This Too Shall Pass

It’s been a few weeks since I’ve been on this app and I just wanted to give an update! I’ve been experiencing OCD for roughly 2 years and it’s been a revolving door of obsessions. I had been to therapy once and it seemed to help for a few months until October of this year when I had one of the worst breakdowns of my life stemming from one of the worst thoughts/urges I had ever had. I couldn’t eat, sleep or focus for almost an entire month and it was unbearable! Since mid-November, I’ve been going to one on one therapy and I’m currently on Lexapro (the lowest dosage available). At first, I had increased anxiety and it was very hard for me to function. I can say now that my body is starting to make the turn! I’m eating & sleeping very well now but the only thing that’s getting me is that I’m still having those lingering thoughts! One thing that has kept me ground is remembering that the thoughts & urges I’m having will pass and they don’t last. I’m in a way better position than I was months ago. Stay strong!! (Question: who else experiences unwanted thoughts but doesn’t feel anxiety about the thought? What do you do in that instance?)

Mvc1984

Date posted: Yesterday

That’s ocd trying to trick you by not being anxious, we are in a constant state of fight or flight then when we do come out of it we don’t know how it feels.

Scarlet5

Date posted: Yesterday

That’s great that you are feeling better than you were in October. And good that the Lexapro seems to be helping. I am medication resistant ever since I was taken off Prozac many years ago. I cannot find an ssri that helps. I was just saying to a friend right before I read your post that maybe I should try Prozac again. maybe a lower dose would be ok. I have contamination and checking OCD so I’m not so I always experience anxiety about my contamination, which leads to constant handwashing and cleaning compulsions. It must be very difficult to have Intrusive Thoughts and urges. It’s tricky with contamination OCD because my triggers and fears stem from actual unexpected and real things that I cannot control. I live in apartment setting so I cannot control what my neighbors are doing to contaminate the building i live in or the lawn and property outside. The triggers are real items that I can see which lead to me feeling like my dog and I got contaminated….which then leads to my hand washing and cleaning rituals to try and decontaminate my apartment in order to get the contamination out of my apartment. I have not been able to find a therapist who takes my insurance that specializes in ERP. And I cannot afford to pay out of pocket. So my OCD has gotten worse not better. So it’s great that you are in one in one on one therapy and seem to have found a medication that seems to be helping. Keep up the good work😊

Scarlet5

Date posted: Yesterday

JesusCarriedMe …I love that NOCD name you chose !! I was thinking a couple weeks ago about the Footprints 👣 prayer…do you know that prayer? And I was thinking that when I look back at my life …there will only be one set of footprints in the sand for most of my life because Jesus must have carried me…for I could not have survived many traumatic experiences over the years on my own without the help from Jesus♥️

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