2024 to date (2026) life update:

These past two years have been nothing short of purgatory hell. Not due to my OCD symptoms that have been trying desperately to flare up these past 6 months, but because of life itself overall and collectively. Before I elaborate, thank God for NOCD, ERP therapy, talk therapy, medications I have been on since 2021, ECT therapy from 2021 - 2022 and my overall own set of tools post being clinically diagnosed for Chronic OCD, Major Depressive Disorder, and Severe Anxiety. It’s a miracle in it and of itself that I am still alive, able/willing to talk about these past two years, and remain with the strength, courage, resilience, and overall grit to speak openly about all of the above for anyone else who can relate, needs an open dialogue to be able to discuss, and community feel to utilize our collective resources. In the past going on two years in June, 26’, I will have ended a 14 year relationship (domestic partnership) of which collectively wreaked havoc over my life to date, moved twice and am aiming to be able to move again STAT/ASAP, underwent a hell on earth living experience at my former residence in NJ, moved back to NY where I grew up and have been living in isolation with my four ESA’s; all of whom are my life and reason to keep going and purpose in life 🐾, experienced a wrongful eviction in NJ that has put placed my four ESA’s in an extended-stay living situation; of which I have been relentlessly trying to get out of for the sake of all us, got into my first ever (no fault) car accident and sustained life changing inquires of which I have had 1 out of 2 mandatory surgeries for, my first ever slip and fall in the NJ residence that I mentioned; due to the building’s negligence/unprofessionalism/retaliatory behavior and the surgery from that injury as well (3 in total within under a year), lost my vehicle in the process and am currently in a “Bridge Vehicle,” that turned out to be a legitimate “Lemon,” that I am hoping to obtain counsel for to address, currently remain in legal battles with my ex partner who purposely sabotaged my life to date, and just recently; within these past two weeks, have fired my legal counsel For Cause; that had been representing me for the past two years for two separate Gender Identity discrimination lawsuits and their firing was due to conflicts of interests with the defendants, overall case negligence, blatant and blunt misconduct towards me as their client, etc. But the absolute worst of all; was tragically loosing my late, beloved, French Bulldog-Brie (Bestie). Who I posted about back in September, 2025. A loss of which I am still grieving over on a daily basis for the past 7 months. As well as being there for her sister and three brothers. All of whom who are also suffering from her loss, alongside me. My now four (forever 5) fur-babies and I are all we have. No living family members (any who are alive are “Dead,” to me due to unforgivable circumstances throughout life), any former “Friends,” relationships of which total 15+ years collectively; I had been cutting off since 2024 and 100% cut ties with as of this past November because anyone who was once apart of my prior life proved themselves to never have truly been a “Friend” nor “Family” member to me/us and not a single person from our past has even so much as reached out to send a text message, not a call, nor a social media interaction. Mind you, these are all people that I removed from my/our lives and with good reason, but I just can’t relate to such evil, hateful, and heartless people/souls. And I know that this had to be done in order to realize that these are the “Family/Friends,” I once had done anything/everything for, but during a period of time of my life when I’ve been in need (specifically these past going on 6 months); not a soul, not a single person has even so much as reached out. Leaving me to 100% fend for myself and all of my fur-babies; while navigating through all of the obstacles and hurtles I have been on a mental, physical, emotional, and overall health position. Never, had I ever or would I ever have thought; that I not only would be going through all of this and all at once through a prolonged period of time (despite any/all efforts thus far to continuously correct), but 100% alone? And in complete and total isolation? I can’t even fathom the idea; let alone to be living proof of it. I’m someone who is no stranger to the “Trials and Tribulations,” of life. However, this collegians and all at once/back to back for going on 2 years now isn’t humane. It’s unjustifiable, it’s inhumane, and it’s everything that’s wrong, collectively. And so, I share this sentiment with my fellow soldiers, my fellow warriors on the battlefields of “Life,” and all those with the strength, courage, resilience, and grit to conquer on! All the while already being faced with mental health conditions/illnesses. I commend us ALL! And if no one else today, this week, this month, or this year has told you yet; I SEE YOU, I HEAR YOU, AND I FEEL YOU 💯 WE’RE NOT ALONE AND WE HAVE EACH OTHER 🫂 That’s is what COMMUNITY, is all about 💗 Anyone/everyone who can relate in any way, shape, or form; let’s all help each other out by hearing each other out and being there for each other in however which way we can❣️ Sending love, compassion, and support to all those suffering from monster and battling the beast that is OCD 💌