sperm ocd / anyone else have this ritual

I always ask questions a lot because I don't have a therapist. I can never find one. Even with a psychiatrist I'm on medication finally after years of complicating if I'm gonna ruin my body for this would even after I prescribe the meds She said she couldn't help me anymore. She wishes the best for me. This happened yesterday again with another therapist she left me. This is nothing new to me at first honestly I borrowed this app because I'm like what's wrong with me. But this is just a repeating subject for me, unfortunately that I'm trying to understand that ocd is very hard to work with because I have the most irrational thoughts, and I cannot even get a psychiatrist or therapist on here because they don't accept my insurance sadly. i'm in PA.. I'm wondering if this happened to anybody else with ocd or is it just me? I have the dwelling fear of pregnant pregnancy (i'm a lesbian dating a girl) but the fear of sperm that it's everywhere at the consciously wash my hand, totally bleed. I cannot put on my underwear correctly because if my foot touches my underwear I will freak out. Have to wash my hands constantly for this could go on for two hours if not more I can't do shared toilets with men, can't touch stuff they touch, I put lotion on my hands, cause my brain will convince me it's sperm my dog has peed on the floor before causing me to have to wash my feet constantly before you even try to put on a pair of underwear and if my foot even touches a little bit of my underwear, I have to throw them off and put a new ones on this repeat even if it doesn't touch me in my brain will convince me that my foot they touch my underwear, causing stress and panic panic attacks I haven't found anybody else who has this ocd fear, and ritual that I have and it makes me wonder and fear even without finding somebody else who does have this weird ritual I'm getting pregnant for these reasons even if my dogs are male, makes me have the ridiculous fear this would only happen to me and nobody else on earth. Hopefully this makes sense because it's really hard to put it into words without sending ridiculous and even saying out loud is really rough for me I know ocd isn't supposed to make sense but hearing from a therapist that I don't have ocd and making fun of you for not knowing the basic ways I'm getting pregnant she made it seem is really rough for me. It makes me feel that it will only happen to me. How do I cope with this? How can I somehow get a rational way of thinking because it's there I know that the only way I'm getting pregnant is through sex but my brain convinces me that I'm different and it will happen to me doing the most stupidest stuff like one of them my foot touching my underwear after wearing outside shoes in the house and touching the floors my foot touched the floors, trying to change my underwear will cause pregnancy I feel alone and crazy