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- 23d ago
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My mental health is declining due to ocd. It’s like a huge mix between ocd episode and depression wave. I feel weak and hopeless. I wanna cry. I’m exhausted . I feel like I’ve lost myself again.
My mental health is declining due to ocd. It’s like a huge mix between ocd episode and depression wave. I feel weak and hopeless. I wanna cry. I’m exhausted . I feel like I’ve lost myself again.
Good morning. Yeah OCD and depression go hand in hand. It's common to have setbacks. And it can make us feel so depressed when we do. We have to keep doing the work. You found yourself before and you can do it again. OCD healing is a journey. You're not lost but maybe you just got off the main road for a bit, but you can find your way back. Don't quit, don't give in to OCD. It's so hard I know with everything you are feeling right now. But you are not alone, and we are all wishing you nothing but the best.
@ElevenB Thank you
@Brian :) You are welcome. And I don't take it lightly how you are feeling. I have been there. But you can do this.
Couple things. OCD is an issue of rigid thinking patterns. Depression can seep in where hopelessness exists. But. Thankfully. Ocd can be significantly improved with noninvasive therapies so long as you’re willing to do the work. I was in a really bad place at one point. But thankfully I was able to pull myself out of it with the help of others. You must break the thought cycles. Not in a foreceful way but in a passive way. We cannot continually carry a weight. We must add a small amount of weight daily until the body does not recognize nor care about the burden it sometimes bears.
I’m in the worst place I’ve ever been with mine right now 😢
I feel like im loosing my mind. I feel like i experience derealization or what. I feel confused like very very confused. I cant even think normally. Im just tired. I feel like im loosing myself. Im scared that everyone tells me that i have OCD, but what if this is all true? I dont think and im scared that other so-ocd sufferers dont feel this way as i do. I feel literally, LITERALLY so convinced that this must be true. It feels like i already accepted that this is true. Im done. My brain is broken. I even started to have thoughts like what if i have schizophrenia or dissociative identity disorder. Help me please. Do i have psychosis or what?
Why everything I was once is gone? I had goals, I always been such an empathic and good person, I had so many plans in life and since ocd came to my life everything is gone, ocd has ruined everything in my life, I can’t see to find myself anymore. I hate my brain for making me think that I’m a bad person when I know I’m not. OCD really took everything away from me. I already have a lot in my plate for me to be dealing with this, it’s so unfair. I have never had it easy and now when my life was starting to get better I get OCD:(
I have no idea who I am anymore. I have completely lost my self. And idk what to do. Idk where my caring, and loving, chirst like side went. I have lost touch with who I am and everything I once new. I've had ocd for so long that I think it just became me. Or I'm dealing with cognitive Dissonance, which I feel like it probably true. Tbh. But anyways I feel like I'm genuinely gone crazy towards god and idk what to do. I wish I could just go back to myself, and I'm just not sure what to do. I think I turned away from God the only thing that once brought me joy. Just seems so dry now, like I'm empty or whatever. I personally don't think I'll ever be ok again.
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