I always think that when I give someone something, like cash to a cashier, a card, something like that, that it has something bad on it. Like some secret I know about them, something where I talked or wrote something bad about the person I gave it to you, and they’ll be mad. It makes it very hard to send mail, or give anyone anything. I worry for hours they’ll see it and hate me.

Asking the person to check is reassurance seeking.

I have heard others with this exact same type of fear. You aren’t alone Cat!

It’s just so embarrassing. I KNOW it’s not true, but I can’t stop the feeling that it is. Then I ask the person to check because I can’t and of course there’s nothing there because there NEVER is, and I feel ashamed, or that they’ll think I’m crazy or be mad at me. I lose either way.

I don’t have this same exact obsession but I completely understand you!

I try too, but I think, what if this one time you’re wrong? I’ve literally never had it happen, but it COULD be this time is true, and you didn’t check. Now what? It’s just over and over until I’m sick to my stomach and have to ask for reassurance

@cjx, you’re right! Every time I’m wrong, I’m like duh, you’re always wrong. I need to listen to THAT voice more. @pineapple, agreed. I think, what if you’re wrong, what’s the worst that could happen? And would you ever really do that? Has your checking in the past ever proven the doubts correct) nope. It’s just that the relief is so awesome, it’s hard to not rely on it. I appreciate your thoughts! Haha, you know what I mean.

Ryan. Like I could say, Ryan, shut up. I’m not listening to you, you’re an ahole?

I know! And the people I often ask know about my ocd and love me, but I hate involving other people in my own issues, but it just gets so overwhelming.

I have this I totally get what you mean. It's hard but I try to be really mindful that it's thoughts and that's all it is but I really struggle with this too

I get you Cat! I think that every time with my other unreasonable demands for checking other crap I need to re-check. try breaking it down to basics that if you cannot recall doing anything your thinking of I.e writing something bad and that in the past whenever have you found that you have then the likelihood that you have this time is nil! It'll help you try to basically start ERP...as then the next time and the next time you'll be less likely to check but I get you its so hard to actually do

@Cat If that one time you did happen to be wrong (even though rationally you and I both know you’re not), it would definitely reinforce this obsession for you. But at the same time, if you are able to just do it and realize nothing bad happens when you do, this will help to reduce the anxiety related to this obsession until it doesn’t cause you very much distress anymore.

We should give "THAT voice" a name.. what do you all think?

A name I hate? I have one...

What is it ?