Dealing with transphobia + POCD

Maybe someone who needs to see this will see this... I want to vent my frustrations with the state of the world a bit, and how it fuels my OCD internal struggles, and I guess this is a fine enough place to do it. Would love feedback but I'm also fine shouting into the void. There's been an uproar over a trans woman working as a music teacher in an elementary school. Long story short, a targeted hate campaign by online extremists flooded the school board meeting with hateful messages and angry parents. Nasty things were said, and much of it implied her being malevolent in some way, even perverted, for being herself while in the vicinity of children. Now for context, I worked as a paraeducator for one summer, and that was some of the most difficult and draining work I've done, and I've chopped down trees! So I have a lot of respect for those who teach for a living. It's a thankless job in nearly every way. Bringing the joy of music to kids is probably one of the most noble things you could do with your life, right? Well, this woman was not treated with dignity, nor humanity. And it's not uncommon at all to see this. To get to the point, I'm also a trans woman, and have a traumatic history that resulted in POCD. It's extremely difficult to handle on its own terms, I dealt with it before I came out as trans and I deal with it now. Yet I feel it's actually gotten worse the closer I've gotten to my true self. It's just because the way hateful people talk about the trans community feels like it validates so many of the fears I'm constantly battling. And my OCD brain often echoes those external voices to torment me. It's extremely frustrating that people like me are scapegoated in the first place, but add in my trauma history and the resulting OCD cycle of constant worry, and it sometimes feels like the world is just a cruel joke at my expense. Because these two things were unknown to me all my life, I'm new to having OCD and I'm new to being trans both at the same time, even though of course they've always been true. And it's caused a lot of shame, self doubt, and even doubt from others. Even the most supportive members of my family have expressed doubts about my identity itself due to the prevalence of my mental health concerns... Like they can't unlink those two parts of me in their minds. Add in them finding out about the trauma around that same time, and WOW have they said some insulting, invalidating, and infuriating things about me. The themes I struggle with most seem to be sourced from both my childhood trauma and these hateful and/or ignorant voices of others. And because they're both valid external dangers, it's extremely difficult to see the difference between the intrusive thoughts of self-hate and the external things I hear. So they both end up feeling just as real. And it's hard to say they're not, because they are sourced in reality, and I know the thoughts go off the rails but... Look, when some people may genuinely think I'm demented just for presenting as myself comfortably, if they knew even half the thoughts I struggle with on a daily basis, their suspicions would be confirmed wouldn't they? And I'm especially afraid of that happening with my loved ones. So yeah, I'm dealing with these issues all at once and it feels like an exhausting game of whack-a-mole. Or maybe a hydra, I solve one problem and two more take its place. Thanks for reading, if you read this, and I wish you the best of luck in your own game of whack-a-hydra.