i feel alone

@ben123 but what if i don’t confess? the nausea, the rapid heart rate, and urgency last all day. it doesn’t go away unless i confess.

@Anonymous You have to live with those feelings and try and get used to them. Confession is teaching you that you have to give into compulsion and therefore you are never going ri get better. It’s really hard but the urgency etc are feelings that are pleasant not dangerous. Are you in therapy?

@ben123 This is classic OCD. And people can help themselves and get better but you have to put in hard work and it’s really difficult

@Anonymous in the meantime you should read up on ERP so you can start understanding the mechanism of OCD

@ben123 yeah. i feel helpless and too complex.

@Anonymous It’s not complex - what you have is a condition thousands have. You’re not an anomaly- you are just stuck in the middle. I promise you can do a lot to help yourself - small steps. Delay a compulsion for 5 mins.

@ben123 thank you :) i haven’t shared my exact thoughts and situation on here, i know you know about my situation as well talked on a previous post, but things haven’t seemed to get better since april 14th after the edible. i am terrified i threw myself into something permanent that i can’t handle. i just am scared hoping it’s just OCD and not anything more.

@Anonymous It’s OCD. There’s nothing an edible could do in the long run. You need to accept it is probably OCD.

@ben123 thank you! i just don’t feel good. sorry that talking to me is like talking in circles, ive ruined all my relationships bc all i talk about is my mental health, i have no interest in talking about anything else. i just feel broken.

@Anonymous Do you think you can stop the compulsion of talking about it? Sounds like you are looking for reassurance and it’s just going to make the OCD worse

@ben123 The hard truth is to get better you have to change behaviors even and especially when it feels hard

@ben123 i can’t stop talking about it, that’s the problem with me .

@Anonymous You can.

@ben123 If you want to get better you have to try changing habits because what you’ve been doing hasn’t been helping

@ben123 you’re right, thank you so much, this means a lot

@kem03 for some reason nothing helps me. i spend my whole day talking about my “ocd” it has negatively affected all my relationships and everyone is tired of hearing me. i’ve been diagnosed with ocd but i don’t think i really have it. i think i have something that is rare and that no one else has ever heard of.

@Anonymous That’s a common OCD thoughts so it sounds like you have OCD. Probably talking to people is a compulsion. If you can you should try and do a pleasurable activity and not follow your thoughts and allow the painful feelings to be there

@ben123 idk, i wish there was something i knew i enjoyed. it’s really bad rn, i have the most terrible anxiety and guilt because it seems like i’m a bad person. all of this probably boils down to needing to be a friend to myself, but idk how.

@ben123 all of this started after taking the 600 mg edible april 14th and i feel like it triggered this and that this is permanent

@Anonymous I think that’s panic speaking. Maybe an edible made you panic and then your brain has adopted a pattern. But the brain is teachable. But only you can teach it. And do to that you have to keep watching a TV show even if the anxiety is biting you

@ben123 im just having an internal conflict with myself and idk how to feel better.