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You may want to share some external resources with her rather than discussing your particular intrusive thoughts and compulsions. https://ocdla.com/sexual-orientation-hocd-gay-ocd-treatment-1969/
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Does it make you think you like pussy ?. I actually think of attractive men and images of them will pop up in my head with no top on or just in a pair of pants showing there bulge 😞
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You will be okay. Intrusive thoughts are just that, intrusive. It’s not about the thought itself. It is about the relationship you have with them. It’s about the meaning you attach to them. It’s okay to think guys and girls are hot.
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It’s difficult for people not going through this, to understand. You need a therapist to speak with.
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Ive had 2 sessions of cbt
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Are you from the uk ??
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Having someone to talk to is also very important. A LOT of the times the people around us really don’t understand this obsession. It was similar to when someone would tell me they had anxiety about something and I would reply with “well, calm down” It’s natural for people to just look at something straight on without understanding the inner workings of a condition. People who are trained in mental health properly, know EXACTLY what you are talking about. Use them.
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Is it hocd you have ?
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Yes it is. I am from Canada.
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Can you tell me a bit about what you go through ?
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Sure. I have had HOCD aggressively for about a few months now but I beleive I had some form of cognitive dissonance to homosexuality a while back prior to full blown HOCD. It started off with the constant 24 hour doubt, almost to the extend I would want to throw up. I grew up sort of a tomboy but was always attracted to males. During my breakup with my current boyfriend, I found myself so self conscious of how I act “ if I was too masculine, and men would never really want to be with me”. If “ the person that I thought I was, was no longer who I really was. If my whole life had to change now because I’m now gay or I have been the whole time and just wasn’t able to know it. “ I also had very low self/esteem at the time. I started to study the same sex more than the opposite sex quite a bit. I got very anxious and nervous around pretty girls and it made me feel like every girl I saw that was pretty, I was attracted to. I felt trapped and kind of disgusted. I started to read books and listen to podcasts that explained exactly how I felt. I didn’t feel so alone. I started to understand my mind a bit better and now I’m in the process of digging really deep into these fears with a therapist. I am in the process of re-training my mind. Nowadays, I am not questioning my sexuality as much. It used to be about 4-5 times a day now it’s about once every two days. I still get anxious around beautiful women but now I don’t tie the anxiety to anything in specific. I allow it to pass.
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Yeah but i dont want the thoughts to be there. My loss of attraction for girls is scary i just feel like it is being replaced by men
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Helpfulheart. Did you say gay stuff in your head ?
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Yup, totally random things. That made me feel really bad. Thinking that a guy is hot is not a bad thought— it’s thinking that thinking that makes you gay is what is really messing with you. Be patient with yourself
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Yeah do you think that makes me gay ?
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This is reassurance seeking and it will only drive your obsession further
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Yeah i know. Its loss of attraction to women aswel i used to love women but the desire has gone and its killing me
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Stop seeking reassurance in any of these things. No answer will ever be enough.
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Chat GPT told me its more likely comphet than ocd Idk im scared Im scared that if i accept the uncertainty to know the truth once and for all 1) i end up actually turning out to be lesbian 2) I lose the guy i love (or i think i love idk atp) I’m remembering so many moments of same sex attractions from when i was little Im so scared im so scared Its too much
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im so scared that this is just denial and that im actuall gay. idk what to do anymore i need help. its just constant anxiety in my chest and i hate it. is there anything i can do to help?
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My arousal levels are just nothing they use to be I love my girl so much but I’m worried I turned gay and gonna have to leave her I don’t know what to do but I feel like she’s gonna notice my lack of arousal and question. I feel like I’m just gonna have to leave her until I get this sorted
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