So I haven’t been 100% diagnosed with OCD. I’ve had weird thoughts my entire life I just always thought everyone had these thoughts and that they where normal. Until recently they have been horrible so I went to the doctor and she prescribed some anxiety medication by it hasn’t been helping. So I started googling the weird thoughts and my symptoms and came across ocd and I always thought ocd was being really neat and tidy I didnt know it had these horrible thoughts and compulsions but the thing for me is I don’t have any compulsions besides touching the zipper on my pillow(it weird I know)I know this isn’t a diagnosis but I’ve taken a bunch of the ocd test on the internet and they all say I have it. So I am kinda lost here

Username: likzsulikzsu

Date posted: 6y ago

As someone who lived with OCD for 9 years before getting a diagnosis, I understand how you feel. This is just what I did, but what you can do is talk to your doctor once again and explain what’s been happening, and if you have access to one, I recommend trying to find a psychologist or a psychiatrist. For me, I see my doctor who prescribes my anti-anxiety medications, and then I see my psychologist for cognitive behavioral therapy. As for the medication you’re currently on, if you haven’t been on it for that long you most likely won’t feel the full effects for a little while, or you may just need a different dosage or a different medication altogether. Just know that even though you feel lost, there are plenty of us with OCD who understand what you’re feeling. This was a very long message, but I hope that you have a nice day!

Username: amazinggirlamazinggirl

Date posted: 6y ago

Same here, I had weird thoughts as a kid but as I got older they caused so much distress to the point where i really believed my only hope was to turn myself into the authorities. My relief came when i realized millions suffer from ocd.My best advice is to see an ocd therapist

Username: MahxMahx

Date posted: 6y ago

yeah go see a professional, i thought ocd was just being neat as well! remember googling my symptoms and i did not want ocd at all so i just ignored it and didn’t accept it. dumb move which probably made my ocd worse because it was never treated until now.

Username: AvocadoAvocado

Date posted: 6y ago

Yeah I’m the same I’ve not been to a doctors as I’ve always been scared (I’m not sure if I’m scared of being on meds or actually being told I have it by a doctor idk)! Every test I do says I should go to a doctor and I have spoken to a mental health first aid trainer and she thinks I should go too! Kind of realising I had ocd made me feel a bit better I would get these compulsive urges and strange thoughts and ocd gave me an explanation!! I currently live abroad so when I’m home I’m actually going to go to a doctor!

Username: Pink DinosaurPink Dinosaur

Date posted: 6y ago

I understand the frustration. I was 12 when I was diagnosed. Before that I felt so confused as to why I was feeling the way I was. All of my fears were so obscure and irrational. I never had the privilege to say that I was stressed because of school and mean it. Go see a psychiatrist! Preferably see someone who specialises in CBT or OCD! A diagnosis brings so much relief!

Username: Naeun

Date posted: 6y ago

Hey guys so my psychiatrist basically said I suffer from moderate OCD and prescribed me Sertraline(Zoloft) but I needed up canceling my Medicine and my whole entire visit there because none of the therapist does ERP so I decided to try a place the specialize in OCD. I wanna stay far way from meds. I suffer from OCD killer thoughts but is this considered OCD when you think you have a mental illness where gonna go all crazy and start being violent? Like at times I’m scared I’m bipolar, or schizophrenic. Before I would be worried and anxiety would rise when I thought of hurting other people, but now sometimes my urges feel so real I think about hurting someone and I feel like I enjoy it and I don’t feel the guilt. And sometimes I feel intense guilt for my parents thinking wow I feel so bad for their daughter cause she’s gonna be a murderer. Like sometimes I feel like I could do things I was once scared of. Like for instance, today there was this dude staring at me and I straight forward told him with an attitude “ what are you staring at” And sometimes all my other old intrusive thoughts come back ( aka being bisexual, committing suicide, thinking about self harm) what do I do... I feel like a mess. And I constantly search up all the other mental disorders that Amanda Bynes has and lady Gaga. I’m so confused I’m a mess. I feel anxiety but then my minds tells me I love murder, jail and violence. Sorry this is so long I’m so lost I wanna be normal again.

Username: hihey

Date posted: 4y ago

I’m new to this app and just wanted to share my story. As a young girl I definitely had compulsions. My mom always told me she would take me to a psychiatrist (I would cry when people sat on my bed). Anyways, as I got older I definitely grew out of a lot of things. I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD but I have GAD. I know I definitely have OCD because I have done a lot of research. Recently I have really, really been struggling with HOCD. I’ve never experienced this before, and that’s why it’s making it more scary. I’m a young adult woman and have been in a very serious relationship with a male for many years. I love him so much. I am also very athletic and not very girly. I always loved the fact that I was a guys gal, but lately it has made me super insecure. A lot of people at school assume I’m bisexual because I’m super pro LGBTQ rights and idk? Idk why I give off that “vibe”. It never bothered me, I always thought it was funny, and I have no issue with being gay, but I’m definitely not?! During this quarantine my guy friends have said I have way way more guy friends than girl friends, someone asked my teammate if I was bisexual, and I have never had an orgasm from my boyfriend. It started really getting in my head and I keep being like “am I gay and that’s why I don’t orgasm”. This seems so pathetic and writing this actually helps and makes me realize there is no way I like women. But anyways THE THOUGHTS DO NOT STOP. I keep worrying that I do not know myself, and maybe I don’t love my bf, and maybe other people see something I don’t. Anyways, how can I help myself? I am noticing I’m reassuring and checking and starting compulsions

Username: EFF_OCD

Date posted: 2y ago

Honestly I’m just confused af

So I have intrusive thoughts that drive me nuts. BUT. I don’t know if I have compulsions! I don’t have to touch things a certain amount of times. I don’t do a ritual really. I just inside my head freak out. Is this OCD? I read about OCD, and it’s all about doing repetitive things but all of mine is inside my head. It’s making me believe I have something else wrong with me and it’s scary as hell! It’s convincing me I am a narcissist or sociopath but what’s weird is I deeply care about people in real life and I’m actually a people pleaser? I really just have a hard time understanding why I have dark intrusive thoughts based on my personality and how I interact with others. It feels like hell and since I’m not doing rituals or visible compulsions, my OCD (if I have it) is now convincing me “what if” I don’t have OCD. I do ruminate and I’m obsess over the thoughts and want to know “why”. Is that in itself a compulsion? The actual rumination? I guess this type of OCD is never talked about in movies/books so it makes me feel ALL ALONE.

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