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God I’m so sorry to hear that :( listen, even if your sister is tired she has no right to say that to you. are you currently in any sort of therapy?
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oh hi to u again!! still dealing with the current thought about my boyfriend ): and i guess she does it’s been 3 months of her hearing me like this over constant thoughts ): and sadly i can’t do therapy right now. don’t have the money for it on my own or anything and my parents don’t believe in mental health
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@getwellsoon hello!! :D nice to see you again, I’m sorry to hear you’re still dealing with the thought but again remember that if it’s causing you this much guilt it’s most likely not true. ☺️ But oh no D: I’m sorry that sucks
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@getwellsoon there’s some good ocd videos on YouTube if you want to check them out, one of my faves is Ocd illustrated atm
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@saltedcrabs it’s just if i lose him because of this i will never forgive myself and my family makes me feel worse because when i get like this they try to shove religion down my throat. i can’t even tell them about my boyfriend because they would be against him ): it breaks my heart i never want to become like them ever
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Hey.. i know it can be really hard going through a bad time with ocd.. can you try actually answering questions and try to find the roots? Try to face your fears more.. like if you are scared of losing someone that u love try answering thr thought like: Yeahhh i will kill em all.. it may look fake but its better than reacting with fear... And things will get better for you... Just dont stop trying even if u feel u are stuck in it forever... Keep pushing and reach the goal... If you want any help or have any questions i am more than happy to help you if im able too ;D stay strong ocd warrior
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is reacting that way what helps you? cause that just sounds more scary to me
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@getwellsoon honestly I think it’ll be good erp, it is scary at first but the more you say things like that the easier it gets
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@saltedcrabs TW for this just in case but I struggle with pocd and pure ocd, and because of that I mentally wished to both be a bad person and a pedophile for erp and I did feel a bit scared at first but eventually forgot all about it. Remember that thoughts are just thoughts no matter how scary they are :-)
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@saltedcrabs ngl just reading this still gives me anxiety lol but it’ll soon pass
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@saltedcrabs that was my first serious theme ): it’s what caused all this. basically the starting thought. don’t know if i’m brave enough to do that ): it feels like my thoughts jump into more and more thoughts. they aren’t as intense now but they still pop up but the point is that sounds intense. you’re so strong
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@getwellsoon man that’s horrible :( ocd is the worse, honestly I don’t think anyone’s ready to do erp but that’s exactly why you should do it. You don’t have to say something as intense as me this early on but just wishing for something bad in general could be a good exposure n then you can work your way up from what gives you the least anxiety to the most. That’s an exposure my therapist taught me :-) also tysm!! you are too don’t give up
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@saltedcrabs also I’m sorry if I stop responding in about to head to bed in a second
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@saltedcrabs i just want to get through this one ): i’ve been trying to not worry about it as much ): i don’t know if that’s making it worse or what ):
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@saltedcrabs and it’s okay i completely understand
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@getwellsoon Im sry if it looks scary but it truly do help... U need alot of courage to start it but its going to help for sure;
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You claim your sister is the only person you can talk to freely, but it doesn’t sound like your sister wants to have that role. While she may not be going about things the right way, it sounds like she’s trying to set a boundary with you and I think it’s important to listen. She feels overwhelmed and unable to help. And that’s fair. She’s not a professional mental health care worker, and a professional is the more appropriate person for you to unload freely on. It can be quite scary, frustrating, and depressing for our support systems when we try to lean on them for things they simply aren’t capable of providing us. I’m not saying you can’t still talk with and have a close relationship with her. But it sounds like the relationship may be veering into codependency and that you’d both benefit from you adding a professional into your life who can listen to you and offer qualified advice on a regular basis. If you can’t afford to see an OCD specialist (id highly recommend at least calling a few to see if they offer a sliding scale fee option), a low cost support group would also be a better outlet. That way you’re talking to people who are also seeking treatment and you’re having those group discussions being facilitated by a professional still.
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I have hold back my tears . I’m trying so hard to play it off. I can’t think about it anything without on the verge of falling apart . I have no self control over my mind . I’m scared. Is this a psychosis . I have barely eaten in days . My stomach is growling but I have no appetite. Idk what’s going on . Normally if I have a rough week I can fight it but I can’t fight it this time. My biggest fear is loosing my bf. I’m spending the day with him and all I can do it think about what’s gonna happen when I leave .
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So my ocd has been doing better, in the sense that I am able to resist compulsions, but the thoughts are still there. And I get so upset because some days I’m just constantly stuck in my own head. Like I went out to today with my mom, and for a solid hour I was spiraling. And my OCD has been trying to make it seem like this flare up is different, and that because things aren’t working out the way I want them to be regarding my recovery, that it’s not OCD and I’m just a crazy person. It causes me to just shut down and want to just go home. I get so upset that I want to cry. I get intrusive thoughts that something bad is gonna happen, or that something doesn’t feel right, and so it feels like I do something, anything, to make me feel better about it. I also can’t sleep in my own bed. I’m so afraid that I won’t fall asleep in it, and if I don’t sleep, I will go crazy. My thoughts are just so scary rn, I don’t know what to do. I don’t want anything bad to happen to me :(
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