, why am I trying to be alone with them? It’s a whole thing and it’s torturous. It’s moments like mine and your situation where you have to give yourself no choice but to stick to what you know is true…. If you messaged them with malicious intent, then you’d still be doing it and doing it in a deviant manner, doesn’t seem like you are or would with such intentions. Same with me, if I wanted to do things to them I would have done it one of the many occasions I had to babysit them but I didn’t because I love them but I could never want them in that format. Of course my mind makes me question it but this is one of those times where I have to force myself to accept the truth and hang on for dear life.

@Liam45 Easier said than done, don’t hesitate to reach out to me brother :)

@Gato0z Youtubers are constantly getting accused of doing p*dophilic activity and its making me think my real events are as bad or as worse as them... Ive vented a lot to a lot of people in the PM's about my OCD... some of them younger (minors)... because I wanted reassurance from everyone and anyone... but this situation triggers me the most because I was venting about my 18+ HOCD situations... In an HOCD support group I was in, I vented to 2 minors in the PM's about my 18+ HOCD situations... The leader of the support group (that i vented to) was 17... I was 19 at the time... the other minor i vented to was younger (14-15)... the younger one told me she was uncomfortable when i vented to her in the PM's twice... i stopped and blocked her after she told me the second time... i kept asking the leader of the support group for reassurance for my 18+ HOCD situations for months because she kept giving me reassurance... i thought she was cute but didnt pursue her because of my age... i dont ever want to ever be a P or a MAP or a groomer in any way... I keep getting this gut feeling in my stomach that i "flirted" with the younger one that I vented to, who i blocked after she told me twice she was uncomfortable about me venting about my 18+ hocd situations... i didnt ever vent to them for malicious intent... I was trying to get reassurance for my hocd... Plus my pocd keeps saying I cant have any opinions online because of my pocd and real events ocd situations and that Im not a good person so I cant say anything online... Also i keep getting intrusive thoughts of people labelling me as a P and a MAP in the future because of these pocd real events... And i keep getting intrusive thoughts of being outcasted and "cancelled" online when someone "exposes" me for my POCD and real events OCD...

@Givenup It’s best not to focus on what other people are doing, but it matters where your own behavior lies. Reassurance seeking can trigger other people as well, so try to be careful. You may or may not have made her uncomfortable, the only why to know is if you ask.

@Givenup These are common fears for those with pocd as well, if you have the resources I’d advise you to seek out professional help. It’s okay to ask for help!

@Gato0z I just dont ever want to ever be a P or a MAP in any way... someone triggered me on here by saying i was "hiding behind a diagnosis" and that I needed professional help...

@Gato0z I dont want to ever be a MAP, a P, a groomer, or someone who exploits minors...