- Username
- Cat
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Asking the person to check is reassurance seeking.
I have heard others with this exact same type of fear. You aren’t alone Cat!
It’s just so embarrassing. I KNOW it’s not true, but I can’t stop the feeling that it is. Then I ask the person to check because I can’t and of course there’s nothing there because there NEVER is, and I feel ashamed, or that they’ll think I’m crazy or be mad at me. I lose either way.
I don’t have this same exact obsession but I completely understand you!
I try too, but I think, what if this one time you’re wrong? I’ve literally never had it happen, but it COULD be this time is true, and you didn’t check. Now what? It’s just over and over until I’m sick to my stomach and have to ask for reassurance
@cjx, you’re right! Every time I’m wrong, I’m like duh, you’re always wrong. I need to listen to THAT voice more. @pineapple, agreed. I think, what if you’re wrong, what’s the worst that could happen? And would you ever really do that? Has your checking in the past ever proven the doubts correct) nope. It’s just that the relief is so awesome, it’s hard to not rely on it. I appreciate your thoughts! Haha, you know what I mean.
Ryan. Like I could say, Ryan, shut up. I’m not listening to you, you’re an ahole?
I know! And the people I often ask know about my ocd and love me, but I hate involving other people in my own issues, but it just gets so overwhelming.
I have this I totally get what you mean. It's hard but I try to be really mindful that it's thoughts and that's all it is but I really struggle with this too
I get you Cat! I think that every time with my other unreasonable demands for checking other crap I need to re-check. try breaking it down to basics that if you cannot recall doing anything your thinking of I.e writing something bad and that in the past whenever have you found that you have then the likelihood that you have this time is nil! It'll help you try to basically start ERP...as then the next time and the next time you'll be less likely to check but I get you its so hard to actually do
@Cat If that one time you did happen to be wrong (even though rationally you and I both know you’re not), it would definitely reinforce this obsession for you. But at the same time, if you are able to just do it and realize nothing bad happens when you do, this will help to reduce the anxiety related to this obsession until it doesn’t cause you very much distress anymore.
We should give "THAT voice" a name.. what do you all think?
A name I hate? I have one...
What is it ?
Does anyone else have the compulsion to confess? Even if I haven’t actually done anything my OCD will give me reasons that whatever I’ve done has either hurt someone or will cause people to dislike me. Is that just me?
And I’m really really worried. As soon as he took it and he smiled at me even though I enjoyed it I was freaking out. Because what if it does work out but then he finds out about my mental illness and uses it against me? What if my pocd thoughts aren’t thoughts they are a reality and I find out I’m not attracted to him? What if we are doing great and we start to have sex but I can’t focus because of my pocd? A large part of me is hoping that he doesn’t call me and just tosses the paper away I feel like I made a mistake.
Anyone else get bad ocd after posting anything anywhere? It’s truly not because I care about what people think, it’s kind of more complicated. Like I think if I post it and feel a certain way while I post it or have certain thoughts, they are “stuck” inside the post and I’ll keep having them until I delete the post. If I give into this compulsion, I immediately feel better and like myself again. If not I’ll feel hot on my head, restless, have sweaty hands and feet, and feel nervous. I know this sounds very random and hard to believe. I think it is part of Pure O ocd, and a lot of my obsessions and compulsions are mental, and some are what I used to think of as “imaginary”, like visual things that are in my head. But also, when I resist doing this compulsion, things usually get better. It’s just harder to do on some days.
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