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I'm struggling with this as well. You're not alone ❤. I so badly don't want to be bisexual yet I feel like I'm just gonna find out anyway. I'll have these logical moments where I'm scared of having sex with women and don't want that and then other moments where it feels so real I'm fully convinced I'm bisexual. I don't want to believe the side that says I'm bisexual but it is so hard not too. The best thing you can do is not perform compulsions as hard as it is and try to seek treatment from an ocd specialist.
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Whatever happens, you'll survive.
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Anyone can publish any content they like online so just because there’s an article it doesn’t mean its facts. People nowadays claim men can get pregnant when we all know they can’t so...don’t worry basically. If I wanted to I could make an article about why social media is GOOD for you and people would have some confirmation bias towards that too if they wanted to. Your ocd is using an article you have read as confirmation bias as to why you should remain scared because it wants you to be scared. And it’s clearly working
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Sounds like time to stop researching
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Bruh I'm dealing with the same stuff. I feel like I'm bisexual all the time now. I don't want to be gay/bi but I feel like I have to. I have this constant urge to be bisexual and accept it, when I do accept it, it makes me anxious and tells me to not be bi. Like wtf do I do?? But like regardless I don't want to be gay or bi :(
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Wow same! That is literally what I struggle with all the time. This urge or whatever to just confess and be it but then after I confess it is like I don't feel bi it is a complete mindf**k!
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@Lina It is a mind fuckery. I hate it so much, right now my minds telling me to become heteroflexible so I can still like guys and like girls but at the same time it wants be to be straight. Like imagining stuff with guys feels comfy while with girls it's just a whole storm of panic :(. I don't want to like girls but then my minds like you're heteroflexible ugh
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Deciding that you’ll just be bisexual instead, is just a middle ground for your ocd. Your satisfying the need for an answer, so you’re just flying in the middle to give yourself some relief. It is just a mind F**k and nothing else. Your ocd likes to latch onto something... anything like a leech.
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I keep having this weird feeling none stop that it’s most likely not HOCD and most my feelings. Like I’ve suffered none stop distress and unwanted thoughts the past few days. But those thoughts after a bit just feel weird not the kind of discomfort but are just their and stale. When I look at a guy I don’t feel anything but my thoughts sometimes compliment his looks or personality which makes me doubt my sexuality. I’ve never felt this weirded out. Because I’ve always been straight and still believe I am but I’ve never even had an emotional connection to someone of the opposite gender in fact. My view of the female body has been ruined with none stop pornography addictions. I don’t believe I’m gay but I feel like it may just be denial instead of HOCD but all my symptoms are literally HOCD. I don’t hate the idea of gay people but I can’t imagine or see my heart going off to like someone of the same sex. I haven’t really had any meaningful real life friends besides online but that also ended a few months ago. My only friend ever online that was my friend for the longest of time was a queer but I never really cared about what he liked. Like yes at some point I did try to challenge him with his own feelings but that didn’t last long I just accepted what he liked and moved on. I’ve never even touched let alone held a long conversation with a female. I’ve always been timid and shy around them but I can just say that towards male as well. The gay feelings feel so real. The thoughts feel a bit natural to me but I don’t want this. But I hate how I can’t just move on and be myself and love women when those thoughts demand attention and an answer. It won’t quit it. If I try to do a compulsion it calms down but it quickly becomes a problem again. I’m lonely I don’t have any friends or past relationships I can even think of helping me with the emotions. I still believe I’m straight and I just can’t see myself with a guy. It just doesn’t feel right for me despite my lack of experiences. I just wanna go back to how I was happy and loving girls and not having to question if it was a real feeling or just my natural timid nature. Everytime I think these distressing thoughts I always just wanna sit down and close my eyes and sleep. Because that’s where I can have peace of self. It sucks but I’m so exhausted of having to deal with emotional distress and I can’t even focus on my job as much. I want to meet new people discover my love for women again but I’m scared in the process I may discover I may be gay. Because deep down I know I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself if my greatest fears where confirmed. My dream of always being a father with a loving women and kids would be torn away by something I never asked for. Yes I’m religious, yes I come from a place that homosexuals are usually seen in a bad light. I just hate feeling this emotion that I may not be what I thought and having my dreams torn apart maybe true. I’ve read MUTIPLE articles about HOCD and seen MUTIPLE videos. I’ve come to the realization that I most likely have it. But it’s still hard when the feelings of maybe being gay maybe true you know? I hope I get better I hope I don’t suffer. I just wanna be happy with myself and loving females and I don’t wanna hate myself for feeling an emotion that never occurred to me more then a few times.
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I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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