- Username
- nicky310
- Date posted
- 6y ago
OCD likes to exhaust us, make us feel defeated. Don’t give up. I’m in the same boat where all my joy feels like it’s gone, but you’ll find it again. This right now is temporary. The cycle of ocd sucks, it’s full of highs and lows. You can do this. I have had ocd for almost 10 years now, and I know and believe in you that this will pass and you can get through it. It’s hard but reach out and continue to talk yourself through it. You’re not alone
Coop, that was so nice to read! Turns out I needed to read that too.
And Nicky, you are actually so strong (contrary to what OCD wants you to believe) so let's not let OCD win. OCD has already taken so much from us, let's not let it take away the beautiful, rare, privilege of getting to live life. You are so loved beyond measure & you deserve to see yourself recover. Recovery is long and difficult but once you get to the other side, it's so beautiful. And the journey can be beautiful too ?
I feel the same way. I thought I was alone
you deserve to see yourself recover. Recovery is long and difficult but once you get to the other side, it's so beautiful. And the journey can be beautiful too ?
You're never alone ?
Currently crying right now after my shift at work. OCD is transitioning myself into someone I don’t want to be, yet I’m afraid to not have it in my life because when things are feeling okay, it doesn’t feel right, even when I should crave it more than anything. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel life won’t go my way or I don’t see myself being in a good place. I just see myself losing everything I love and care about because either ocd has caused me to distance myself from those things or others just decide to separate themselves from me. At the end of the day, I’m going to end up alone and miserable, and I don’t know why I’m okay with that, but I am. I’m so frustrated with myself and conflicted. Fuck this. I have so much more life ahead of me and I fucken feel stuck and crippled bc of ocd. A 21 year old shouldn’t have to go through this. NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO GO THROUGH ANYTHING NEGATIVE OR HARMFUL. I’m tired of all the bad. I want more good… I want to be better… I want to be me again. I want to love life, others and myself again.
I just don’t know how much more of this I can take. I’m so fed up of the way my OCD makes me feel, plagued with thoughts that I hate my son, I don’t love my partner, I want to die, my life is pointless. I’m trying so hard, I’m doin ERP, I’m trying to carry on my life as normal but I just feel SO depressed. I am convinced that I am stuck like this forever now, clearly nothing is working and I’m just ready to give up 😢
I felt like I was doing ok (not great) in my OCD recovery, putting in the work and noticing some progress. But after this most recent set back I just feel so beat down and honestly feels so hard to keep doing recovery work. I honestly don’t know what to do anymore, I hate this, I hate mental health, I just want to be and feel normal. This past year that should be the best times of my life has been literally the absolute worst with no end in sight. I don’t understand how OCD has taken over my brain, not only in thoughts but heavy on the emotions/feelings side which is the worst.
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