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This is classic OCD. I struggle from so many intrusive thoughts and those intrusive thoughts tell me I want to do them. But you are giving into a compulsion by taking these quizzes and looking online. Take no more quizzes, limit yourself. I know this sounds so uncomfortable and will suck but it will makes things better. I promise.
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I’m 99% sure you do not have BPD. Ocd makes you terrified of everything including being terrified you don’t just have OCD
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I used to do that! Okay. People with BPD do not take quizzes online to see if they have it ... I used to google for houuurrrsssss on end - this is a classic symptom of OCD. Have you started to see a therapist yet? Getting it out and having someone understand and help you deal with thoughts on a regular basis is so helpful and important! You get mad easily and react because your body is in fight or flight mode (from the anxiety and OCD) I agree to stop taking quizzes. Do something else to busy yourself, read, go for walk, call a friend, get creative with art supplies, play a game, bake... those have been things that helped ground me when I was having a really hard time.
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I’m so sorry Naeun I misunderstood your post! :( I had thought you meant bipolar. I didn’t want to reassure you but I wanted you to know that even if you did that it’s okay. But also notice... you are compulsively taking tests ?! Ocd likes to you to think it’s you working and not it... I think the more you see it as it works the less scared you will be about the other possibilities. If it makes you feel better, I do the same thing... I don’t want another thing wrong with me either.... But truth be told there is nothing really “wrong” with us. We are just wired a little differently than most, and maybe there are good qualities in that too ?.
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BPD is common comorbid with OCD, they have some overlapping symptoms. My doctor has been talking to me about that possibility as well. There is a spectrum to BPD. Initially I was pretty distraught because I didn’t want one more “thing wrong with me”. The verdict is still out. But whether you do or don’t that doesn’t mean anything about you personally... it’s all about you getting better regardless of what the tests say. Detach from that idea, so what if I have that... who cares... (Still share your concerns with your therapist) but know that you don’t have to attach to the upsetting thoughts.
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I read bpd symptoms and I sound like some of them so now I'm scared too! ?
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^bipolar disorder
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@Dee that’s my fear I don’t want anything else wrong with me because I have severe harm ocd and *trigger some serial killers had borderline personality disorder so you can see where my fear is coming from... and gosh I don’t wanna worry about having bipolar now also ... it’s diff for other people.. I know you can be strong about t but no matter how hard I try I can’t.
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Hey, so idk if I have ocd, I would like to think I’m a very self aware person but I don’t wanna self diagnose at all, lmk what you guys think. So pretty much my whole life since I was young I remember having irrational fears im sure it was all trauma induced but when I was a kid I thought my father was poisoning me until I asked him, he started crying and was so shocked that I could ever even think that, my parents broke up when I was legit fresh out the womb, mom worked two jobs and disciplined me, dad let me do whatever on the weekends and got me snacks so I was obsessed with him so obsessed that it was mandatory for me to kiss his picture 20x everyday before school. Growing up I always felt followed by cameras or like someone out there was recording me waiting for me to do something embarrassing to expose me in front of the whole world and my life was over 🤣🤣 I thought my abusive ex bf was stalking me through my I phone camera after we broke up and it would truly stress me out, it made me believe that it was the reason he never reached out again bc I probably looked ugly in the camera he was stalking me through. If I fall out with a friend Ill over analyze everything to see if I did anything wrong and god forbid while I’m self reflecting I realize I did something wrong I feel like an evil person, verbatim the people I fall out with is bc they’ve done me wrong in some way and it has to b something hurtful or repeated mistakes for me to really stay away for good, so I’ll beat myself up for making mistakes with another person who’s made the same amount of mistakes if not more and in most cases I always fall short, and this when I question if it’s ocd or I’m just to self aware and see the ugly in me bc I’m not perfect and it’s just makes me feel so unsettled but again that’s a normal feeling and the next step is to forgive yourself and do better moving forward, not obsess over it like your trying to convince yourself you’re a good person. I’m also hot tempered and will say hurtful things when I’m mad I’m definitely a crash out in the way, you push my bottoms way too many times and I will shred you, and I’ll say things ik will hurt you and that’s just so low, then the anger goes away and I have to face the guilt, which makes my “ocd” 100x worse, it almost feels like I have to do everything right to not trigger it yet again I don’t have the self control to do it all right, I actually have a lot bpd tendencies again not diagnosing but I’m just trying to understand my brain. I worry about dying, getting a terminal illness. uti turning into kidney infection then into cancer kind of thing, knowing that life in general can b tragic is so scary to me, like what will be my story? What will be my life experience?. I believe that people see right through me and discuss it amongst each other, I always tell myself I am not that important but I can’t seem to shake it off sometimes. When I would break up with my ex I would have pre written paragraphs ready to b send if he ever decided to reach back and I would do this to make sure I didn’t forget a single thought, that every point i felt I need to prove was there, and that bothers me bc do I want win an argument or fix the issue. All of these feelings make me feel so pathetic and embarrassed people move on with their lives and I’m still stuck on something that happened 3 yrs ago. Then I’ll get manic get a tattoo, change my hair, go out clubbing do what I can to b the sexy young girl that I am and it helps in the moment but it worsens my mental after the euphoria is gone. I’m currently staying home, not going out, have only 1 friend so I feel like ocd progressively got worse now, I don’t remember it getting this bad in a while. lmk what you guys think don’t judge or think I’m embarrassing I’m actually so cool and if have to convince you I’m cool I will LMFAOO no but fr help
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