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I had harm OCD for over a decade. Spectacularly, every friend and loved one has survived. I’m not sure how! I’ve thought of everything you can think of. Tossing kids in microwaves. Mass shootings where I’m the shooter. Rape. Being a serial killer. If it’s deprived and morally repugnant, it’s bounced around my gray matter a time or two. What I can say is ERP is profoundly helpful. Life-changing, really. I can enjoy things I used to (like true crime documentaries, cooking with knives, being alone with my kids without being terrified). I never would’ve thought it’s possible, but it is. I hardly ever have any harm thoughts. If you’re not in treatment, get started!
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You give me hope!
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Did you ever feel numb to your intrusive thoughts ? That feeling is enough to convince me or make me doubt if I would actually ever act on. Deep down I feel like I might one day act on it and I’m destined for which makes me super depressed. Is this common? Am I crazy?
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I had this struggle with harm ocd as well. The best way I could describe it is that I was so fearful of watching the Joker movie. He goes crazy and gets violent. That was my biggest fear and my harm ocd latched onto that a lot. The best thing you can do is do some erp and don’t fight the thoughts. Trust me. You will want to fight the thoughts, but doing so tells your brain there is something to fight. It is just ocd. Don’t pay any attention to it. Seriously. Oh so you want to kill a hamster? Ok. Oh well, it’s just OCD being silly. Ocd, you’re crazy you know that? Now move on with your day. I highly recommend you listen to Ali Greymond and her podcast “OCD help” or YouTube some ocd videos.
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Sorry if that triggered you.. in reality, you should expose yourself to healthy triggers. One by one it will become easier to ignore the thoughts
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@boilerup It didn’t trigger me your good! I want to fight them so bad because they’re so annoying. I’m just so sick of this
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I’m with you. I hear you!! I have the same “I don’t want to do that” impulse!!
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