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It was a real event, and you have OCD about it. The event happened, and you're experiencing OCD symptoms about it. Therefore, you have real event OCD. You could be literally Hitler and still have real event OCD and your real event OCD would be legitimately OCD. Even if you feel the guilt and rumination are appropriate to the mistake (which I'd argue is prob down to a lack of self compassion and black and white thinking), symptoms like not being able to stop, wanting to confess, the fact that it's only started bothering you now, it interfering with your ability to live your life, comparing your event to others' and seeking reassurance that it's not as bad as it feels, and any other behaviours you've noticed, are OCD symptoms.
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I think everyone with real event ocd thinks their real event is so much worse than everyone else’s. That’s a part of the ocd as well. It’s really sucky but you have to do erp with that thought as well until you habituate to the discomfort- for example “you’re maybe right ocd, maybe my real event was a lot worse than everyone else’s.” It’s so much easier said than done, but erp really helps! It doesn’t make it go away in my experience, but it helps lower the intensity.
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Thanks for the reply! Yeah, that makes sense. It’s something I’m going to have to face eventually.
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I have OCD about a real event as well and I am here for you! You are not alone! It’s possible your actions as well as my own make you an immoral person or maybe they don’t! We all must accept uncertainty and refocus. We are all in this together and we will get joy back in our lives!
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I hear you. For what it's worth, I've heard many, many people say the same thing. I don't know whether the guilt is reasonable or not-and confessing what you did won't change that. You say that you see behaviors that fit the OCD cycle. How willing are you to respond as if it's ocd, despite not being sure?
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Thanks for replying! I guess it’s just thought accepting that I did it and I really can’t wrap my head around why I did it. I know that it doesn’t align with my values now, but why did I do it then? Those are the types of questions that I ask myself. I just feel a lot of shame about it.
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@Rob12 Have you found satisfactory answers to the questions so far?
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@NOCD Advocate - Katie No, I’ve never been able to come up with a solid reason as to why I did it.
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@Rob12 So what's the likelihood continued searching will get you an answer, based on your previous experience? Is the potential benefit worth the current cost to your well-being and functioning?
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@NOCD Advocate - Katie No, I suppose not. That does sort of put it into perspective. Thanks for that :)
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@Rob12 Anything to help :)
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I’m glad you can relate, makes me feel less alone :)
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Getting eaten alive by thoughts right now, when I was a child me and other kids around my age would experiment and do things we shouldn’t have, I’m talking very young, like 3-5 as I got older I was for whatever reason always curious to a horrible extent and it lead me to do in appropriate things to kids around me, I was 7-8 at the time. I would say it happened 3 times in total in my childhood. And i eventually told my parents the last time it happened because even though I didn’t know it at the time. I had ocd. And I knew it was bad. That was when it all started. I feel absolutely disgusted with my 7 year old self and it comes up every once in a while especially when I hear anything about sexual abuse. I’m nearly 20 now and I enjoy my life for the most part and I’ve been down the ocd path before but I feel unforgivable. And I never want to tell anyone about it, but my ocd seems to want that. I have a beautiful girlfriend that had some traumatic things happen to her and I love her with my soul. I don’t ever want that to come up. Because that’s not who I am. When will I be able to forgive myself? If at all I hope I’m not alone.
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17f I have a lot of events, but my main and my worst one which is absolutely fucking diabolical was done when I was 14 and repeated when I was 16. Everytime I post something about real event ocd here people are like you are probably didn't do anything that bad, and when they hear what I did they are like yeah that's bad. Someone even asked me if I'm autistic cause "it's crazy how you didn't realize that the thing ypu were doing was wrong at this age." And I kinda agree, like it's fucked up It's just that my event is bad. Doesn't mean I don't have real event ocd. You can have a reocd over the event that was bad, it doesn't mean the event wasn't that bad or you don't have recod. It's just people always expect it to be something innocent and it's not Even a healthy person would feel guilty over it, it's just that I had ocd my whole life and it's making the guilt absolutely destructive, like to the point when I sometimes have a hard time breathing when I think about it, I lost more than a year of life to it, almost checked myself out couple of times if I wasn't so scared of pain/failure, the event haunts me in my dreams, it's in my head 24/7 and I will never able to forgive myself. That ocd. But the event itself was bad. So maybe i deserve it.
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Real event, legal ocd, and false memory ocd around events that happened years ago but never bothered me till a month ago and now my life is being destroyed because I feel sooooooooooo guilty
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