Questions about ocd

What do you do when you have ocd about yourself? Like when you wonder if each things you think about aligns with your thoughtd or morals or what you want to be in the future? I'm having an ocd about wanting to get the final answer which I know isn't real but I have this weird obbsesion with it and I can't seem to accept any thought and I'm kinda scared to let go. It feels like the final boss of ocd but I feel like I haven't learned anything to deal with it in all my years of having it. Do I accept the thoughts and let go or is there something because I genuinly feel like I'm going through phsycosis and I can't tell the difference between if it's me or my ocd because. I genuinly feel like I did this to myself as well but I genuinly don't know how to move on or accept if the thing is mine or not.

Anonymous

Date posted: 18h

I’m scared of letting go ocd thoughts too, my bf tells me all the time you can’t change the past and it doesn’t define you. Your intrusive thoughts aren’t real and don’t define you but I get scared of letting it go simply because I’m scared of it being true and if I let it go that means I don’t care if it is true.

Anonymous

Date posted: 14h

That's kinda how I feel to the T. How do you deal with that like... Trying to accept?

Anonymous

Date posted: 14h

@Anonymous It’s many things I have to accept in my life. Real event ocd from when I was a child, I just got to accept that I can’t change anything no matter how much I think about it. I have social anxiety or anxiety in general especially in high school when it came down to introducing myself or school projects or speaking infront of big crowds I had to mentally tell myself “at the end of the day you gotta do it anyway” that has to be applied now, I know it’s ocd, were diagnosed with ocd. I won’t say I can accept everything because it’s hard for me but letting ocd be ocd without worrying if it’s ocd because 100% it is ocd. If this makes sense, we have to train our brain this is a mental disorder and we have to treat it like one

Anonymous

Date posted: 14h

@Anonymous Ocd is hard 😭

Anonymous

Date posted: 14h

@Anonymous It’s a disorder everybody treats as a joke, it’s a reason why people don’t get diagnosed until later on in life. I’ve had ocd well a flare up for 3 years just got diagnosed months ago and now learning I might have had it when I was little especially religious ocd but I’m not religious anymore I’m atheist. I suffer from harm ocd, real event, false memory and many more. It’s exhausting and if people truly knew all subtypes of ocd they would stop trying to be associated with it

Anonymous

Date posted: 13h

@Anonymous It can be really tireing as well not being abel to control it. Like the solution is simple but I feel like we are scared of simple and it can really take a tool on us. Sometimes I wonder if it was okay for me to have suffered with ocd but I don't think it was my choice and I have to accept that.

Anonymous

Date posted: 13h

@Anonymous We don’t deserve ocd in any circumstance, I wonder too if it’s based on past actions. The only reason I had a harm OCD flare was because I was assaulted at work and nobody fired him after multiple women reported him for the samething only time they did was because he was stealing time and I kept thinking to myself if I would have been skinner because he kept saying how thick I was a had comments on my body. I blamed myself for something a man did, and then caused my ocd to flare. It’s not our fault, sometimes it feels like it is but I 100% promise it’s not sometimes ocd is passed down through generations or from trauma

Anonymous

Date posted: 12h

@Anonymous First I hope he got fired and are healed from it. Second I get that, I really wonder if past mistakes caused this too, like what mistake could I have made to deserve this illeness? But if I think about it I don't anyone deserves and illness I think it just happens and there is nothing we can do about it. Sometimes I wonder what my life would be without it, it would be easier and that life doesn't exisist so nothing much to do about it

Anonymous

Date posted: 11h

@Anonymous Yesss, I was so incredibly paranoid when it first flared I couldn’t even use the women’s bathroom at work and I worked 10 hour shifts. I would hold it all day until I went home, I was so relieved the ocd started attacking something else but that wasn’t healthy but the next thing it attacked was harm ocd about my family lol😭

Anonymous

Date posted: 11h

@Anonymous Also he did get fired not because he was a weirdo but because he was stealing time

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