I'm done

It takes a lot of courage to express how overwhelmed you feel. OCD can be relentless and make it seem like there’s no way out, but you are not alone in this. Many people have felt hopeless before finding the right support and tools. It is possible that the tools you were given with ERP aren't tools that help you in your particular situation. I want you to know that ERP therapy isn't just a one try or a one size fits all approach. There are so many tools with ERP that can be used when other tools are not working. My hope is that you would consider not discounting one of the most effective therapies in the world for OCD due to your frustration. I personally wish I could work with you to help you see there is hope. Help is here at NOCD and we can assist you in finding outside help if needed too. Also here are some helpful resources: https://www.madeofmillions.com/articles/ocd-made-me-feel-like-a-bad-person-and-i-almost-believed-it https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/my-journey-from-hopelessness-to-empowerment https://beyondocd.org/expert-perspectives/articles/how-to-defeat-ocd-by-surrendering

It sounds like you’re carrying a heavy burden right now, and I want to acknowledge how hard that is. ERP can be incredibly challenging, especially when it feels like progress isn’t happening fast enough. Remember, OCD often tells us harsh things about ourselves that simply aren’t true. If you’re struggling and need more assistance, remember that help is available. Please don’t hesitate to reach out to us at NOCD to find out how we can support you. Also here are some helpful resources: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/how-do-ocd-and-other-mental-health-conditions-impact-your-sleep/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/how-to-deal-with-postpartum-intrusive-thoughts-advice-from-a-therapist https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/intrusive-thoughts-at-night

Bc I sent my friend a video and I sent a reason disagreeing with it and they aid they it didn't make any sense. And I said my statement or the video and they said and I don't know if they meant like it doesn't make sense why people think that or that they were disagreeing with me and my ocd says to not be friends with them anymore but I don't want to be

Relating to this off & on for the since last week I get it It feels like a sick joke

I don't have a therapist, they all just tell me the same thing anyway

i feel this way too, from what others tell me it's a part of the ocd but i get it and feel that doubt also sometimes

if you dont want to share it's okay, but why do you feel like a horrible person

That can’t be your mindset. You think Beethoven sat down at a piano and knew how to play? Do you think Michel Phelps jumped in a pool and knew how to swim. If you’re not seeing immediate improvement welcome to the club. Even if you’ve been at it for months, you got to change the mindset.

I don’t know what exposures you’re doing but I can say just do the exposure and keep going. It’s not an instant gratification. It takes doing it over and over and over. Your brain will eventually get bored and move on. You can also do exposures like writing down maybe —— is ok maybe it’s not I don’t know and sitting in the discomfort on your own time that way. I am doing youtube videos and you can see the ups and downs. You gotta just keep going! You are awesome and you’ve got this! Love you!

I understand the feeling of needing reassurance, rumination, and wanting immediate relief. But that is how Ocd is keeping you trapped. ERP takes time to work because it's changing pathways in our brain. Unfortunately that process doesn't happen overnight, especially if someone is still doing compulsions. But you can find relief eventually if you stick to it. You can recover, with a mindset shift. You have to prioritize the long term gain (recovery using ERP) instead of seeking short term relief (with compulsions)