Can ocd live in the back of your head??

I may be trying to reassurance seek here but i want to know, can you wake up, have thoughts and be quietly bothered by them. Also its not just thoughts but like a feeling of wrongness that maybe could have influenced the thoughts or vica versa. You dont get panicked or super anxious over them but you know its there, and when you try to go about your day it doesn’t really go away, like you dont really feel like yourself because you know what its felt like to have times of calmness and no intrusive thoughts but when it comes on in a quiet more bothering way it feels in a way MORE scary because your like, “well maybe this isnt ocd” sort of thing. But i dont feel like i NEED to do compulsions but at the same time also i want to (maybe thats because my brain is getting stronger and im able to not let it ruin my day) I struggle with rocd mainly and i know when i fully come out of this way of thinking, im ok and i can feel everything in the way i WANT to. But this can feel in a way MORE convincing than rather if its super loud and in my face. Does anyone else get this? Is this something i need to be worried about?

cely 🌸

Date posted: Yesterday

@swelll I’m currently experiencing this as well :D! Although I never really thought deep into depth about it like you have. I just see it as: “so this is how it feels like to not only conquer but live with my OCD” Let yourself continue to be in that peace. Remember not to overthink this as well. Our goal is to not solve :)! Keep going and good luck 👍

Swelll

Date posted: Yesterday

@Celeste Barrios Thank you!! Ive only been experimenting this theme of ocd for about 4 months or so ish so maybe im thinking about it deeply because im still fairly new to this theme of OCD (rocd) maybe thats why aswell. Thank you.

goofy goober

Date posted: Yesterday

yes! i experience this too and i seen another post on here OCD seems to like habituate itself in our minds to try to make itself feel comfy since it knows that we are super sensitive to it. it feels as real as possible since the OCD monster sounds a lot like yourself in your head rather than another voice, but don’t look at it as being scared due to it feeling real although i know it’s super difficult because in the end that gives it power which we don’t want to give it

Swelll

Date posted: Yesterday

@goofy goober Yeah exactly, im not like super scared but the worry of it does come in waves if that makes sense? Like ill forget that its there for a bit but then remember that its still there if that makes sense? Its almost like im contaminated and it wont go away until I’ve completely come out of it. But thats how it can feel even more real, because it feels like my own voice and self. Im happy im not the only one.

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