PeachyPopsicle
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- 5y
WisebloodWiseblood
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- 5y
I’ve been where you are. You can do this. OCD waxes and wanes. It’s not unusual to have tough periods like this. Be kind to yourself. You will see your therapist Tuesday and get even more help. Try to accept that it may be hard until then and let it be there.
PeachyPopsiclePeachyPopsicle
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- 5y
Thank you, I'm feeling so depressed and defeated right now, especially compared to how much better I felt last week. I'm just feeling desperate for some sort of relief. I'm at work right now and that's just making everything more difficult. I don't know how to get through the work day at the moment. I haven't had this much trouble in a long time and I feel like it just hit me like a ton of bricks.
WisebloodWiseblood
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- 5y
@PeachyPopsicle I understand. This is OCD - it can slam us when we least expect it. I can go from feeling great to being down the hole really quick. Try your best to focus on your work. Expect the OCD and anxiety to be there for awhile. Remember that all feelings fade and how you feel now is not permanent. I’m pulling for you.
PeachyPopsiclePeachyPopsicle
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- 5y
@Wiseblood Thank you so much. I'll try to focus on work today and get through it. I think I'm feeling more depressed than anxious, but both are still bad. It just sucks because I feel like I need help and support right now, but I can't really do much at the moment.
kaliwallacekaliwallace
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- 5y
Just as wiseblood said, this is sometimes how things go. We can have a string of good days and suddenly be hit with a really tough one. It’s alright to allow yourself some slack. I guarantee you would be compassionate if a friend came to you with an issue, so why not show yourself that same compassion? Too often we forget this! Break your work into smaller pieces and do what you think you can realistically handle, and try to do something fun just for yourself today. When we feel bad the wait between appointments to talk about it can seem like an eternity, but you’ve gotten through worse things before and have been able to experience the good days that eventually come afterward. You got this!
PeachyPopsiclePeachyPopsicle
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- 5y
Thank you so much. I'll try to be compassionate with myself today, especially while I'm working. My job gives me way too much time to think, so it's been a struggle to do while dealing with my mental health. I'd also like to note that even though I'm scheduled to see my therapist, I haven't seen her since December due to a change in insurance. I've been waiting on an exception to be made, but I don't feel like I can keep waiting, I need the help even if it's expensive. I know this one specializes in OCD, which is why I haven't seen another one in person yet. I haven't started ERP yet either since that's what we were going to work on when my insurance changed. I'm guessing I really need that sort of therapy right now.
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