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Asking the person to check is reassurance seeking.
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I have heard others with this exact same type of fear. You aren’t alone Cat!
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It’s just so embarrassing. I KNOW it’s not true, but I can’t stop the feeling that it is. Then I ask the person to check because I can’t and of course there’s nothing there because there NEVER is, and I feel ashamed, or that they’ll think I’m crazy or be mad at me. I lose either way.
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I don’t have this same exact obsession but I completely understand you!
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I try too, but I think, what if this one time you’re wrong? I’ve literally never had it happen, but it COULD be this time is true, and you didn’t check. Now what? It’s just over and over until I’m sick to my stomach and have to ask for reassurance
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@cjx, you’re right! Every time I’m wrong, I’m like duh, you’re always wrong. I need to listen to THAT voice more. @pineapple, agreed. I think, what if you’re wrong, what’s the worst that could happen? And would you ever really do that? Has your checking in the past ever proven the doubts correct) nope. It’s just that the relief is so awesome, it’s hard to not rely on it. I appreciate your thoughts! Haha, you know what I mean.
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Ryan. Like I could say, Ryan, shut up. I’m not listening to you, you’re an ahole?
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I know! And the people I often ask know about my ocd and love me, but I hate involving other people in my own issues, but it just gets so overwhelming.
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I have this I totally get what you mean. It's hard but I try to be really mindful that it's thoughts and that's all it is but I really struggle with this too
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I get you Cat! I think that every time with my other unreasonable demands for checking other crap I need to re-check. try breaking it down to basics that if you cannot recall doing anything your thinking of I.e writing something bad and that in the past whenever have you found that you have then the likelihood that you have this time is nil! It'll help you try to basically start ERP...as then the next time and the next time you'll be less likely to check but I get you its so hard to actually do
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@Cat If that one time you did happen to be wrong (even though rationally you and I both know you’re not), it would definitely reinforce this obsession for you. But at the same time, if you are able to just do it and realize nothing bad happens when you do, this will help to reduce the anxiety related to this obsession until it doesn’t cause you very much distress anymore.
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We should give "THAT voice" a name.. what do you all think?
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A name I hate? I have one...
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What is it ?
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I’m so stressed, my mind is always telling me to recheck my messages that I sent because what if I said something racist, inappropriate or mean to the person I was messaging. Or what if I post something inappropriate or rude, the only way I can somewhat cope is by logging out of my socials every night. But even that is a long progress. Like I have to make sure to read every message I sent and that it’s safe for me to leave it for the night. And if it doesn’t feel right I have to log back in over and over until it looks and feels good to me. I’m so exhausted lol:,)
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I look back at various past events in my life where I said or did things that I feel really guilty, disgusted, and ashamed about. I replay them in my head for hours. I feel anxious about crossing paths with people that I've hurt or upset in the past or who perceive me badly, to the point that I will avoid going out in public as much as possible. I go out for work, errands, appointments, and occasionally to eat (even though those all give me a lot of anxiety), but I avoid community events where people might recognize me and I tend to isolate myself. The only people I see regularly are my boyfriend, my parents, and my coworkers. I live in a small community and I'm worried about people confronting me publicly and proving what a bad person I must be.
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I actually didn't realise this til now because I just assumed it was a coping mechanism from when I was really young. But when I tend to get stressed out or overwhelmed, I'll often start talking out loud to myself (which mostly means just whispering to myself because if i spoke really loudly, my mom would hear me lol). But nowadays with my fear of being surveilled, I keep having to catch myself because it's such a habit at this point for me to whisper out loud. Especially with me trying to reason through my false memories or really bad intrusive thoughts. Another compulsion. And then I keep thinking omg did I have my phone with me when I said that. Is anyone watching me rn? What if this person (that probably doesn't even exist) thinks my thoughts are true? What would everyone else think? And then I spiral afterwards. It sucks because I feel like I'm policing myself even when I know these are all just things I'm saying out loud and they don't mean anything— they're just thoughts after all. But I have this worry that if someone overheard me or all of this was suddenly revealed, that it might change how people see me or people might hate me or think i'm a bad person. And then I worry about me being worried about that because then I ask myself would a good person be worried about this? Anyways, another long post with me waffling and rambling. Thank you for taking the time to read this ❤️🩹
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