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- KatieKat
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Sounds like you had a lot on your plate - and still do! I always just remember to take care of myself physically as much as I can. Whenever I’m anxious, I usually can trace it to one of those above causes! ? You’re stronger than you think. You got this! ??
@KyNeum, that’s so much stress for anyone, let alone a child! I’m sorry you had to go through that!
@KatieKat I appreciate your kind words, thank you. It’s been rough for sure but I feel like it’s only made me stronger as a person too.
@katiekat, were you diagnosed with a biotoxin illness and SIBO? I noticed improvement with the low fodmap diet too but just couldn't stick with the elimination phase long enough.
My overall health directly correlates to my ocd and how bad it is at the moment. Mine flared up when I picked up a second job (a lot of life changes also). Now, it flares up when I eat poorly, don’t sleep well, don’t exercise or if I’m not taking care of myself physically!
I can relate a lot! It mainly started for me after an old friend framed me, my health fell apart, and I had to quit my job after I had just been promoted due to health reasons. I’ve recently been diagnosed with something called CIRS due to mold exposure. It can mess with so many things, and it can cause a lot of anxiety. I’m hoping this will all be behind us for good once we get to the root cause behind the inflammation and sickness.
Not to mention, my husband was in Iraq! That’s when harm OCD first appeared, totally out of the blue.
I've had stomach pain and cramps every morning for years. Eventually I had a CAT scan done which came back clear. I then was referred to a gastroenterologist who suspected IBS and wanted me to follow a low fodmap diet which is very strict and stressed me out more so I stopped. After starting my SSRI medication I haven't had the gut pain, so I believe there is truth in what they say about the brain gut connection.
Had pretty intense anxiety as a kid, especially separation anxiety after my parents got a divorce, after that I had general anxiety and panic attacks, I feel like my anxiety sort have morphed into OCD which really started taking affect around the time I was 12.
@bubrub, so interesting! There is absolutely a gut brain connection. I’ve been on the low fodmap diet, and it did help my stomach feel better, but it sounds like it’s the biotixin illness that’s really the main culprit now, though I could still have some SIBO going on.
I am confident that I developed OCD in response to a particular trauma I experienced as a 7-year-old kid and in response to my emotionally abusive relationship with my dad. I am also confident I have a strong genetic predisposition toward OCD. I have at least one cousin (on my dad’s side) who also has pure-O. My dad’s side in general tends to struggle with anxiety and depression.
My mum thinks it started to show signs after both my grandparents passed away when I was 10 and 11, I definitely remember some ritual behaviours I felt I have to do to protect my other loved ones. I’ve been told I have IBS, been hospitalised with gut problems before.
I have major issues with my gut and they get worse anytime I get extra anxious.
@bubrub, I was diagnosed with the biotoxin illness called CIRS, and it’s seemed like I’ve had SIBO along with it, though I should do the breathe test to be sure.
Hugs to all of you! The connection between the gut and the brain is clear. I bet most of you have been on a crapload of antibiotics like me, as well.
Definitely after a period of stress. I had a full-time job, graduate school, roommate troubles, and a new boyfriend, all at the same time. It kinda broke me-I started getting symptoms after 3 months of it
How has everyone else's OCD progressed throughout their lives? Has everyone else always had severe OCD or did you live regular lives beforehand and encounter one point where it went from 0 to 100. Where are you now in your OCD Journey? I'm very curious as to everyone else's stories and have left mine below if you’d like to read it. From what I can remember, I went relatively undisturbed by OCD the majority of my middle/late childhood, only having about 1-3 thoughts a year that weren't super bothersome but did create a level of distress uncomparable to regular intrusive thoughts. They were mainly about my health and about my parents safety & wellbeing. The earliest memory about my OCD that really stood out was back in 5th Grade, when I hit my head on a swing set and immediately began reciting every moment leading up to injury as well as every math equation I knew to make sure my memory was still intact. The greater part of my adolescence was essentially the same and resembled what I believed to be a normal life, just with a couple of OCD thoughts sprinkled throughout it. I was able to function pretty well albeit depressed and somewhat anxious. It wasn't until I was close to my highschool graduation that I experienced the worst panic attack(at the time) at the idea that I would hurt my parents. It was so distressing because the thought felt so loud that I believed it was genuine which only caused more distress. I was so scared that I would act on the thought that I discarded all of my sharp objects and locked myself in my room. That was my first ever severe reaction I experienced due to OCD and was back in May of this year. I actually learned what OCD was the same night and realized that many of my newly found fears including mold growing in my walls and my parents disliking me were also caused by the OCD. Unfortunately learning that it was probably OCD wasn't enough to quell my fear and I engaged in a bunch of compulsions in the months to come, worsening my OCD In the process. June was alright. July was worse(I only had like three topics for obsessions which sounds great now). Late July-Early August was my tipping point . Things went from worse to profoundly terrible in a short period. I found this app late August which was great because I had grown exhausted. September was pretty bad but not as bad as August. Now it's October and life is somewhat good now. I've become more knowledgeable of OCD (big thanks to this app and my therapist) but I'm very far from done. There's still this looming sense of anxiety that follows me everywhere. I have like 20 obsessions now, some being larger and scarier than others but those smaller ones are still apparent. But, the fear has decreased as well as the mental compulsions that came with it. My mind is quieter now. However the anxiety has stayed the same. My heart still drops whenever my worst obsession is triggered. Headaches, brain fog, sweating, rapid heart rate, sense of being paralyzed, racing mind are commonplace in my life but I've learned to sit with the physical discomfort (not that it makes it any less terrifying). Anyways, I'm here now which is cool. I’d like to listen to others' experiences to get a better understanding of OCD and maybe feel a bit less alone. feel free to ask any questions.
For those with contaminations OCD, I have two questions for you: 1) Did it start in childhood for you or after a specific event linked to contamination/based on science and extrapolating it? 2) Can you give me one example of a thought/worry? I'm just curious to see what other people experience
I had never really had OCD symptoms like this a few months ago. I had struggled a little bit with anxiety and had always had a fear of uncertainty but I’ve never felt a 24/7 pain anxiety, guilt and fear like this. I was pretty happy😭 Have others had this experience as well? Did it just show up randomly from one intrusive thought that you couldn’t brush off? Is it possible to get back to how you were before or will I have to “manage” for the rest of my life?
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