Just looking for someone to relate to :)

I recently got diagnosed with OCD back in May of this year. What started it was a month prior, I took an SSRI which triggered an extremely intense couple of days due to panic attacks I’ve never had before. I’ve never had panic attacks but pretty intense anxiety. That’s when I started experiencing DPDR and hyper awareness. I’m good some days, but other days it’s so so hard. Especially because I have no one around me that understands. The DPDR and awareness of every feeling, thought, and just overall awareness of my existence gets really overwhelming. I feel like I’m losing my mind. It’s really hard to sit with my thoughts especially when they’re on a constant loop of every little thing I’m thinking and doing and on top of that feeling like I’m in a dream. I desperately just want to go back to how I was 4 months ago, but I know that’s just not possible right now. If anyone has experienced this and is doing much better now or even currently experiencing this please let me know! I need someone to relate to lol

Squirb

Date posted: 8d

I am going through pretty much the exact same thing right now so you are very much not alone✨ I think the only difference is I've struggled with panic attacks for years but this whole derealization thing is so new and happened right after I tried taking Lexapro for the first time and had a huge horrible reaction to it last month. I know how scary this all is but it's nice knowing someone knows what I'm feeling especially because I haven't really been able to relate to most people's experiences on her so far.

Anonymous

Date posted: 8d

@Squirb I know right, it sucks too because I don’t see a lot of people talking about it. It’s 100% one of the worst feelings I’ve ever experienced. I KNOW we’ll get through it though and come out better than we were before ❤️ I don’t know if we can private message in this app but if you ever need anything please message me and we can vent together!

Squirb

Date posted: 8d

@Anonymous So true I don't think I've ever been more scared in my life! I'm just glad we both are taking steps to grow and feel better and I'm not sure how private message works on here either between accounts but if you find out how then feel free to talk anytime!

Anonymous

Date posted: 8d

@Squirb Just know over time each episode slowly gets less intense! You just have to accept it and it will go away on its own. It’s totally safe and it’s just your brain telling you you need a lil break :) easier said than done, I’m still trying to not be scared of it but I’m definitely making progress, and it’s also helping me outside of DPDR, like I don’t get anxious about things I used to be anxious about because I’ve learned to be okayish with being uncertain and uncomfortable. Definitely takes times time

Anonymous

Date posted: 7d

i’m in the process of finding the right medication for me. I’ve had bad reactions (major panic) to two of them so now i’m trying another. Every time the dose is increased i do have break through anxiety and have to take something to help me get through it (per the dr). I just want to be my normal carefree self again. I need the light at the end of the tunnel.

Anonymous

Date posted: 7d

@Anonymous Wishing you the best of luck, you got this

S.Y.

Date posted: 7d

DPDR and panic attacks are not fun. Both really scared me the first time I experienced them. DARE has an app and book that helped me. It’s a lot like ERP of accepting the feelings of discomfort. You’re not alone.

S.Y.

Date posted: 7d

This might help https://youtu.be/WH86RW-KGaY?si=eyz41ZppiOwMr_f9

savvysavs

Date posted: 4d

If you are wanting to try a new medication, I would consider talking to your doctor about getting a genesight test. The test analyzes how your genes could affect your response to psychotropic medications. I felt mine was pretty spot on as before I took the genesight test, I had some pretty poor reactions to some SSRIs and sometimes they just weren’t effective to begin with. The test showed me which ones I metabolized better, and which ones I could struggle with due to my gene variation expressions. I also found out I had the MTHFR mutation which is pretty interesting.

H399Rocd

Date posted: 23w

Medication for OCD?

Medication for OCD? Hello all, 19 male here, this seems like a cool community that isn’t nearly as triggering as reddit. I have pretty severe bouts of existential thinking or fear of going crazy ( psychosis ) after some pretty heavy mushroom trips a few years ago, I know logically I should be fine but I do know what it’s like to lose it and it’s scary. Currently I deal with relationship focused OCD, it’s all day from before I even open my eyes. I want things to work out with my girlfriend badly. Also I can come close to a panic attack sometimes which perpetuates everything. Anyway, I mention the fear of going crazy because the way my anxiety/derealization makes me feel is that I’m not mentally stable cause I feel out of it or unreal. I saw that a lot of anxiety and depression medication can cause psychosis and I feel like I could use some help in getting ahead of my OCD because the compulsions are had not to give into when I’m in such distress/not knowing. Plus overall I just feel like I have no idea how I feel about close to anything. Anyone relate about that ?

kenzieisfound

Date posted: 10w

fear of losing control??

I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.

Medicine2021_

Date posted: 9w

Suicidal OCD and harm OCD

I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…

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