I am new to this app so I really appreciate any feedback on this post! I suffer from what started as intrusive thoughts which has now escalated immensely over the last few years. I feel like I am not in control of myself, when it comes to being around my pet, other humans and worry about several things and more. Another one is a worry that I will betray my boyfriend who I love. Sometimes I have intrusive thoughts so strong that it almost becomes like a ‘feeling’. And I know I love my boyfriend but it’s almost like I’m so focused all the time that I feel exhausted, so sometimes I’ll get let the thoughts in about my boyfriend and being with him, and then it comes so strong that I almost believe the intrusive thoughts about him. When I’m out of this state of mind - I then feel extreme guilt and worry that I’ve done something to betray him like cheating. I’m so confused by this and so distressed. What I’ve wrote probably doesn’t even make sense, but if it does to someone, could you please shed some light on this x

I think when I used to call them fake feelings that it helped but it just felt like it escalated. I totally get what you’re saying. Thank you so much ❤️ Stay strong too, we’ve got this ❤️ x

Yes absolutely I get this all the time! I’ll talk to my make friends / coworkers and feel like I’m cheating, when in reality I’m not. It sounds like you have anxiety about hurting loved ones, which isn’t a bad thing. It shows you care about them and don’t want to hurt them. You have to remember that this isn’t your logical thinking, but your anxiety making you worry and obsess over a thought. At the end of the day I like to read all my messages and remember “okay, this is just friends talking. There’s nothing more than that.” And it helps a bit. I’ll even send my female friends messages and ask them their input and they insure me it’s just friendly conversation. Stay strong ❤️❤️

Thank you so much for your reply! It’s nice to hear someone understands! Have you ever felt like your intrusive thoughts become a feeling? I used to call them “fake feelings”. Like a thought makes you feel like you don’t want to be with my boyfriend when I know I love him and will regret thinking/‘feeling’ that way later on! ❤️?

YES! All the time! You just have to remember that you acknowledge that these fake feelings bother you so they clearly aren’t real! It’s just an intrusive thought that continuously cycles through our minds. At the end of the day you know yourself and your true intentions and feelings. Your thoughts may say one thing but your heart will always be true. Stay strong it’s not easy but I definitely understand because I go through the same thing daily. You’re not alone. ☺️

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