don’t know how to sit with uncertainty

@idkwhatimdoinguh this definitely does help, i just have to sit with the feeling but it’s hard. thank you for your message though :))

Not trying to discredit what you said or anything but apparently arousal non-concordance (Which causes groinal responses) can mimic anything that shows attraction like blushing, mouth watering, etc. because they're all anxiety responses. Again not trying to be mean or anything it's just interesting

@Anonymous also true which is probably why it’s so confusing and feels so real! i’ll have to just start putting physical intrusions and intrusive thoughts in the same category and not give them meaning

@DK27 this is very helpful! i’ve just had some issues kicking the mental compulsions but you’re right, i just have to recognize that it’s all still ocd. thank you so much!!

@worryywart I think for me it's easier to walk into sitting with the uncertainty when I don't tell myself it's going to make me feel better. Because often it doesn't right away... and compulsions lurk nearby ready to come back into my life..

@Anon849 thank you, i’ll try that! i just recently started erp so it’s been a struggle but this is definitely very helpful :)

@nae nae this is exactly what i’m struggling with, especially the feelings. like the thoughts i can sometimes handle it’s just everything else that comes with it even though i know it’s ocd. and there’s nothing “wrong” with us because we have it! i’ve been trying to work on my own self confidence as well so you’re not alone there :) 🫂

@worryywart Ugh, yeah... I remember experiencing groinal responses for the first time, and that sent me spiraling HARD. It's good to know now that it's OCD, but there's still that lingering doubt that makes it difficult to move past. Acknowledging the intrusive thoughts with sarcastic non-engagement responses can sometimes make it a little easier. And yes, you're right! 🫂 and that's awesome :) I'll be rooting for you!!

@nae nae same, i’m so glad i know it’s ocd now because it was terrifying experiencing it at first. i definitely still feel that doubt sometimes as well but i’ve been trying to do better with not assigning meaning to it and not engaging, i’ll have to try the sarcastic responses as well lol. rooting for you as well!! 🫶

@BigGyro09 it feels so impossible but i know it’s not and i just have to push through it, but ughh it sucks. i’ll have to talk to my therapist and be less vague about it i guess. i sort of brought it up before but i haven’t gone into detail and i just want to stop feeling this way. ocd trying to convince you that you don’t have even have it is probably one of its worst tricks ever. i’m really scared to open up to people or to go out and pursue friendships or any kind of relationships because i don’t think they’ll get it, even though i know i don’t even need to disclose this sort of stuff to them. i just wish i had someone in my life that understood.

@worryywart I'm sure you have people in your life close to you that will understand if you tell them. A sibling or a best friend perhaps? I know that fear of them not getting but I also know that on the other side there is something you can handle when that time eventually comes. That's something that our OCD tries to tell us the opposite of: That we can't handle the distress if we don't do compulsions or go against it. The thing is, we can. I'm saying this, yet it's hard even for me to believe myself. I also know that medication can make this easier for you as well. I've been told that by success stories that I've seen under a post I made.

@BigGyro09 you’re right i could open up to a friend or sibling i guess i’m just worried about losing someone over this now or in the future, even though realistically i know it probably won’t happen. i think right now i’m just stuck in that ocd loop that’s telling me i’ll only be a burden because of it. or that i only deserve to be with people as “fucked up” as me. and i’m definitely thinking about starting mediation again. i thought it would be manageable with just the therapy but after getting off of wellbutrin it’s only really gotten worse for me. i definitely don’t want to go back to wellbutrin but i’ll have to ask my therapist about that too during next session.

@worryywart I'm in the same boat and relapses are only making it worse for me. I feel disgusting right now. You should try to get medication that's specifically an SSRI. Your therapist can tell you about the options

@BigGyro09 that self hate and disgust is the worst feeling ever but it holds no weight, you’re not disgusting just because you’re struggling. i’m sorry about your relapse but i know you can get back up again and i hope you’re feeling better now. you’re already doing better by seeking out help :))

@worryywart Today might be the day I talk about how badly I'm struggling. I got 2 hours of sleep and it's causing lots of relapses. One part of me is completely ashamed and disgusted but another part of me doesn't care. I just feel awful

@BigGyro09 oh no i’m so sorry, that’s horrible :((( don’t be ashamed it’s okay, it happens and you can absolutely come back from it. don’t be too hard on yourself. do you want to talk about it? i can’t do much but i can try to at least support you 🫂

@worryywart I had made a post about it. I'm really trying to be easy with myself and remind myself that OCD isn't something I asked for and that this is a genuine addiction that's compulsive and I feel like I don't have control over it, but I still feel very disgusting about it. You've been helping me a lot so it doesn't feel like you aren't. I just have a lot that I'm worrying about. This, the side effects of medication, worrying about explaining it to my mom, and how awful I feel about everything