im so desensitized that i'm doubting this ocd

Trigger warining: Something that has helped in my journey to recovery is sarcastically agreeing with the thought. Saying “Oh yeah, I’m definitely a pedophile” or “Oh yeah, I’m definitely a murderer” and then moving on with my day. It gives the thought less power because you are showing it that it does not matter. Thinking something does not make it true. Neither does saying something or writing it down. A good example is to tell yourself “YES, I will suddenly have an extra $1000 in my bank account today”. My guess is that no matter how much you tell yourself this, and repeat it 500 times, it will not be true. So why is it any different if you tell yourself “I am a pedophile.” Or “I am a murderer.”? The ONLY difference is that OCD is telling us to be afraid to say those things or think those things because that would make it true, and those of us that suffer with OCD have agreed with this faulty logic. We need to train our brain to show it that these thoughts are just thoughts, and say nothing about who we are! Speak to your therapist if you can! You can work through this!

Keep pushing through and showing your brain that these thoughts have no real value and say nothing about you. They are just thoughts! OCD will make you doubt it is OCD, that’s part of the mechanism. Acknowledge the thought, accept it for being there, and allow it to come and go as it pleases. Work parallel to the thought. It sounds like you are not giving into it, and not ruminating which is great! Practice self compassion and mindfulness. You can work through this!

IM THE EXACT SAME

me too im like so used to it now