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- BassetHoundMom
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- 6y ago
Sounds to me like you think because you don’t FEEL like a good Christian, that means you ARE not a good Christian. OCD often likes us to tell us if we feel some particular way we must be that thing. Example: if I feel contaminated, then I must be contaminated. But as you can imagine these two aren’t inherently linked. This is a type of thought-action fusion. Feeling one way way does provide evidence that you are that thing. I can feel stupid, yet be a Nobel Prize winner. Our feelings do not dictate the reality of the situation.
I am a worship singer and I get the same thoughts too like I'm not worthy of being up there because of my ocd or because I'm truly not anointed. It's very depressing so I really understand your struggle. But I agree with LaPink. Your name is written on the palm of God's hand. You matter. You are important. You are anointed. You are loved unconditionally.
You should look up the concept dark night of the soul
I relate to this so much
I have the exact same fears and it causes me to avoid people and going to church. Don’t give up. Be open with other believers about your doubts - your church family is there to support you and encourage you. Salvation is a decision but mostly much more sanctification which means that in time as we grow, we learn more about Gods love and grace through our life’s circumstances and this daily softens our hearts. Tell Jesus about your fears or prayer journal them. He was afraid and asked God for certainty the night before the Cross so he understands our human feelings.
Does anyone else struggle with Christian OCD? I feel like I want to die right now. One of my core fears is the fear of my loved ones going to hell. It’s been my son for a while now because he started expressing fear he was going to go to hell and (unfortunately he appears to have religious OCD as well at even nine years old) it had gotten to a point he had felt he was unsaveable and getting angry at God. I realized that my fears of a false conversion were pushing him away/confusing him to the point I was hindering him coming to Christ. Only, I am afraid that I forced it on him now because he has asked for so long if he was ready and my husband took him to the altar. Not surprisingly he still doubts himself - he’s confused and I feel even WORSE than I did when he wasn’t “saved.” I fear if I try to reassure him and he isn’t saved that it will be my fault he goes to hell. I have barely slept since this happened Tuesday. I’m ready to die and all my therapy has completely gone out the window. I am just so depressed it’s hard to even look at my baby and not cry. *Please don’t respond if you’re not a Christian. I respect your opinions, but please respect mine.*
I used to struggle with salvation OCD. While I haven't dealt with that in several years, I do struggle with other fears that may be OCD related? Mostly they have to do with vocation and wondering if I'm sinning by living in a nice house and working a regular job and not in a 3rd world country somewhere as a missionary. I recently decided to apply to graduate school but worry that it's sinful and selfish because I won't be serving other people or ministering in that capacity. I also have fears of God calling me to go somewhere I don't want to go....for instance, the other day I had a sudden and urgent feeling that God wanted me to move to LA to minister....I haven't stopped thinking about it and am terrified that He might ask me to move there. I don't want to at all. But then I feel ashamed and guilty for being unwilling. Could that be a form of religious OCD? Whenever I try to research Scrupulosity all I get are results relating to salvation OCD. I don't struggle with that so much anymore. But I do often wonder if these present fears are a subtype of the subtype. Does anybody else experience this? And what exposures are helpful?
Hey guys so I’m new to this. I struggle really bad with religious ocd on top of other themes of ocd i have. But the religious ocd and POCD I have are definitely the hardest two. Today was so hard for me because I was freaking out all day about the eclipse and if it was the end of the world. I grew of in a very strict church and being gay was not acceptable so now I feel I’m morally wrong and unlovable in a sense. I don’t really know how to explain it. Wether it was from my youth pastor outing me on stage in front of all of my friends and hundreds of students, to them praying over me for years on end, before I finally left the church. Yet I still question if my salvation is safe or not. I question if God loves me etc. it gets so bad that I’m convinced everything I do is because I’m possessed by a demon. And I’ll start to vomit. Literally vomit. It sounds wild I know. Wether it’s music my ocd deems demonic or movies or spiritual things such as tarot cards that I enjoy. But my mind will convince me if I use them I will go to hell because that’s what I was taught for so long. I just wish I could get better but I don’t know how and I’m so hopeless.
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