I'm so scared of my therapist reporting me for my real event :( wish me luck everyone

Yes it's a bad compulsion of mine. I have actually confessed in the past about this to my sister and mother, they said it was fine and to let it go. I did for a while, but I didn't tell them about the sleeping part and I feel like I should confess that but I dont want to. I brought it up recently with my mom that I feel guilty about some childhood sex acts and she was understanding and supportive, but I think I want to keep the details with a therapist even though my ocd tells me I have to tell everyone everything.

@worryqueen I agree with you , I am exactly the same. My OCD just finds more and more things to confess. I search the I internet everyday just to see if other people have done the same or if I'm a criminal. I'm trying to do it less and less and it is getting better but I just wish it would go away. I think telling your therapist is a great idea, and you have already done the brave part in telling you parents so your OCD will hate this.

@b2192 Yes I completely understand. Searching the internet just makes it so much worse since I can never find a clear answer. I hope my therapist will have as much understanding as this community does :)

When I was ten I played doctor with my younger sister, and also put her hand on my breast while she slept. I feel terrible about it :( idk what they're going to say

Wow, thank you. Hearing that helped a lot. I think I've just been reading into it too much, literally. I've looked up the mandatory reporting policies, and it says child abuse is one of them so I'm scared what i did counts as that. I'm glad you got help, and that your therapist was kind. I hope mine is the same :)

Yes, I agree. I have such black and white thinking, and whenever I make a mistake I feel like I'm on the "bad" side. It's just very hard living with the person I've done this to, I feel like I should confess but that would do more harm than good to her, so I've been told

I'm 18!

Yeah it's become a problem, I've been obsessing over it for a long time and I'm not sure it'll ever go away, but thank you :)

@worryqueen When is your therapy appointment? This will be more quickly treated if you are honest with your therapist. In the end, it will be up to you to take the leap of faith and share this torturous memory with your therapist. This is why therapists exist.

@Fear Strikes Out I'm supposed to schedule my appt on Monday, so I'll probably do it Thursday or Wednesday so school is out of the way. I plan to be honest, but I cant keep thinking on what the reaction will be, and if I'll get reported or not. It's making me even more anxious about getting help and I hate it.

@worryqueen I really don't want to provide reassurance but, in truth, if I thought there was even a small chance of the therapist reporting, I would advise against disclosing. This disclosure is needed for your treatment to succeed.

@Fear Strikes Out So you think the best thing to do is to not disclose this information? I feel like I'm stuck. Not sure what to do now.

@worryqueen No, I think you should disclose this memory to your therapist. That will result in a more effective treatment outcome for you.

@Fear Strikes Out But you said that if theres even a small chance I could get reported that I shouldn't? I'm confused

@worryqueen I made it more confusing by the way I expressed it. My bad... I was trying to say that if I thought there was any real chance of it being reported that I would say as much. Point being, I am very confident that it's not going to be reported.

@Fear Strikes Out Okay, thank you for clearing that up :) I probably wont tell my therapist the whole truth right away, but I will lead up to it. Just to test out the waters first.

@worryqueen Understood...

I feel you :( only difference is I've remember this for years, cant seem to blow it off my mine though. Something someone told me though is that instead of calling yourself a bad person, say your ocd thinks your a bad person, not that you actually are

@worryqueen Yes that’s true ?