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- guavaslice
- Date posted
- 5y ago
If I don’t turn the light switch or sink off the right way, I worry that something bad will happen to a family member. I have coped with this by reminding myself that there is absolutely no way this is possible and that my family wouldn’t want me obsessively turning the switch on and off for them. It’s not like they would be upset with me if I didn’t give in to this compulsion
I relate to this completely, whether it’s switching the light on and off or stepping the “right” way with my feet there’s no way that my loved ones would want me to be under so much duress and occupied with trivialities for there sake. Thank you for sharing!
@guavaslice What I do this too. I do it a lot. But it’s never really been mentioned in magical thinking OCD. could I have checking OCD?
@magical-thinking-kanna I’m so hyper aware of my heart too, I hate it, I feel it beating and it’s all tingly all the time. But my intrusive thoughts are so focused around bad things happening to people I love, so I have to do these rituals to make those thoughts not come true
@magical-thinking-kanna Look into “sensorimotor” ocd, Im not sure if it goes into checking or magical thinking or whether it has its own category. It’s definitely super frustrating though! I tend to overthink about whatever body part I’m using at any given moment.
I do struggle with sensorimotor OCD a lot. On top of that it kinda mixes with my counting obsession and my head just stays a mess. About dealing with that, I usually have with me a chewing necklace for anxiety and it helps me to calm down and I found that I can stop focusing on my body sensations by switching the focus to the chewing on my necklace, like chewing a certain number of times and things like that. Idk if it made sense to you or if I couldn’t explain it correctly but that’s what I found That helps.
I literally got so hyperaware of my swallowing when I was 8 that I convinced myself that I couldn’t swallow. My parents took me to all of these GI doctors, who all said theres nothing wrong, its all psychological. My advice for when i cant stop checking my body or focusing on swallowing, I remind myself that my body knows what its doing with out me paying attention to it. Then i distract myself with a tv show or a good book to focus on something else.
I am really struggling with harm ocd. ( The fear of hurting others) My ocd is very tough to combat at the minute. I feel like i’m having intrusive thoughts every minute of every single day. Except from when Im distracted. I feel guilty and foul for the thoughts. I have this strong intrusive feeling that feels impulsive, as if i’m about to act on a thought. It almost feels like I want to. But I really don’t and i’m so scared this isn’t normal. I keep thinking. “What if this isn’t OCD” “What if i did that” and it’s really worrying me as it feels relentless and as if I’m about to do it. In my head chest wrists. I feel tired of this. I don’t know much about compulsions etc but i find myself - Asking my bf if he gets intrusive thoughts like me. Asking him if he actually does and asking repeatedly. - I ask him over and over again and check if he definitely does. - I will literally try to fight the thoughts by kind of saying “ as if i’m not that type of person” Then saying everything will be okay to myself. Please can someone tell me if this is normal. Yes I may be looking for reassurance but i need to know if it is, Im scared, i’m crying. Please tell me if you’ve had this feeling of as if you’re about to do it!
I'm reaching out in hopes of finding others who might relate to my experiences or offer insights. I'm dealing with a complex interplay of OCD, depression, and existential anxiety, and I'm struggling to make sense of it all. Here's what I'm experiencing: I have OCD with various manifestations, along with episodes of depression. I find myself in a cyclical pattern where, after a few weeks, I start to remind myself about my depressive tendencies. This reminder seems to trigger a cycle that actually makes me feel more depressed or at least more aware of depressive symptoms. When this happens, I often experience feelings of nihilism and existential dread. I try to think about my family - my two young boys and my wife - to find motivation or a sense of purpose, but this strategy often backfires, making me feel even more anxious and depressed. I constantly check my feelings, wondering if they're depressive or anxious. At the same time, I fear that my feelings of anxiety and panic might spiral out of control. I think about my emotions and thoughts on a meta-level, which means I'm not just experiencing feelings, but I'm also constantly analyzing the fact that I'm experiencing them. There's an existential component to my struggles, a fear of depression and anxiety itself, and a sense that this might be a self-fulfilling prophecy. Perhaps most frustratingly, I often have feelings, thoughts, or sensory experiences that I can't explain or put into words. I feel like I've never heard of these before, which leaves me feeling deeply misunderstood. Does anyone else experience something similar? How do you cope with this complex web of symptoms and experiences? I'm particularly interested in hearing from those who've found ways to break the cycle of meta-cognition and self-fulfilling anxiety. Any insights, shared experiences, or strategies would be deeply appreciated. Thank you for your time and understanding.
I’ve been feeling the urge to avoid intimacy or purposefully engage (for reassurance that I won’t give into a compulsion) because of intrusive thoughts and fear that I’ll “check/test” my reactions. My OCD is making me so scared that I’ll purposefully think of a child and try to see if I like it. It’s so complicated but I guess I’m mentally checking if I would mentally check during intimacy. I’ve even envisioned myself checking and it’s making me so nauseous. I know it’s a compulsion like any other but the sound of “touching yourself to the thought of a child” sounds atrocious and vile. I’m terrified I’ll automatically start checking next time I am being intimate. I truly feel so worried. If anyone has gone through something similar, I’d appreciate hearing your experience. Or if anyone has any advice?
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