❗️❗️can anyone help, worried about normalcy

Ive actually been surprisingly doing well the last couple of days ish, i haven’t been ruminating as much and i feel like Ive been able to focus on the real important things rather than whats going on in my head, but i have noticed a pattern where once i feel good i feel like i notice it more usually after a couple of days of feeling good. Then ill start to get worried or my brain will start jumping to conclusions like ‘you don’t actually like him’ or ‘you don’t want to be with him’ almost like when i feel normal i’ll have some sort of ‘realisation’ and truthfully i don’t like that. If what my head was telling me was true wouldn’t the most obvious time to be thinking or being aware of that would be the first few days i felt didnt have intrusive thoughts much? It could also be to do with the fact that after a couple of days of feeling good i stop feeling the effects of feeling good and things start to feel more normal or chill. Like the feelings aren’t heightened anymore for that time. Not good or bad just mediocre, maybe my brain uses that as fuel that like ‘this is when you realise you don’t like him’ sort of thing. It also almost makes me believe it?? I don’t like it but i have experienced this before and it caused me to go into an anxiety attack. What does this mean?? Does anyone else relate?? I hope im not alone on this and that it’s normal. It’s almost like if i never have intrusive thoughts again what if it’s not a good thing??

Liz0500

Date posted: Yesterday

I have been feeling like this the past week. I keep thinking I want to breakup and that I’m lying to my bf. It’s really scary and feels real when the spike happens. I just joined this community but it seems I am not alone in this!

CATastrophic 😾

Date posted: Yesterday

Totally normal for someone with OCD! Our minds are so fixed on being in a state of extremes, therefore our brain creates extremes. I was just talking about this kind of thing to my boyfriend. There’s a whole bunch of reasons to be in a relationship that benefit you and make you happy!! You aren’t going to always feel the extreme being in lovey dovey feeling all the time. It’s actually because you’re happy and care about him so much that your ocd brain is like “hmmm how can I mess this up?” Don’t worry about it at all, this is very common with every relationship, just people without ocd don’t even question it lol. You care about this person and that’s why you’re worried about ruining it. Love comes because of many little puzzle pieces…we appreciate these pieces at different times and in different circumstances. Sometimes we don’t have the mental capacity to appreciate as much as we did in the beginning and that is okay! As long as you are being treated with respect and they align with your life in a lot of ways, you’re in a good spot. Enjoy your time with them. So much of love is shown through just consistent actions throughout time and it’s normal to go through phases in relationships. Not just normal, but healthy.

Swelll

Date posted: 20h

@CATastrophic 😾 Thank you sm, im trying to let the feeling sit, its so hard and i feel like its getting stronger and trying to change the direction of my feelings and values. I’ll keep moving and wont give up though, i know its only a moment but its so hard when it feels like this. Thank you for the kind encouragement. Im not properly diagnosed but have been experiencing symptoms for 10 years but never rocd before.

FroBro22

Date posted: Yesterday

I think OCD can make us hyper aware of fluctuations of emotions…. Especially with ROCD in regards to feelings about your partner. I definitely go thru this. I feel good and then it’s almost like I have to have this euphoric feeling at all time in my relationship as a form of reassurance and the moment things start to feel normal my OCD wants that reassurance. But I have had that exact same intrusive thought many times over. It’s exhausting being jerked back and fourth by your brain like this.

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