Taboo OCD

I genuinely can’t seem to catch a break. I’m looping again. I’m worried because I’m having incestuous thoughts about my boyfriend’s family, which also makes this a POCD-type thought. I’ve been imagining two of his family members in a sexual scenario. Mentally, it feels like I like this thought or that I want to think about it. I keep checking because I’m not disturbed at all, even though I know I shouldn’t check. I tried replacing both people with other people and different scenarios. With those, I clearly rejected it and didn’t like it. But with the original scenario, it still feels like I like it, and I don’t understand why. I want to stop checking, but every time I do, I feel a strong pull to continue. I’m anxious because this is such a bad thought, it doesn’t feel bad but I know that if I shared this out loud it would be not good. It involves people very close to my boyfriend. I’m so stressed that I feel like I’m feeling nothing at the same time. I really don’t know what to do. I just want to know if anyone else has experienced this with taboo themes, when it feels like you “like” the thought mentally.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 10w

I've been having a hard time with an accident that I made with a friend but didn't tell them that I made it. I've made posts about it and people told me that I should just accept the thought and act like you don't care about the thought. Checking and trying to prove the thought is what makes you worry. Well, how about trying to just face the thought and being like "Okay, stupid thought. Anything else?" Or something like that. I know that it isn't necessarily helpful but it's what is said to help in times where the thoughts get really annoying

Anonymous

Date posted: 10w

I’m struggling too. It feels like I’m fighting not to like and it feels pleasurable even though I know in real life I wouldn’t like it. This is scariest thing. Do you feel it physically too?

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 9w

@Anonymous I feel like I could get off to it if I tried. That’s scary but my bf said, “you can get off to literally anything if you attempt it so no checking.” I don’t feel like I have the certainty that I wouldn’t like it in real life. It feels too real. I’m fighting for it to not feel real, for it to feel like I don’t like it. I understand you. It’s genuinely scary

Anonymous

Date posted: 9w

@issphra 🫶🏻 Same. It feel like I can but I know in real life I don’t like men. I went from having intrusive thoughts about kids. But now it’s about men and feels so real like I like but I know when I’m with a man I don’t like nor attracted to them.

isabellamper...

Date posted: 10w

i used to have this a lot especially about my boyfriends dad, but overtime it went away. the main fears were related around my boyfriend and our relationship, and for some reason it fixated on his dad a lot lol. i confronted the fear and the anxiety and it eventually went away as other obsessions took over. while i dont have any advice, this is completely normal and apart of OCD. sending love ❤️

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 9w

@isabellampereira Thank you, so so much. It’s so hard when this happens. Thank you 💗

isabellamper...

Date posted: 9w

@issphra 🫶🏻 trust me, i get it—my boyfriend is also a carbon copy of his father so like it made it worse lol but trust me, you’ll get through it

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 9w

@isabellampereira Girl, I get it. This has happened with his other family members, and goodness do they resemble each other A LOT sometimes. You’re strong, it gives me a lot of hope thank you

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