I am new to this app so I really appreciate any feedback on this post! I suffer from what started as intrusive thoughts which has now escalated immensely over the last few years. I feel like I am not in control of myself, when it comes to being around my pet, other humans and worry about several things and more. Another one is a worry that I will betray my boyfriend who I love. Sometimes I have intrusive thoughts so strong that it almost becomes like a ‘feeling’. And I know I love my boyfriend but it’s almost like I’m so focused all the time that I feel exhausted, so sometimes I’ll get let the thoughts in about my boyfriend and being with him, and then it comes so strong that I almost believe the intrusive thoughts about him. When I’m out of this state of mind - I then feel extreme guilt and worry that I’ve done something to betray him like cheating. I’m so confused by this and so distressed. What I’ve wrote probably doesn’t even make sense, but if it does to someone, could you please shed some light on this x

Hi guys. I posted a few days ago but I didn’t get a response and I was wondering if anyone could take the time to read this below. I would really appreciate some advice because it’s something that I don’t feel I have a lot of knowledge about. And knowledge he power as they say. Thank you ❤️ Why does intrusive thoughts feel so real? I had an intrusive thought/fake ‘feeling’ about another guy I know who I used to date before my current boyfriend who is everything to me. And it felt like a real ‘feeling/emotion’. Why does this happen? Then I worry about my actions whilst ‘feeling’ that way

Having constant intrusive thoughts is exhausting. They have made me question my relationship, my sexual orientation, if i am a good person, and so much more. It’s weird how they are all connected in a way too. A lot of these thoughts that I have feel so real, and i’m just now learning how to tell the difference between what is true and what is an intrusive thought. but at this point i cannot tell. they all feel real but still make me so uncomfortable. i’m scared i actually feel a certain way, whether that be i don’t actually love my boyfriend, i am actually bisexual or a lesbian, or that i am actually a horrible person and have done horrible things. it’s hard to not believe these things when they are constantly nagging at you. im scared im not with the right person. im scared that im not attracted to him enough, im scared we don’t have enough in common and im scared we don’t think the same way. im scared im supposed to be with someone else and that i am hurting him by lying. and im terrified i am lying about my sexual orientation and using him to deny my true thoughts. im scared i am actually bisexual or lesbian. i think i can accept being bisexual more than being a full blown lesbian, but it’s still scary. im not sure if i am actually bisexual or if i just have intrusive thoughts. and i don’t know what to do from there if i am. if i am bisexual that means to me i have to be with a woman? even though i don’t want to and i’ve never seen myself with a woman. i keep replaying memories with girls and if i showed any signs. and then i get scared that because i was aroused by “specific” porn that it means i am lesbian. all of these things make me feel like a horrible person for treating my boyfriend this way, lying to myself, and for being so confused. it’s exhausting. i don’t even know where to start to get help. im scared that i have had OCD my whole life, and if i have, i’m scared a lot of my feelings and thoughts weren’t even real. im scared when i liked a boy, it was actually my OCD. im scared that when i’ve been attracted to something, it was just my OCD. i don’t know what to do

I feel like anytime I become really close to someone I can’t differentiate platonic or romantic feelings. My thoughts run wild thinking things along the lines of “you like them” “they secretly like you” “you could do —, —, or — with them.” I believe I’m Bisexual so I have these thoughts for both male & female, but sometimes I even worry about whether or not I’m really bisexual or if I’m just straight with extreme intrusive thoughts. I’ve had these thoughts about best friends, coworkers, & even relatives & it’s extremely disturbing. It makes me feel shameful for having these thoughts, especially with relatives or when in a relationship. I constantly have to tell myself that they’re just thoughts & I wouldn’t actually want anything to happen. I really don’t want to ruin my relationships with these people, but these thoughts wont go anyway no matter how many times I try to think the opposite in response to change my mindset. I’ve talked to my boyfriend about it & I’m very grateful that he’s so understanding, but it still troubles me. I’m really glad there’s another alternative of talking about these things