- Username
- holley
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Nah. I've had oodles of trauma too, I have to work extremely hard to be in a good place. But I also have hope that I'll be happy in the future, and I take what I can get in the meantime. OCD is a real bitch the way it always tells you the future is full of risk and danger. But if the past feels like a threat and the future feels like a threat, I guess it can't hurt to try to let go and have a good day today, even if it's the only one you'll ever get.
I like your optimism. It sounds like you’ve got a good head on your shoulders
@wellwellwell Somehow, having experienced rock bottom in the past has made it a lot easier to be optimistic. I'm trying to work out my finding-the-good-and-opportunities-in-shitty-situations muscle as much as possible, because I figure in the absence of being able to reliably control what happens, being more resilient is the best way to ensure that life feels worth living when things go wrong. Plus it makes courage easier if you reckon you can deal with bad outcomes.
love the optimism!!
If you look at my bio I am very similar to you in both age and ocd subtype. If you ever want to chat let me know!
@Anxiousgirl i would love to!! would you like my snap or email or something?
@Anxiousgirl Ooh yeah we are similar! I don't have social media tho and so far I've sucked at emailing consistently :'(
I know i should but honestly no. Not yet. I still have to work on this ? . Because of the ocd thoughts or because i worry so much about the future i feel like my life passes by. They say you cant solve a problem with the same mind that you created it so i guess i have to change my way of thinking or to shut it down actually.
Honestly no. I never have peace of mind and feel hopeless. Trauma that I’ve experienced in life makes my OCD worse.
me too. i’m right there with you.
sometimes.
To be completely honest no I'm not.
same.
I experience moments of happiness. I'm generally joyful these days. Plenty of moments of melancholy though.
absolutely ben. i’m not happy with myself, but my boyfriend doesn’t seem to understand that it’s not him thats not making me happy, it’s me not being happy .
Am I truly happy with everything in my life? Of course not. With myself? Again, no. But am I generally happy and trying to enjoy the life I have and keep bettering it? Oh yeah! And the puppy on my lap right now is so helpful towards my happiness. It’s hard to be sad when ya play your ukulele. And it’s super comforting to snuggle a sweet, good boi.
awwwe . that is very sweet. i’m glad you’re keeping up the positive attitude!!
I would say yes because in the end I lack nothing to not be happy and I would not want to complain because there is even worse. But I could be even happier if I did not have OCD and my irritating thoughts, be with confidants with myself and enjoy life. Sometimes it seems silly to me but I really do not know how to answer this question?. But I love what I have because never everything that is perfect and good is together?.So let love what we are and have and fight hard for what we want that makes us happy!❤
I’m happy when I’m not freaking out, which is more often now than it was in the past. I don’t really think there is such thing as “truly happy” because even if I feel truly happy it never lasts forever. Feelings are like sound waves
Sorry to ask this now, but maybe it will trigger some happiness? Is your name based off of a song title? I heard a song with that title the other day and thought of you.
@ARTnotOCD Shpongle is one of my favorite musical artists ? I appreciate you asking, I’ve also enjoyed your name ARTnotOCD
@ARTnotOCD If you enjoyed that song maybe you would enjoy one of my songs, that I made as art to take a step away from OCD. It even features a local ocd therapist from my area in the beginning. https://youtu.be/o506DBf71Lc it’s also on all streaming platforms if you prefer listening somewhere other than YouTube ? what type of arts are your favorite to indulge in?
@ShpongleSpores Awesome! I am mainly a sculptor and a drawer. I work a lot with needle craft lately. I absolutely love working in metals, but I don’t have much of a home studio for them and group studios have been closed because of Covid. While it’s not the most artistic way to sew, I’ve been busy making masks for friends, family, and those in need. I also absolutely love music. And while I am far from the worst oboist out there, my partner is far more committed to musical arts than myself. Luckily, I’ve been able to play with him a lot more while he sadly can’t play with his band mates so easily.
@ShpongleSpores That song was great! Would you mind if I share it with my partner or with the person who introduced me to Shpongle?
@ARTnotOCD Sculpting and drawing always amazes me! I’m incredibly bad at it hahaha I find it very impressive. Feel free to share your works with me! I may even hire you for a single or album cover if you’d be interested. Covid has definitely affected a lot so much, it’s nice that you actively work to help others and it feels nice to have a custom mask as well. Music is my muse(hence the name music lol) I can’t imagine life without it, oddly enough the first 12 years of my life I thought I didn’t care for it, but now looking back I know I was always jamming out in my head to anything that came on. Also playing music with a partner is such a bonding experience and feels wonderful so I’m glad you’ve been able to. It is my bedtime now, have a wonderful night or whatever time zone you live in :)
Oh man, I did a double take on shpongle too... Not to mention spores. For me, microdosing temp cured my OCD, for a period of a few months.
I should be. Maybe if I let myself enjoy things
same. i’m not happy with myself but i know i will be in the future.
Nope ! ♥️
Does anyone feel like they don’t know what they want anymore? Like I just don’t know anymore at this point. If someone asked me if I was straight, my head would go straight to “i don’t even know anymore tbh.”
questions for everyone ?: how would you rate your self-esteem? we’re you ever bullied in school? do you consider yourself open-minded? do you feel the emotions of others? would you consider your moral standards to be high? just curious some things. sending my good energy to everyone ?
Someone please give an honest reason to actually think life is somewhat worth it.
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