MY OCD STORY I’d like to tell you guys my ocd story because why it happened is still a mystery to me. I have never dealt with ocd for my life. I only dealt with some thoughts recently that I would worry about and obsess about but...most of my ocd thoughts would be something that my ex boyfriend would say. For example. My ex boyfriend would say things like, “I’d fuck her” about a random girl. Now I get those thoughts and deal with sexual ocd trying to repress those thoughts. Another thing is my ex used to say weird things about girls younger than him. Way younger, and talk about their body and how they’ve changed so much since the last time they’ve he’s seen them. This caused me to struggle with pocd. Anybody have any thoughts about this? I am not trying to blame him but just wonder if someone else had this experience or can explain what more this experience means for me. My therapist calls these traumatic memories, which I then obsess about.

I’m sorry about your boyfriend. That sounds awful

Part of my ROCD beginnings was because I internalized different values from my own, and thus started judging myself as flirty or such because other people wouldn't behave like I do unless they were indeed flirting. I took other people's words too easily into my brain and didn't filter them out, then I started judging myself. I actually feel that pull right now as well, to blame myself, but whatever.

It's a sticky thought probably caused by misfiring somewhere in the brain. Maybe the amygdala is sending false signals to other parts of the brain. But, trying to understand the underlying reasons is a compulsion itself. I would encourage you to after acknowledging the presence of the thought to then immediately go back to whatever it was you were doing and learn to accept the uncertainty about these thoughts. Accepting uncertainty means not knowing what, if anything, these thoughts mean about you. In all likelihood, it's just absurd noise in your head. If you were a pedophile, then you would not be upset with these kinds of thoughts, much less spending time obsessing about them.