Does anyone else struggle with feeling like you are starting to accept the thoughts/think they aren’t so bad? Like my brain is starting to tell me the thoughts I have aren’t as bad and that maybe I am overreacting but I know that they are horrible and completely against my morals but I feel like I am slowly losing my morals if you know what I mean? Does anyone have any tips on how to go back to your past self?
I’m in the same boat
funny because this could‘ve been my own post a few months ago. word for word. yess i dealt/deal with the exact same thing too. but i realized the more i tell myself to have a „proper“ reaction to those thoughts, the worse they get. so i started to just say „so what if?“ etc even though i never believed anyone when they told me to just „accept“ them because its scary as hell😭 but i gotta say it really helped me out
@yuliana.777 i‘ve been trying that but that really just feels like agreeing😭 like i know i have to accept the thoughts to deal with the OCD and I never realized that I had it since I could always deal with it (that’s a lie I do a lot of compulsions I didn’t even realize were compulsions lol) but because POCD is such a scary theme it feels impossible :( And I also really blame myself for it because the only reason I got that theme was because I started to read more about it and then I started to spiral so it feels even worse to just accept the thoughts.. sorry for rambling and I know reassurance is bad so I‘m not asking for it it just feels so good to finally talk to people who relate because I can’t talk to anyone I know about it
@hello354 no worries, i talked A LOT about my thinking process and intrusive thoughts to find reassurance, probably because i thought someone could give me a clear answer on whether those thoughts were „safe“ or „dangerous“. didn‘t even realise that i was doing compulsions. tbh one of the reasons i started saying „so what if“ when an intrusive thought popped up, was because of how mentally exhausted i was from overthinking 24/7. in other words i started to accept those thoughts because i simply had no other choice. and i promise you, it is okay to just let them wander inside your head even if its the scariest thing ever. had to figure that out my own way but i did. and lets think about it: it is totally logical that your brain eventually starts to „be okay with the thoughts“ (and even if you think that it should not be okay, it totally is ;) because it is so exhausted from all the distress OCD causes.
I HAVE THE SAME THING, especially with POCD. Like why am I not stressed anymore? Why am I lowkey okay when they appear (like no longer go into loops but just move on)?? I would love to help you but I don’t know. Hopefully someone else can help us both
@maaria yeah and my brain is telling me „well see, you don’t care so I guess the the thought you had isn’t bad. you want this so lets give you more of those thoughts“ and then the loop starts again and I just want it all to stop and shut up for a second. I know that the thoughts are bad but it just keeps telling me more and more and I just don’t know what to do anymore
@hello354 I feel like a horrible person when I just “accept” those thoughts, like not react anymore. I should be reacting I should be actively saying no to them. How can I just say a tiny no and move on?? I feel bad then so so bad
@maaria Same and my OCD feels like it‘s winning and telling me „See you do want that“ i hate it so much
@hello354 I swear it says that when I don’t react😭
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