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@IHopeWeWin Thank you my friend. Im here to help as long as I am able:)

@IHopeWeWin For sure. I only have one person that I can talk to about this as well. And the feeling guilty for not (feeling guilty) is the worst. I’m worried about just sitting with it now, I’m starting to just numb out to everything. I worried that I’ll have to live in this constant loop for the rest of my life. The app does help though, like you said helps feel not so alone in it.

@IHopeWeWin I am actually extremely lucky and have someone that I can tell everything to and I do mean (everything) she is my best friend and has also been through crazy situations along with her own mental hang ups so we just completely understand each other. I still didn’t tell her about my ocd for a while though and was scared how she would react out of paranoia but she accepted me fully. I had also seen too many things on the internet while younger and it has caused me a lot of problems. I’m sorry you don’t have anyone really in person that you can be completely honest with about your situation and condition. If you need someone to open up to fully I’m available and will not judge you at all. You can text me on here or on something else if you want. I will always try to text back as fast as possible. I know what it’s like to deal with this kind of ocd completely alone and it can be too much on some one’s mental state. I completely understand if you don’t want to talk to a stranger about it though.

@IHopeWeWin Sorry I just saw this post. I completely understand stand this. My guilt did get so bad at one point that suicide did seem like the better option than living. I felt that I deserved to die then live at all. That’s when I broke down and finally told my friend what was going on. I think I’m past that point now but it’s still lingers some days. When I have a really bad relapse.

@IHopeWeWin Glad you’re still around too. It’s good that you’re trying, it’s all we can really do this point and hopefully one day we can find some relief in knowing that the past isn’t who we are. And we are trying to be good people. You sound like a very good person and I hope you get through this.