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Thanks for sharing too! It’s not as atypical as you might think! - attaching reassurance seeking to a particular person - especially if they are an important person in your life. Is your marriage fairly “new”? In the beginning of mine (due to anxiety related to change) I would drive my husband crazy with reassurance questions out of catastrophic worries regarding whether he was right for me (my ultimate motivation was to “clear my mind in order to eat calmly” though- so this is my extra OCD layer). Ultimately, we had to be on the same team against OCD and recognize it for what it was and find ways to defeat it. I told him to tell me “you know the answer to the question sweetie” and then I would answer my own questions until it slowly dissipated as I got used to being together with him.
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Sameee and then ocd tries to make you think that it’s not actually ocd.
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Yes - because it’s “different” OCD tries to convince me that it’s not OCD (even though therapists have told me it is OCD) and that therefore I should follow what the irrational part of my mind says because “after all, maybe it’s not OCD, because it’s not ‘textbook example’”
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Yes I do.
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Thanks for sharing :) I’m not even sure if mine would classify as OCD but it takes over a lot of my life and greatly affects my quality of life. I obsess about my husband and project random attractions and thoughts onto him, and only get relief by asking him for reassurance. It’s to an extreme degree where it’s completely irrational. It’s gotten to the point where we can’t go anywhere together, watch any tv, or even spend time with family because I’m so triggered by any outside stimuli that somehow manages to make my mind run. It’s ruining our marriage ... almost has ended it several times.
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I like that solution! Thanks for the understanding and insight. We have been together for over a decade. For the first 6 or so years I was stuck on the “is he right for me” loop. That is still around but has significantly lessened over time. Then after years of some personal trauma and loss of identity, coupled with my husband hiding/lying about certain things for many years, the obsession morphed into this one.
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So, is your main compulsion not eating to avoid indigestion?
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Seems like OCD likes to take things and run with it to create havoc!! My hubby and I in the end got closer because of the OCD, because we have to not let OCD win. I think you have great insight and your relationship will come out on top of it!
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Yes, my main compulsion is not eating to avoid indigestion. Thank you for putting it that way - gives me insight into what’s really going on.
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Whenever I have a difficult situation, I get an irrational thought about it that sticks and I can’t get out of my head- and I’m only afraid of the scary thought out fear that it will “give me indigestion if I eat” - so then I fear food and I begin to drastically lose weight. I’m working with a therapist to learn to eat no matter what the thoughts. May I ask how yours is different from others?
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Hi, I’m new to the app as of today. I’m 20 years old, and wanted to get some stuff off my chest about the types of OCD I’ve been experiencing over the years. I’m not entirely sure how or when my OCD was brought up, but I’ve been a perfectionist for as long as I can remember. Anywhere and everywhere I go, if I see things placed in an order/angle that my brain doesn’t approve of, next thing I know I’m “fixing” it to be in the placement I feel looks better. I’m not aware of why I feel the need to do that, but until an object is in the “right” placement, I won’t take my eyes off of it. My eye will even twitch. Another form of OCD I have is in relationships. I spend each day overthinking and over-analyzing every one of the relationships that are important to me. Friends, family, significant other. Another one is what’s considered “Pure OCD” . When I get an intrusive thought of something devilish, whether it’s randomly seeing my great aunt naked bc my grandma considers her “fat” even though she’s not, or it’s seeing something demonic and traumatizing, I immediately tell myself, “I don’t wanna see/think about that” over and over and over until the thought is gone. Or I’ll try to replace one mental image with another. One other form of OCD I face every day, is religion. I got baptized for the first time in my life earlier this year in January. I had finally started to repent for my sins, and now I’m constantly feeling afraid that I’m letting God down due to my depression/lack of motivation and vaping/smoking. I also fear excessively that He’ll banish me from His kingdom, or just turn a cold shoulder. I know that what I’ve just typed up is probably all over the place. That is my brain unfortunately. How do you go from being a mentally disorderly and seemingly erratic young woman, to a more well-established, successful woman? I’m all ears!
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Hello all, I just found out about this app! I’m pretty sure I have OCD, but also not sure. I’d line to discover more about to and hear what other experiences are.
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Hello, I’m new to this app. I’ve always had an anxious brain, and I’ve had coping mechanisms for as long as I can remember. When I was a kid, from as early as I could spell, until I was probably early teens, I would constantly write words in my head along to the beat of music. It’s such a vivid memory because I never stopped doing it. The word had to perfectly match up to the lyric and I loved that it kept my brain busy. I grew out of that, but felt like good context. My anxiety increased drastically around ages 17-19, and I began therapy. I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety and panic disorder, due to having a panic attack nearly every day at that time. I overcame that as well, and now the panic attacks are every now and then, but the anxiety is constant, and some recent symptoms have led me to believe I might have some form of OCD. Maybe not. I’m trying to understand myself and get better so I joined this app to make sense of things. Lately I’ve been having really intense intrusive thoughts. I’m really embarassed and they make me feel like a bad person. Thoughts pop in my head seemingly out of nowhere. It will be an image of me harming myself or someone else in a really bad way. (Trigger warning) for example the other day I couldn’t shake the image of me putting a knife through my own forehead, although it’s not something I want to do. Or I’ll imagine someone killing me. I imagine my loved ones dying often. The thoughts feel so out of my control it’s insane. I hate them. Another persistent issue that isn’t as new is replaying social scenarios. I’m a hairstylist so this one is difficult since I meet a bunch of new people every day. I obsess over how I act and if people like me. I will impulsively say things all the time and they will haunt me for weeks. I question even my closest friends and family who show their love. I find myself so angry and numb and like I have so much built up emotion and a busy mind always. While doing my job I spiral really badly if any little thing goes wrong and it’s embarassing. I know there’s more but I can’t think of it now. I just want to feel better and like I’m not constantly battling my mind.
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