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- tonytiger82
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- 4y ago
This could be a great exposure for ERP for you! Find the article with that stat and bookmark it. Once a day, read it. As you do: do nothing to neutralize, change, cancel out, or get rid of any intrusive thoughts and anxieties that pop up. With each new thought, just allow it to be there. Accept that it’s happening, ie “I’m having doubts about whether I’ll act out my fears,” and then just sit with it. Hold that and feel it without doing anything to make yourself feel better or distracted or safer. Just sit. And let it dissipate and leave on its own. We often try so hard to run from doubt and fear. But if we just take the time to feel it, it often leaves on its own.
I saw that one a while back 😂 it was indeed terrifying. But once I accepted that thought, that fact as maybe applying to me, maybe not, accepting the uncertainty that I may or may not do it, then my anxiety eventually fell away. Feel that panic and wait for it to pass and resist compulsions. And when it comes back it will be less and less!
Thank all of you!! After reading so many great things on that particular article, it (ironically) ended with a very scary stat, I've never really felt much depression (as far as I know) but have dealt with numerous types of anxiety my whole life, the whole harm ocd occurred after listening to some music by Kurt Cobain and watching some horrible 9/11 videos on youtube a few years ago, the suicidal/harm OCD went away on its own for a couple of years but I suddenly started having the thoughts again long hours at a job while drunking caffeine energy drinks everyday to stay alert at work.
Bruh that's my theme too! It sucks :) but what ur doing (ive never really been depressed) etc that is trying to disprove ur ocd and ruminating in the likelihood of it. You may be depressed. You may not. Accept you may be suicidal, accepf the anxiety that will come with it!
Thank you so much!!
TW rant: suicidal OCD So this has been my major theme for the past year since my onset started. For clarification: I just have suicidal OCD, I’m not actually suicidal Incase there’s confusion about that. Anyways, I am so SICK of hearing about the topic of suicide which seems to be everywhere. You hear a story on the news that some celebrity did it, or other stories that people they knew did it or they themselves attempted it. You hear that people with mental illnesses or those who went through trauma or just being a middle aged white man have higher risks of suicide. On my explore page on Instagram, thanks to the OCD support pages I follow, I get suggested posts about other mental health related things and there’s usually posts about “signs of suicidal people” or whatnot. I’m soooo sick of it. Having suicidal OCD has been extremely hard and scary to have. It seems like anything is a trigger and the unwanted thoughts of it keep popping up (as OCD normally does). A lot of the time it’s aimed toward myself, but a big chunk of it is aimed toward my loved ones, like what if they decided to commit suicide? If I haven’t seen a family member in a little while (they’re chilling in their room or whatever) I get scared they might have killed themselves so I feel the compulsion to check on them, ask if they’re okay and happy etc. But it’s mostly at myself and I hate it so much. I think overall, whether this attack is aimed toward myself or others, it just absolutely terrifies me that anyone could just decided to do it and then just do it? It’s not like fearing a murderer coming to your house or an outside threat, but you’re the threat! And you can’t seem to protect your loved ones from it! I get these fears that I’ll become depressed (I’m not depressed) and eventually desire it or that I’ll spiral from fear and pain and eventually desire it, or that it’ll be like the movie Bird Box where the people in it (after seeing the monster) seemed to go on autopilot and killed themselves. I can’t even see words like “committed” or “attempted” without having my stomach jump. I struggle to get things out of my closet since having an open closet is even a trigger for fear. I just wish suicide never existed, I wish it wasn’t a thing, I wish I’d never think about it, I wish i could move on from this intense fear. (Disclaimer: I’m doing ERP for this and compared to before have been progress, but on my spike days it’s just so frustrating) Thanks for listening 😩
Hi guys. So idk who all has read about the Lindsay Clancy case, but ever since it’s been brought out, my harm ocd has sky rocketed. With thoughts towards my fiancé and even my dog 😞 I don’t have any kids, but the idea of losing control one day and acting on these thoughts is really getting to me. My biggest theme for years was harm, then went to suicidal for 2 years, and now I’m right back to harm and it’s freaking me out 😞
Hello all, does anyone else understand this. I can be reading something on social media or news source and hear about a woman who killed herself and it becomes a huge trigger for me. I get so upset I try to know more info about the how and why of the story thinking omg what if I did that or became like that person. It gets my mind going whenever I come across these articles and I have to convince myself I’m ok and this isn’t my life but I get so upset and sends me spiraling.. Can anyone relate to this? How do you cope with it? I know I’m okay and wouldn’t do that but the what if aspect scares me 😢
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