Brian :)
- Date posted
- 26w
:(
My mental health is declining due to ocd. It’s like a huge mix between ocd episode and depression wave. I feel weak and hopeless. I wanna cry. I’m exhausted . I feel like I’ve lost myself again.
ElevenBElevenB
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 26w
Good morning. Yeah OCD and depression go hand in hand. It's common to have setbacks. And it can make us feel so depressed when we do. We have to keep doing the work. You found yourself before and you can do it again. OCD healing is a journey. You're not lost but maybe you just got off the main road for a bit, but you can find your way back. Don't quit, don't give in to OCD. It's so hard I know with everything you are feeling right now. But you are not alone, and we are all wishing you nothing but the best.
Brian :)Brian :)
- Date posted
- 26w
@ElevenB Thank you
ElevenBElevenB
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 26w
@Brian :) You are welcome. And I don't take it lightly how you are feeling. I have been there. But you can do this.
YesYOUcan YesYOUcan
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 26w
Couple things. OCD is an issue of rigid thinking patterns. Depression can seep in where hopelessness exists. But. Thankfully. Ocd can be significantly improved with noninvasive therapies so long as you’re willing to do the work. I was in a really bad place at one point. But thankfully I was able to pull myself out of it with the help of others. You must break the thought cycles. Not in a foreceful way but in a passive way. We cannot continually carry a weight. We must add a small amount of weight daily until the body does not recognize nor care about the burden it sometimes bears.
hereintheUKhereintheUK
- Date posted
- 26w
I’m in the worst place I’ve ever been with mine right now 😢
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