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What would I do for ERP if my OCD says because I didn’t do something correctly or remember something I will have panic attacks that don’t end?
What would I do for ERP if my OCD says because I didn’t do something correctly or remember something I will have panic attacks that don’t end?
I had to allow myself to be exposed to not doing the compulsion and holding off on it until the feeling passed. It got easier but it took time. The first time you are using your tools to not do the compulsion is a challenge but it's so worth the journey.
I wept and wept the first time. And then I realized I survived and the feeling passed. I kept doing it. Take back the power. OCD is a bully that thrives on doubt.
All comments are great ideas that have worked for me surrounding my perfectionism and just right OCD! I also have panic attacks some that have been super severe and sitting with the panic feeling and some of the body sensations that go with panic attacks can help. It works if an exposure brings them on or as an example purposely hyperventilating to simulate the feeling of light headedness and trouble getting air often felt when having a panic attack. Having practice habituating and sitting with the body sensations of panic attacks as exposure’s really helped me in relation to avoidance and has resulted in a lot less panic attacks. I’ve learned to not panic about the fact that I’m having a panic attack while it’s happening or if I start to feel the body sensations. From exposures. It has limited both the number and duration of my panic attacks
Here are some examples of exposures one might do for this particular theme that I can think of: intentionally thinking about something you did "incorrectly" in the past and practicing sitting with that anxiety, intensionally doing something "incorrectly" and not fixing it, reading a passage with crucial parts blacked out so you can't fully understand the text, being made to recount a story you can't fully remember, intentionally telling a half-truth to your therapist, etc.
@sophea @perfect imperfectionist The responses you have received are great! For ERP, perhaps you can trust the process and the support of a community who understands you and have got your back ❤️
For ERP- do the opposite of what Ocd wants you to do. Do something incorrectly on purpose and don’t write something down to help you remember it (as long as those things aren’t superr important)
Sometimes I spend a moment bringing my fear into my mind and letting it sit there. And then I allow myself to park the thought and move on to other things. I have to remember 'its just a thought.' and that helps me
What ERP or other techniques do you use to combat fear of cancelation? Especially curious about those with taboo thoughts, false memory ocd and event ocd based off of real events where the fear of cancellation may actually hold some validity. I once did my own ERP not under a therapist but just on my own I decided to create an anonymous account on Twitter and defend a friend who was receiving online criticism. I knew that this would be semi-controversial so I was expecting backlash and when I recieved troll replies it actually seemed to be a really helpful low-stakes exposure activity. Is this something that others have done? Low stakes online posts etc. that you know will recieve negative responses? I have had severe OCD as a kid as pretty much every subtype under the sun, and as an adult I pretty much have all the types under control except for this real event and false memory and taboo thought OCD. It seems like a different beast since it's somewhat realistic in the camcellation culture today, and it's confusing to address. Ive shut down almost all social accounts and it's keeping me from progressing in a career where I need to have an online presence :/
so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.
I’m thinking about doing erp but my ocd is so severe the thought of accepting my fears happening to me makes me sick to my stomach. I also believe in the power of my words and saying I accept this Bad thing will attract it into my life. I’m not sure what I should do🥲
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