I need help...

You are not alone in this, I promise you 🫂 Intrusive thoughts can target anything and can cause a myriad of feelings or sensations. It can feel real, but remember that if it didn't feel real, it wouldn't bother us, and OCD needs our attention to thrive. False attraction is one, as well as groinal responses. A lot of people, if not every single person within the OCD community, have or will experience at least one of these. It doesn't mean anything, but the proper response is a non-engagement response. When this fear arises, instead of trying to figure out whether or not it's real (or attempt to push the feeling or thought away), just sit with it. Acknowledge the thought with a non-engagement response, and then shifting focus back to whatever you were doing before the thought (or feeling) appeared. Easier said than done. It'll take practice, but it gets easier the more you do it. Examples of non-engagement responses: "Maybe, maybe not." A simple, "I don't know, OCD!" Or... "Hey OCD, thanks! I hear you, but I'm not going to figure that out right now," and then redirect your focus. I hope some of this is helpful. I understand how painful it is to have OCD attack the things most important to us. POCD used to latch onto my youngest siblings. It felt impossible to be around them, and it legitimately made me feel like I was capable of doing harm, even though deep down, I knew that none of it was true. After getting past that fear, I'm able to enjoy time with not just my younger brothers but my entire family. It can and will latch onto things that mean the most to you... BUT that doesn't mean its claws will be in you forever. You are capable of overcoming this. There are so many people who thought they wouldn't be able to have children, even though they desperately wanted to. After learning to manage their OCD, they were able to create the family they dreamed of having without OCD holding them back. Hang in there 🥹❤️‍🩹